October 4th 20xx
I don't know anymore
I am lost and afraid
Everything inside my core
Has darkness that I've made
With all the sadness that I've built
Makes it hard for me to cope
I really hate feeling all this guilt
When deep inside I know there's hope
I may not know right now
And I hope that's okay
Because I need to make a vow
That this misery will fade away
Everything's wrong and nothing seems right
I mean I'm hiding a lot of pain inside
That I've hid during the day and night
And I'll never tell people that I've cried
That I've cried myself to sleep
Without one knowing soul
I refuse to make a peep
Since to remain silent is my goal
I tried to remain looking as happy as can be
So I don't worry anyone
Cause I don't want them worrying for me
I'm just trying to protect everyone
In the end. one beautiful girl
Sneaked soundless into my life abruptly
She's forever changing my world
Seeing into my world and caring for me so suddenly
She is my muse and yet my corruption
Causing me to fall it's imaginable
Since pretty much her first self-introduction
But, there's also a pain so unmanageable
She's something I yearn yet can't gain
She a fire so strong and bold
I'd put out that fire I was the rain
I would only leave that heart wet and cold
She continues to stay, trying hard help me
While my love and this friendship does make conflict within
I'll try to never let go of who may be
The last resort to keeping my fight a win
While she helps me, I also help her too
A much needed soul, needing purpose
And a companion to help each other get through
The hell that we seen when they resurface
But, in the end I still hold regret
About the pains tearing out my core
I'm trying to heavily forget
There times I'm still not sure I want to live anymore
I don't much to say besides this poem.
Zeke,