Next day , I again came at the balcony and I saw that he is going on a bike .
I rushed like anything , in my nighty , my slippers , my hair messed and my mom questions were not ending.....
I took my cycle and ran behind him. He was driving so fast and my cycle "urgh" so slow..... Then he stop in front of a house and I just made myself behind the bushes.
A beautiful girl came out with a huge smile like she has deep relation with him. I really got angry at this situation but what can I do ? I love him without his knowledge and he is not aware of my feelings and also he don't know me . She sat behind him and then they moved. And I was thinking what can happen if he is in relation...
My mind and my heart was totally destroy . I really want him , I generally wanted him but...
What can I do ? Shall I go behind them , but I was so reluctant so I just gave up.
I came at my home , locked myself in my room , just jumped on my bed and I covered pillow over my face and I was just thinking " WHAT IS HAPPENING ? " Who is she ? Where they went ? What they might be doing ? ARE THEY IN RELATIONSHIP OR SOMETHING ????
Noooooo...
This can't help it.
I was totally destroy by my own thinking .Then I just got ready for school with a down face .
And " ahhh" That's it , all over , don't know what all thinking were arriving in my mind...
But there was a voice coming in my mind which said , DON'T THINK TOO MUCH , WORK ON IT , IT MAY BE NOT A BIG DEAL , JUST A SMALL THING , JUST GO FIND HIM ...
And this thing really helped me to get up but I was full of negative thoughts...
I told myself that " It's ok . You will find another one who is waiting for you . Only you." That day I understood that " LOVE THEM WHO LOVE YOU". " WAIT FOR THEM , WHO ARE WAITING FOR U". " FIND THEM WHO ARE LOST FOR U".