While we're in the meeting earlier with the dukes i wasn't focusing with my work, my thoughts was still in what happened with Wayne and i and of course i can't bring this topic up to Lucifer. Telling that and thinking that he might judge me befriending with a traitor is such a shame but still Wayne became a part of me already yet i can't decide that fast. Wayne is nowhere to be found anymore, no one knows where he went, no one cares except me i guess.
My mind just came back from reality when i reached Lucifer's room.
"You've been busy daydreaming lately." and he's looking at me with a straight look.
Feels like cat got my tongue that i forgot how to talk already.
"I know what you're hiding." as he said those words i hella stutter more than i imagined in my whole life i don't know i should explain everything.
"W-when? Since when have you known the truth?" and i finally i was able to say something.
"After the party since that time, i have already suspect him in the first place but i don't want to tell it to you not having any proof at all. It's not in my nature to just accuse them." he explained still looking at me with in straight look on his eyes.
"Why didn't you say anything to me? Why didn't you told me earlier, if you did then.. then maybe we can save Wayne. Maybe he's been controlled or threaten by someone." my voice was cracking as i said those words to him, looking down. I clench my fists as i can feel that my tears is almost dropping.
"Cut the crap, i fucking hate those maybes of yours." i flinch as i heard his voice was no longer the Lucifer i know its like he's also angry but i don't know why and to whom.
"I've known everything of course not only about that slave but also about my brother." i was still confuse seeing him catching his forehead like this i know that he's also feeling distress as i am.
"That he's actually a half demon and an half angel the son of Micheal, he's real father.. the one who abandoned him and brought him into our family." my brain can't catch everything this is too much for me to handle, these news came like a bombshell and i don't know anymore.. i might gone crazy if i keep thinking but i had to do so..
I know nothing at all about their stories so when i heard everything it's like i can feel them, those burden that they keep inside for so long but still..
"Why did you keep it all this time?" I've been meaning to ask this i want to know everything about him, about Lucifer. What does he feel? Or so..
"Father.. The deceased king wanted me to keep it, he treated Phantom as his own son so he don't want him to get hurt." he's looking in a far place i which i don't even know where.
I just keep myself silent and just listen to him. This is enough for me, and i hope for him too.
"I want you to keep this as a secret too. I already broke the promise i made to the previous king but still i.." he was staring at me and so me too waiting for him to continue. His blue eyes staring at me was like almost ready to cry but he just kept himself silent and the next thing he did was sigh.
From that i know that he no longer have a plan to continue somewhat i understand that.
"What if.. I didn't do so?" i asked, knowing that i wouldn't do that but somewhere inside me wants to know what he'll answer.
"I know you wouldn't, its all written in your face." he replied with a serious tone on his voice. "And i trust you." those last words kept ringing from my mind and my chest thump like crazy.
I couldn't believe that he trust me like this i thought that he thinks of me lower than a trash but it changed my beliefs and dang if he keep doing this i'll fall for him even harder and i hate that i can't stop myself.
I can't help but to feel happy knowing that he actually trust me yet I'm in no position at all. But still let me feel that I'm being loved even for a little bit.
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The Dukes visited the castle along with Phantom as he's also one of the dukes. I can't look at him at all in his eyes i keep avoiding his gaze as i find myself guilty for accusing him from the start for being the spy when he's actually not.
Yet destiny really sucks especially in this kind of timing.
"Hey!" he yelled when i passes on him.
I stopped but not turning my back on him.
"Yes?" i asked still not facing him.
"Why not look at me first. Is this how you supposed to treat the ones higher than you?" he grumbled. I know that i'm wrong but it's so awkward to face him like this.
And i heard his footsteps coming closer.
"Now.." he whispered so close to my ear.
I felt his breath tickles my ears and jolt.
"Why don't you explain everything to me?" sabi nito na pinag takahan ko kaya naman kunot-noo akong humarap rito.
"What do you mean?" i asked back.
"Don't play dumb bitch." he said that made my blood boil.
"What the heck is wrong with you really?!" i raised my voice in anger.
At first i was feeling guilty for what i did but it was actually nonsense when it comes to this demon and i'm just so mad at him.
He snort, "For fuck sake, i know what Lucifer and you were talking about yesterday." and that made my eyes widen.
'W-what does he mean by that?'
'I mean how come he knows about what we've just talked?'
"W-what does he mean by that? I mean how come he knowd about what we've just talked?" my jaw almost dropped from hearing that.
"Now you know. That i know everything you think." he said while a grin drew on his face.