July 15/94
I am so confused. I don't know what Chris wants anymore. He's so distant, he won't tell me what's on his mind other than he thinks he's a bad boyfriend or a fuck up. Okay, if he thinks that then why doesn't he change? Maybe he cheated on me? He says that's not it. But he won't talk to me, he's acting weird on the phone, there's silence. He's always been the talkative one and now it's just like what is he thinking?
I love him so much but I don't know how much longer I can take his shit. He wants to go out with his friends more but being a dick isn't cool, if he doesn't smarten up soon I'm just going to have to break-up with him.
I'll tell you what happened more tomorrow cause I wrote him this totally long letter and it basically covers everything that's bothering me. I love him and I hate not knowing what's wrong or if it's me.
Ugh.
Later