I heard a snicker from her and make me looked at her again. Why did she laugh?
"She's blushing…" Diana said. "It's love!" she laughed out loud, slapping her own knees.
"Actually...I didn't really know why...but I guess I love him." I said bashfully. I raised my hands to touch my burning face. Diana squeaks while Jade makes a judgy face.
Our conversation was disrupted by a phone call, and Jade hurriedly picked up and went outside. It's the food.
"And?" She looked at me again. "I am still upset about it but what happened? Tell me? What do you mean just now, that you made the move first?" she whispered.
"I made a move and ruined it within a second," I said with a soft chuckle. "I wanted to do it again last night, but he refused."
Her eyes widened. "You didn't! How do you do it? I mean...how-what move?"
At this point, I wonder where the protective Diana go, does she got blinded by Ayden's beauty? She looked excited.
"I touched him. His abs and his...you know...that."
We both looked at each other, she had that smirk. Then she let out a chuckle, which made me a bit confused. I smiled a little since it's contagious.
"Sorry! I know I shouldn't laugh but I don't know if I should be sad or should laugh. But it's absolutely not the right time to laugh, but it's unexpectedly hilarious! You make a move first! How? Tell me more! Before Jade…" she stopped laughing and turned around when the door clicked open. "Damn it…" she muttered and looked at me.
"We talked later." She said, and stood up, pulling me up with her, ready to eat. We both stood up and went to the table.
"What are you guys talking about?" he glanced at both of us, with a suspicious look.
"About sexual intercourse, I taught her a few tips, baby," she said, nonchalantly, making me choke on my own saliva and Jade blushed.
Why is he blushing though? I looked at Diana and Diana looked at him, seducingly. What the fuck?
"Why the fuck are you blushing?" I scorned him, making him flustered and clearing his throat.
"You shouldn't, Dee…stop," he muttered, looking at her, with a soft gaze. I looked at them both in turn. What the...I finally looked below the table, the fuck!
She's literally stroking her legs on his...I raised my head up. I feel like I'm watching my mom and dad, making moves on each other. Disgusting!
"You two are crazy!" I scowlled and she just laughed it off. But now that I think, wouldn't it be better if I asked them for advice?
"Um...But seriously though, how do you do it? Like how do you…" I looked at Jade who already glared at me. Sending me a warning. I'm really curious how he does it without remembering it? I mean, I'm just curious.
He sighed and glanced at his future wife.
She was already munching and shrugged at my question.
"It's not going to be easy though, Jade tried a few times too. And he has a hard time every single time, and I don't want to force him if doing it reminds him of his trauma. So I rather wait. We do try and error few times, and of course, we failed a lot. But eventually, he just adapted to it, I guess...or perhaps, he finally was able to forget about the pain. I think Jade trying hard to move forward and I'm going to tell you if you want to try it too, don't force yourself and just take a slow step. Maybe started by holding hands, hugging, cuddling, kissing, and then if you want to try sleeping with each other, go ahead. Just take your own time to learn how to embrace the fear and fight for it. And never rushed yourself, that will make you even more stressed. And start doing something else too, like going out and just treat yourself more. You need to love yourself first before giving that love to someone else, darling."
"And intercourse is not the only way to show that you love someone. You can show them that you love them by how you looked at them, how you talked to them, how you listen to every single detail of what they said, how you noticed every single small detail they had, or perhaps notice what they like or they don't like, their favourite food, their favourite songs, their favourite movie, books or something. Or maybe by how you hold their hands or cuddle them. Even the slightest thing you did, if you did it for them, they would love it. And hugs and kisses or even holding hands are still a way to show you love someone. So don't be pressured and take it easy, girl." Diana said, grabbing Tuna Tataki and shoved it inside her mouth.
"Really?" I took a bite of sushi and pondered. I mean, he said that too. Take it easy and slow. But the thing is, I'm the one who is turned on and horny and needy every time I see him.
"For a newbie, just go on a lot of dates," Jade added. "As Diana said, go out and do something you like, if you don't have one, search for it. Something that makes you happy and excited when you do it. More likely like a hobby? And yes, you need to love yourself first, embrace all of your flaws, learn how to live with all of them, including your past. Just focus on healing first, I'm sure, if he truly loves you, then he will be okay by waiting and help you going through the healing process even more."
I nodded and took another bite. Dates…
Maybe that's what I need the most.
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It's currently seven pm and I received a message from Ayden, saying that he's outside. I looked at myself, wearing a plain t-shirt and sweatpants, and turned my head back, toward Jade and Diana who's playing chess in my living room. I hurriedly went out and walked down to see him. And he was there, sitting on his car hood, wearing a white shirt with a black jacket as outerwear and tucked his shirt in his jeans. He smiled eyes to eyes. He sent me a tiny wave and I waved him back. I walked toward him and he stood up and pulled me inside his embrace.
"Hi," he said, kissing my head. He pushed me a little and took off his jacket and put it on me. "How are you? Feeling better?"
"Hi, and yes, I feel better. Thank you." I hugged him back, nuzzling my nose into his chest, and got a sniff of his scent. The scent is subjective, but this smoky lusciousness does awesome things for me. This smell is smoky and calms me down. It's very intense, but enough to enchant me. I love it.
He chuckles as his hands wrapped around my neck.
"I like your messy bun. It's cute… and alluring for no reason," he said, with his husky voice, sending chills to my bones.
"Are your friends still inside?" He asked, pulling me to sit on the hood, next to him.
"Yeah, they're probably going home soon."
"Really?"
"Have you eaten yet? Let's go inside. I will fix something for you." I said, slid down from the hood, and clasped his arm with. He just followed my lead and climbed the stairs with me. And I saw Diana and Jade come out of my house. She gave us a smile, a meaningful one.
"Going home already?" I asked her and she nodded, glancing at the sour face, Jade. Did he just glare at Ayden? I looked up at Ayden, who was still smiling but god, I can see his veins popped up from his neck, did he just clench his jaws?
"Yeah...me and Jade have something to do, right, boo?" she looked up, caressing his hand, making him look at her and sighed.
"We'll come over next week, okay. Take care. Don't skip your meals, and if anything happens, please call us." he said, glancing at the man behind me.
"Okay, bye, thanks for coming."
Diana pulled me for a hug and kissed my cheeks, before pushing her fiance away from us.
"Bye!" she shouted as she climbed down the stairs.
I opened my door and looked behind me, "Come in." I walked inside and took off my slippers.
"We don't have indoor slippers here, but take your shoes, and wash your hands first. Have you eaten yet? I can fix something for you if you haven't." I went to the kitchen and opened my fridge.
"Princess...before you cook, can you give me something that I really need now?" I tilted my head towards him. "A kiss please," he said with a smile.
I smiled at him back and let out a giggle, standing on my toes, and wrapped my arms around his neck, as he bent down a little, to meet my lips, kissing, sucking and licking me, leaving me breathless.
"Is fettuccine carbonara okay?" I asked him, half-whispered, making him smirk.
"Yes, it would be lovely?"
"Alright, go take a shower." I pushed him a little, making him pout.
"And what would I wear, princess?" he hugged from behind. I take out some bacon strips, milk and cream, some sausages, and capsicum.
"Just grab one that fits you the most."
He hugged me again and kissed the crook of my neck. "Okay, be right back."
He finally went for a shower, and I cooked quickly. I cook bacon until it's crisp in a medium-size pan. Then, I started to boil the water and started to chop the onion, garlic, capsicum, and sausages into smaller pieces.
"Hey, baby...do you need any help?" I turned my head toward the angelic voice for a second and back to my chopping board with a smile. He smells like me.
"Hmm, can you put the fettucine inside that pot? It's boiling already." He moved next to me and put the fettucine inside the pot. I glanced at him, who was wearing my largest t-shirt and it fits him well. Okay maybe a little tight and short for him. But it's fit him. I'm lucky that I have large clothes.
I started to stir-fry the onion and garlic and put the sausages and capsicum too. I grabbed the cotton of milk and poured it inside the pot and grabbed the cream and did the same.
And I stirred them for a while, let them simmer and moved to the fettucine.
"Go and wait there, it'll be ready soon."
"Do you need more help?"
"It's fine, I'll do it, okay. Go and sit."
He looked at me with a pout again. He walked out from the kitchen and waited on the dining table, drying his hair with a towel.
Cute.
I quickly finished the dish, so I can feed this man. As soon I'm done, I went to the dining table and put the plate in front of him.
"Thank you, baby. I'm starving!"
"It's my pleasure." I sat in front of him with my plate and started to eat it with him.
"Is it good?" I asked him, who almost finished the plate after three mouthful spoons. Damn, how fast he eats?
"It's delicious. Is there more?" I nodded and he stood up quickly in the kitchen. He must be hungry.
"How's work?" I asked him, took another bite of the pasta.
He came back with a full plate and sighed.
"I'm so tired, they lacked staff, therefore we have to bring in our new frame and photos, and hanged them all over the gallery by ourselves, and I have to go back to my studio, to preparing for the photoshoot, and schedule, and I also have a meeting for my photoshoot with a magazine and an interview with this youtube channel, and you know what is worst?"
I stared at him, listening to all of his exhausting stories and shook my head to answer him.
"What is it?" I asked, making him smile and leaned a bit forward.
"I keep thinking about you. And when I opened my phone, I just realised I only have one photo of you. And it's not enough for recharging me." he said, wiping my mouth with his finger and bringing it to his mouth and licking it.
But what photo? I squinted my eyes toward him.
"You have my photo? What photo? I didn't remember giving you any of my photos or sending you one?"
He looked up and leaned on his chair. He already finished his second plate. He wiped his mouth with his fingers and licked them before he grabbed his phone and shoved it in my face. It's a photo of me sleeping!
How?
"Beautiful, right. I put this one up too for my exhibition."
I looked at him in disbelief. Is he joking? Please tell me that he is joking?
"Are you mad?" he asked and I sighed.
"Yes, no...you're joking, right?"
He laughed and nodded as he leaned forward even more.
"Only I can see your sleeping face."
Okay, that's embarrassing and yes, it's kinda pissing me off. What if I have drool all over my face? How could he?!
He laughed, standing up and sat next to me. He grabbed my plate and fed me.
"You don't have to worry about that. I wouldn't do anything bad when you are asleep, maybe, snapping a picture, but that's because you are so cute and beautiful," he said, wiping my mouth since the cream smudged my lips.
"And...one more thing that you don't know, when you're asleep, you look like sleeping beauty, stunning, and beautiful. Sometimes, I find it hard to control myself."
He looked at me straight, and I'm lost inside his eyes.
"Tch, you such a sweet talker." I clicked my tongue as he said that.
"Question...May I kiss you now?" he asked me, cupping my chin with his hand.
"Yes, but it would taste like carbonara." he laughed softly.
He leaned closer and kissed my forehead. I never knew that my own soap and shampoo could smell so alluring and sultry. And I don't even know that a person can look so seductive in my shirt.
"Thank you, I love you baby!" he said, hugging me tightly, giggling softly.