Yashiro looks at me and smiles and signs me not to worry this much. He is also keeping Tachibana company while I'm drowning in liquor and depression. How can two people be so similar in their concept about life yet act differently! I'm talking about Kaigara and Yashiro. They are like two different sides of same coin.
"Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
Love comes slow and it goes so fast"
'Let Her Go' by 'Passenger' is playing in the bar. Don't know how but I feel empty hearing this song now. Maybe I should just let her go and run away. What am I even thinking? I can't run away like this. I can be such an idiot sometimes. No it's not idiotic, it's rather selfish. I wish I could be a little like Kaigara.
"Aren't you worried about the exam next month?!"
"No, why would I be."
I kept staring at Kaigara. It was our finals of 7th grade. It was quite important as it would have decided whether we could continue our study at the school or not.
He just straight up said, "Look, I'm not a guy who plans far ahead. I just fix what I want to have and then figure the way out as I keep walking to that goal. That way I'm not worried when I shouldn't be. I need to worry about the exam when I'm studying, not now."
I wish I could think like him now. Why can't I not worry now and enjoy the party with her. It's not fair, I'm not being fair to her. Just because I have to worry about the future doesn't mean she can't enjoy some with me. But I can't. I wish.... I wish Kai was here to scold me and fix my broken thoughts. Why is he not here?
"I'm here Dense."
"Kai??!", I ask.
"What?", Yashiro replies.
"Oh it's you.", I reply.
"Lost in memories, are we?"
"Not really."
"Look man, don't worry too much about it. You can figure stuffs out later. Just focus on having fun for now. You are becoming a dad man! Cheer up!"
"How are you guys so similar?", I take the last sip of scotch as I smile.
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing.", I sigh, "You are probably right. I might be worried but that doesn't mean I'll ruin the stuffs you guys did for both of us."
"Oh, don't push yourself, it's fine.", he tries to smiles.
"I want to have fun, man.", I look at him smiling, "The tension and depression can wait for later."
"That's the spirit."
Where am I? Oh, right. I passed out. Damn, did I hurt my neck. It hurts. My head hurts even more. It's spinning as well. I try to get up from the chair.
"Whoa, buddy, take it easy. Jeez you are drunk as fuck.", Yashiro says.
"Kai, you are back?"
"C'mon, let's get you home.", Yashiro gives me his shoulder to lean on.
"Kai, come on, tell me about the times without me. I wanna know where you roamed around."
"Mmhmm, I will one day."
"C'mon man, I'm your budd!"
"Mmmhmm."
"Where's Aiko?"
"Who knows?"
"What do you mean man? Stop joking around.", I try to laugh a little, although my facial muscles are all numb.
"I don't know buddy, honestly. I would love to know where she is too.", his face suddenly looses smile.
"Come on man, why are you sad?"
"Because I don't know where she is. Seesh you are drunk."
"No, I'm not!", I try to argue.
"Yeah, we can see that."
"Why did you run away that night?", I ask.
"Honestly, I don't know. Maybe to save her. I don't know."
"Uhh, okay, I didn't know you were joining the party too."
"You fool, I was the one who set the party up."
"No! Yashiro did that."
Wait a moment, isn't he Yashiro, no, he is Kaigara. No, he is.. he is?!!!
"Alright, watch your step buddy.", He takes me over to my room.
"Wha... Ow... my room..."
"Jeez, you need to sleep man!"
"I'm back Tachibana!!!!", I hug Tachibana sleeping on the bed, "I miss you!!"
"Get off me, lemme sleep!!", she screams slightly.
"Alight, Don't try to kill me!!", I laugh.
I get comfy, before I even know, I fall asleep.
"Typical dense.", Kaigara smiles.
It's morning. As I sit up I see Yashiro seating on a chair looking outside through the window.
"Yeshiro? What are you doing here?"
"It's been a while old friend.", He looks at me smiling.