All she had to do was walk over to him. or at least to have him see her. But she was terrified. She saw him and shook with fear. How was she supposed to go and then what? She had nothing to offer what if they were impossibly different and it was a waste of time. So she sat behind the tree hoping he would give up. But without fail he was there at 5:20 everyday until 9pm. And maybe this was a routine for him but he took time to look up and search and she had a feeling it was for her.
"What's wrong with me!?"
She yelled as she paced the house.
"Why can't i just walk up to him!?why do i care!?"
She looked at her shaking hands,
"Why can't he just give up so i don't feel so guilty…."
THe next day she went to the tree and sure enough he was there and she felt she was going to vomit.
No! She had to do this! Today was the day. She took a breath,
God give me strength.
And she walked over the sky was darker but she continued. And maybe if he didn't look up she would just keep walking but no such luck as he glanced at her and when their eyes met he smiled and closed the book.
"Terrified huh?"
She looked away hiding her trembling hands behind her back,
"11 days. That's how long it took you to come."
It was already going for 8 there wasn't much that he wanted to do. Especially since he had waited 11 days. So how to handle this? He looked back at her and his eyes widened as tears were pouring from her eyes despite her desperate attempt to wipe them away.
"I… sorry.. I… I.. don't know why… I… I'm sorry…"
Haru opened his mouth but closed it thinking about his words carefully,
"Let's try again tomorrow"
She looked at him confused,
"Practice makes perfect."
She looked shocked,
"But… what if i don't show?"
He looked at her and took a breath he still had half a book left,
"Try and if not….. I can wait"