"Urgh" Barry groan as he woke up to light shining on his face from the morning sun "I should have closed those curtains " Barry muttered as he stood up and began to stretch as he felt his body release all the stress from his body. He then opened the window inhaling the cool morning air with the sun shining brightly in the sky he felt relaxed as he couldn't remember the last time he felt this good as he looked down at the early morning rush hour of people going to work as he "11:49" Barry reads looking up at his clock "I slept longer than I thought" he saysss as the thoughts of team flash and his family pops into his head and how he felt about them. iris God what that woman had done to him he hated her, no he absolutely loathed her no not just her he hated the wests he swore that if he wasn't good he would shoved his hand straight through their chest so they would feel the exact pain he felt but he can't sand he wouldn't give into such hateful impulses not matter how tempting the idea was, not cause of his self-righteous morality but because that's not who he is, that not the man his parents raised him to be he wouldn't scope so low for revenge but hoped that karma bites them all in the ass and as for cisco and Caitlin he wasn't sure why he felt indifferent about them maybe because he felt right for them hating after all he had caused after flashpoint by killing cisco brother and turning Caitlin into killer frost and for that he felt actually guilty "crack" Barry heard as he looked to see that the window stills had cracked due to his strength and anger but he wouldn't let all those thoughts ruin his day though he had a nagging feeling that today is going to be hell as he performed a breathing exercise expelling all the negative emotions from his body..... as heading to bathroom for a shower enjoying the heat of the warm water as it cascades down his body oh how he missed hot water during baths. He heads down once done pouring a bowl of cereal with the TV turned on as he begins to ponder on what he should do he knows he can't go back to his old job at CCPD it won't just workout the way people would look at him wondering if it's safe for him to be there since his an ex-convict though he's certain captain singh would vouch for him but it would be enough and then there's Joe the man he thought of as a surrogate father had forgotten and had abandoned him Barry didn't hate him no he was just indifferent about him he had a nagging feeling that it was because of iris and wally that Joe had left him and then there was him being the flash as much as he would have love to put on the red suit again and show wally who the fastest it just wouldn't feel right the thrill and joy of saving people isn't just there anymore. There wasn't anything left for him anymore in central city he needed to go and find himself and that meant him leaving central city but where would he go to he thought to go to he thought "I,ll figure that out later" he thought finishing up his cereal he quickly made his way out of his apartment as people walked passed him looking at his watch "12:34"he said with a sigh" got to get this over with" barry said as he called over a cab entering he said "to CCPD" as he rides in silence as billie eilish plays in the background from the radio 20 minutes later the cab stops as Barry comes out after paying for it as he walks into CCPD a little bit nervous to be there as cops look at him in surprise and suspicion as he walks straight to Singh's office as they murmur about him
What's he doing here, i hope he ain't back to work here, hope not it would give us bad cred, Isn't he a murderer, He was framed and proven innocent, Yeah but he can't still be clean after staying in the slammer can he, don't know man but its best we stay away just in case" what do the hell do about the shit have gone through" Barry thinks tuning them out as he grits his teeth to prevent him from lashing out at them as he enters Singh office hello Barry it's been a long time" Singh says looking up from all the paper work scattered on his desk as barry noticed how the same captain singh looked except from a strand of grey hair from his head and how he looked stressed at the moment "hey there captain singh how's it going" barry said with a genuine smile as he remember what Diggle told him about captain Singh having a hand in contacting his friend at Freeland deputy bill Henderson to keep tabs on Devoe while he found way to contact Argus and tell them about the situation and barry grateful for that am " alright barry its good to see you finally free again barry" singh replies yeah thanks for everything you've done for me captain" "no biggy barry it the least I could do for you I knew you were innocent from the first day barry" said singh "at least someone believed I was innocent" barry said darkly "don't let it get to barry I know joe and your friends abandoning was hard but you need to move on barry forget about them and move on" singh replied with frown on his face as he remembered how joe and the others had been so dismissive of him when he was incarcerated " I know I have to look forward and forget about them but it's not that easy "he replied solemnly "then confront them before you try to move on it'll be easier" I guess your right captain" Barry replied "anyway barry onto why I invited you here was to talk about you coming back" singh said as he raised his hand to stop barry from interrupting as he continued " I know you wouldn't feel comfortable with coming back here so I called up a few different police Districts and submitted your resume in some cities when to where freed from iron heights to see if they needed a forensic expert like you and they all came in positive but just so you know your position here has not been taken though we have gotten a new recruit "as he gives barry a file containing the cities he's been accepted by so he could choose "thank you captain" barry said it's the least I cou..."captain here's the report on the analysis of the body you gave to have a look at" a voice cut in as a dark haired man in white coat entered singh office "hm done already" singh commented "yh and based on the analysis it seems whoever did this had the ability to drain out one's life force" the man replied as he took notice of him "oh my god your barry allen CCPD ex-forensic expert I have always wanted to meet you" he said hand "Uh ok" barry replied confused as he feels something off about the guy "August give him a break and no he's not coming back to work here" singh said asif reading his mind ' barry this is August Heart our new forensic analysis he started working here a year ago and he's quite fond of your work" singh said with a chuckle "nice to meet you too august" barry said as he shook his hand and then barry felt something he hadn't felt from anyone except himself and other speedsters "what how the hell does he have the speedforce" barry thought as he schooled his shocked expression as the amount of speedforce energy he felt within August was enormous a knock from the door had interrupted barrys train of thought "enter singh said barry immediately stiffened as he saw who enter the room it was joe the ex-surrogate father as both their eyes met one in shock and the other in unadulterated anger and the air within the room felt thick and filled with silence and tension "hello joe what can I do for you singh inquired breaking the silence as he noticed how close barry was to snapping with the shaking of his hands were any indication as August stood nervously between them as barry was glaring at Joe and joe felt like disappearing at this very moment "y-y-yes have returned from escorting Devoe to bell reve but it seemed different and less driven do you know what might have happened to him Joe said nervously as he felt barry burning holes through his head with his gaze "no Joe I don't know what happened but if am to guess green arrow and his team gave him an ass whooping that he wouldn't forget now if you're done you can go and hand over your report later" Singh replied as Joe quickly leaves the room to escape the unparalleled tension within the room "am so sorry about that Barry" Singh says "don't worry about I was bound to meet him at some point but thanks anyway I'll come by to see you before I leave central city" Barry replies as he regains control of his emotions "nice meeting you Barry" August says as barry smiles at him as he leaves quickly walks out of the precinct as he sees Joe talking on the phone probably with iris or somebody while looking at him with a face of sorrow "bullshit" Barry thinks as he made his way outside as he feels broken and sad just like before as he walks down the road "I need to move forward and forget about them, but it's hard I don't think I,ll be able to move on" Barry thinks as he would have had a shoulder to cry on but he had no one who he could really talk the only people who would understand are his parents and their gone parents Barry pauses as he thinks of jay Garrick his dad from earth 3 who was also a speedster and might be the only who could help bring him out of the shit storm of emotion he was feeling and tell him what to do as he enters an alley making sure no one is around he closes he eyes and breathes in and out slowly as he feels speedforce lightning flow through him its power its electricity flowing through his veins travelling through every nerve in his body like shock as he opens his eyes with lightning crackling within them and in blur of orange lighting he's gone moving through the city as fast as ever "that's odd Barry notes as the speedforce feels different to him but shrugs it away to the thought him of him not accessing for a long time as opens a breach and goes through thinking of earth three as he immediately appears on earth 3 and runs to an alley "now how to find j-a gust of wind and lighting is heard behind him as he turns to face he's father doppelganger "hey Barry it's been long jay comments "hey jay can we talk"