September, 24th 20xx
Hello Aiden, I know it's been a long time. A rather long, long time since I wrote to you last.
That reason being is that things have been really good this summer. Like, really good, beyond words. School is starting in three days.
Spending the summer with my family and the company of Pattie has been keeping my mind in balance from the dark thoughts that had lurked before.
I swear that I could consider myself to be better now. My heart aches everytime I see Pattie yet, my blood rushes with happiness with her presence. I needed her friendship. While just being friends killed me also. My feelings only deepened.
Though I would continue to never reveal it to her. She made it clear and so did I made it clear by getting myself a girlfriend. To try to move on. Pattie is still my closest friend. Probably my best friend that I'm smitten for.
But, this girl that I found I thought may help me ween off my desire to be with Pattie. Her name was Sandra Millon. She also got a job at the restaurant. She's 16. Has beautiful and wavy, caramel mixed blonde hair. That curls under a little longer than her chin. Along with expressive eyes.
She was honestly an incredible person. Or so I thought. I cared and had been trying to wean my feelings off of Pattie. I didn't want to hurt Sandra. My heart was still set heavily on Pattie.
I met Sandra on the 9th of July. So it was a bit over a month. I thought Sandra was a genuine person like Pattie was. There was no jealousy between her and Pattie. Aiden, is it bad that I hoped that Pattie would be a little jealous? Of course she wasn't. She was happy for me. They got along great actually.
Everything was amazing during the summer. One I'd never forget. One I wanted to remember for so long down the road. One I expected to have really helped me pull through my depression.
Everything I had hoped for ended up being a big fat lie. A sick game. I was blinded from reality this summer. When it came to returning to school, I hoped that things would be decent. That I would start off with bo worries about Charlie Love or his mutts. Everything I thought I had this summer was all a trick.
I thought I had met someone who could genuinely like me back. In the end I was just a pond once again in a game of humiliation.
Turns out the sincere person I looked forward to seeing more of in Sandra was all fake. An actress in a great disguise. Easily had me trapped and she played with my heart.
After the first few days, everything was normal. But, on the Thursday of that week, everything was thrown right back into my face.
Sandra played me so, so well. All over the school, there were giant posters containing screenshots of the texts I shared between Sandra and I. Her dating me was all a scheme behind the cruel mastermind himself. Charlie Love. Turns out they are actually a couple. Just she goes to a different school.
I never felt more humiliated until now. I immediately confronted Charlie Love and his bitch. I had lost all respect for Sandra. Her name wasn't even Sandra. It was Chantel.
I told Charlie that I don't give a rats ass if he humiliates me, just don't bring Pattie down with me. He agreed to my terms. Charlie wasn't big on harassing the female students anyways.
My heart and the bit of pride I held after healing, allowing others in my life vanished vastly. It seemed I could only trust one outsider. Which was Pattie Clarence.
I lied to Pattie. Telling her I broke things off with her. I kept to myself for a few days. Bleeding silently through another heartbreak. And betrayal. I didn't give her a clear answer. Not even a false one. After a few days I pretended to bounce back like nothing happened.
I knew Pattie was upset with me for hurting her new friend. Too bad she didn't know that her friend was just filled with lies. I guess I saved Pattie from dealing with another shitty friend again.
After a few days, Pattie came around. No longer furious at me. Telling me she had been blowing her off too anyways. I was more important than Sandra. Pattie knew I'd only do that if something wasn't right.
My feelings for Pattie resurfaced stronger since she was so willing to stand by me.
I'm once again walking down the halls with a big fat target on my back. Except so much larger and worse. I was the laughing stalk of the school. The students new topic to gossip about.
Gossip about rumors that aren't true. I was gonna end up bringing a beautiful girl down with me. She has already dealt with a harsh past before moving here. She moved to get away from it. Only to be dragged back into it more.
All because of me.
All I can see is how things play out for now Aiden. I wish you were here too.
I was also even thinking about trying to see Julia in the hospital too? Maybe bring Pattie? I don't know.
I really don't know.
Zeke,