Lee Jieun's POV
While I walked home with Jungkook, I wished this long vivid dream would never end.
Sometimes I would just walk slower to slightly admire him from the back, and wait for him to realize my absence and look back at me in concern. It sounded simple but my emotions felt the opposite.
The way he chuckled through the shortest conversations. Listened to me carefully and attentively as I talked about the most irrelevant things.
As I waved goodbye to him and he watched me enter the door gate. I rushed into the room feeling all sorts of emotions.
"I wish I could simply meet him again as I wake up from this dream." I said allowing my self into deep sleep.
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I opened my eyes as I felt a light.
"Mom, please close the lights." I whined.
"Do you miss mom that much?" The voice cackled slightly.
I got up in confusion, as my vision focused on a blurry figure.
"Rowoon?" I asked bewildered.
"Are you sleep talking or something? Just come down, breakfast is ready" he replied.
I started questioning if this was really a dream.
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I got down and rushed out outside to check what was really going on. I left trying to search for answers.
First place I thought of was home.
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I reached my front door, I stood there not knowing what do. While my thoughts kept pondering, I heard the door open.
It was my mom, she looked worn out and fatigued. As if she hasn't slept for days.
She looks at me and asks, "Excuse me, do you need anything?"
"I am Jieun's friend." I stuttered the first thing could think of.
"If you haven't heard she at the hospital right now sweetie." She chocked up with teary eyes.
"What, why?" I startled.
"I don't know she just suddenly wouldn't wake up, I am sure it's all my fault. As a doctor or a parent I couldn't even protect her." She shed tears.
"No it's not your fault." I stuttered.
It's all my fault, I am the one who wasn't satisfied with my life and wished for this. And I ended up hurting my mom like this.
My mom turned to her car, I stood there as my breath got heavier. I was out of breath, while my heart thudded in my chest. I couldn't stay at the house any longer or even look at it.
I took a deep breath till i turned around and said "Can you take me with you?".
I didn't know what to expect, nothing was occupying my mind but the fact that this is all my fault.
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When we reached , I took slow steps contemplating what to do at this point.
My mom opened the door. My body was there, I could see my self in deep sleep.
I was terrified. Many questions went through my head. I took this persons life? Is she in my body? And whats going to happen to us?
I took a deep breath as I tried to hold my bodys hands expecting something to happen. My mom started crying and left the room, while I put my head down in bed next to my figure.
I started tearing up uncontrollably. Then I got a call. I sighed at the sound of the ringtone and look at my phone, it's Rowoon. He is probably worried about Heejin, since I suddenly left. I thought to my self, I really am making things worse.
I answered the phone "Heejin where the hell are you? Why did you leave all of a sudden like that you scared me, are you okay?"Rowoon fretted.
"Yeah I am fine I just left to check on my sick friend." I quietly explained.
"Which friend? You never told me anything about your friends being sick? Is she okay now?".
"I don't know, I will talk to you later okay?" I ended the call.
I looked at my self once again and step out of the room to leave to Heejin's home. Thinking to my self that I shouldn't ruin her life like I ruined mine. She didn't deserve it.
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Through my deep thoughts, I prompted my self with past life regressions and unsatisfactory. I filled my soul with a new person. With the stories I wrote , I fooled my self into this eggs to be reborn into them. I fell for it, I fell for debate and I have been suppressed.
Real life messages pushed me into the deep sea, where I imagined my life out of it. The only way is to be a whale, I thought.
My old self I don't speak what you speak, leaving me patient with your eyes. What I understood was the pain and reflecting tears. I came to satisfy you but what am I now?
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