(TRIGGER WARNING: The chapter contains disturbing events. )
"Say, Why do I love ya?"
I looked at her and blinked rapidly in confusion when she asked that.
What does she mean by asking me that??
"I feel like the rest ain't important to remember, only this thing..I need to remember why I love ya"
She continued again and I walked next to her silently. It had been a while she had let me down. We ended up walking to a park next to our college which was almost empty at this time of the day. I sat down on a swing while she stood leaning against the edge.
Give me a break...this is suffocating....I didn't know being around her could feel like this. Honestly I had no idea how I will come face to face with her after what happened that day..makes me wish she doesn't remember anything.
"Yer so quiet..are we not at good terms? even tho yer giving off this lovely scent all for me" She leaned forward closing up.
"Yeah, we're not on good terms" I moved myself a little back.
This is bad...I can't breathe...at this rate, I might go into heat again...I should get away from her..
"Ya don't love me?" She asked sitting down on her kneecaps infront of me.
I tensed up, clenching hard on the ropes "Don't..come close.." I whispered under my breath.
"Hey..did I do something bad to ya?" She asked with a polite tone.
Like yeah you did! not once, twice! and with the way things are going I think there will be a third as well!
"So I did huh? yer face says it all.." She concluded and leaned closer kissing my forehead "I'm sorry for whatever I did..I'm sorry I dun remember"
Stop...
Don't do this...
If you keep doing this..
I'll want more...
With an unconscious swift movement I threw arms at her and pulled her in a kiss, her eyes widened, I parted away slowly...
It's not me..it's not love..it's just my pheromones..it's lust...for me and probably for her too..She must be thinking about it too..wanting to do 'it'
It can't be love anyway, she annoys me so much! she's crazy, she has no sense of fashion, who the hell wears red with purple! She wears tux on almost every special occasion like for goodness sake woman! she doesn't talk much at all so I can never tell what she's really thinking but whenever she does talk she makes me all embarrassed and she teases me too! not to mention she kisses me at every opening she gets and she has been doing something to herself in order to tone down all these pheromones that are out now, which also means keeping secrets from me..On top of it she's too pretty and way out of my league, she has so many fans who are ready to kill me anytime..maybe when someone really pretty comes along, she'll probably ditch my ugly self..I can't even begin to compete with her...we are not even on same level or of same worlds...
How can I even love someone like that...?
"Hey..why dun we start over?"
I looked at her with surprise when she said that
"I mean, I might slowly remember things along the way..but the present me wants to know what I fell for.." She pulled an awkward smile, wow, she can smile too...wait, I mean ofc she can, its just rare.
"No need" I finally spoke up "I'll tell you what you fell for, as it is obvious, I'm an omega and I can't be sure how since I'm confused myself too but you're my fated alpha..what you feel for me is lust" I spoke bluntly.
"Hey ya, mind it, what kinda fuker do ya think I am or was? If I was only in for lust there'd be a huge gaping hole between yer legs right now" She growled a bit "That was rude of ya, I know difference between love and lust, it might have started from lust I agree but right now I can tell the feeling of love, enough love that I can kill for ya and die for ya without wantin anything in return.."
My eyes widened and a blush ran across my cheeks..what the hell, what cheesy shit has she been watching to be saying that stuff
"Then..." I chuckled and rummaged through my pockets and finally found what I had stolen this very morning from dad "Here.." I held it out "If it's not lust then prove it"
"What's that?" She asked blinking rapidly.
"The key to my collar, I can trust you with it can't I?" I gulped down hard, what am I doing? I'm digging my own grave here
She looked me right in the eyes as if stripping my fear naked through her sharp blue gaze.
She took the key and my hand kissing them "Very well then" She said "I'll prove it to ya" She said with an utterly serious tone "In return, let me remember, let me be with ya, let me make ya mine.."
"Ofcourse" I replied,...what am I even saying ...
"If you prove your love to me then..... I promise you.....I'll give you all... All of myself..."
My dear Alpha girlfriend....
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"You're back huh? The cops came looking for you again" Akio said noticing Zhuang on the couch when he turned on the lights of the house after he came back from the shop he was working at temporarily.
He had barely made it through the day after Keitarou put all his might to stop Akio from barging into Natsuro's college. He was still against letting Natsuro handle this on his own but Keitarou was right too...
The reason Natsuro wasn't maturing was because Akio always kept him under his wing and Akio needed to give him the space to grow and handle matters on his own..afterall he was no longer a child..which is also why Akio didn't question why Natsuro secretly went through his stuff and retrieved his key..but..it was killing him inside even if he was pretending to be unfazed and emotionless as usual.
Zhuang got up once Akio got inside the kitchen and went after him. Akio was unpacking the vegetables and fruits he brought on his way back. Zhuang came from his back and hugged him.
"Zhuang" Akio didn't struggle, he stood still but he didn't really appreciate it.
"Just for a little while" Zhuang whispered, he lowered the collar of Akio's shirt a bit and gently slid his fingers on the claim mark over Akio's neck "Do you remember the day I gave you this?"
"How could I forget?" Akio said with a dry emotionless tone.
"You still hate me for that don't you?" Zhuang asked.
"If I loved you for that, it would be called Stockholm syndrome" Akio spoke sarcastically.
"Why don't you resist me then?" Zhuang asked rather annoyed.
"I did try saying no to you verbally but apparently it doesn't matter to you, so there's no point in resisting you, that will get you excited anyway. Besides I'm too used to and too numb to even bother putting up a fight for myself" Akio spoke staying as calm and still.
"I'm not a man of morales in first place, you have to resist me well enough so that I can drill it in my brain" Zhuang said.
"Oh, that so..then.." Akio turned around and punched Zhuang in the face, making his nose bleed "Hey Zhuang, could you please refrain from touching me?" Akio punched him another time making him stumble and fall back "Apparently, I'm too traumatized to move when you touch me, I freeze up" Akio kicked Zhuang in the stomach "Will you be so kind as to leave me alone?" Akio kicked another one till Zhuang spat up some blood "Do you understand?"
Akio asked with his usual cold and dry tone but with a menacing aura behind him.
"Understood" Zhuang mumbled, wiping his blood, looking towards the window where something moved away swiftly.
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"it's not my fault..it's not my fault...it's not my fault.."
Keitarou backed up and holed into a corner "Mari chan...mama..daddy... it's not my fault..." He mumbled to himself "someone save him...someone.." He pointed towards thin air "Don't come closer...I didn't do that to you...it was an accident..! it was an accident!!!" He yelled and kept scratching at his shoulders until suddenly the sound of doorbell snapped him out. He got up and gulping he went towards the door and peeped through the keyhole.
He unlocked the door and Yuki stood infront of him
"Kei chan?! oh goodness! what happened to you?" She looked at him with widened eyes, he was standing with his shirt unbuttoned and hair in a shabby condition. His chest had scratches and rubs all over as if he had been trying to peel off his skin, he was still scratching until Yuki grabbed his hand to stop him.
"Yuki chan..it isn't my fault right? I didn't know...I didn't" He pleaded falling to her feet, she almost genuinely pitied his condition and helped him up. She brought him inside without caring about the door. She seated him on the couch and poured him some water since he was hiccuping badly.
"Kei chan, sit still, and why are all the lights off... I'll call a doctor" She said but Keitarou grabbed her arm tightly not letting her go at all, he was too afraid to let go "Okay okay, I'm here, calm down" She said.
"So finally you are awake aren't you? My beautiful broken brother" Mari entered through the door that was left open, she closed it behind her. She took the glass from Yuki and forced it to Keitarou's mouth, making him drink till he choked "It is your fault brother, it is" She said not letting him take a breather, till all of the the glass was empty on him.
Yuki wanted to stop Mari but she did not dare.
"No..no, mari chan, I was...I didn't know..I hid them because I was a child, I was jealous that you played more with him...I didn't know..it was father, father killed him..not me...those omegas too, in that room, it wasn't me..it was father... " Keitarou choked and pleaded.
"Didn't I say brother...I'll forgive you in condition...that you replace him..but you went ahead and betrayed me because of Aoi san...I will not forgive her and the person you love right now, Its only fair that you stay with me and suffer, after you destroyed my happiness, you have no right to be happy" She grabbed his face by the jaws and licked up his tears. "say brother, you were like father back in that warehouse, all those omegas..you felt what father felt when he took haru chan from me... didn't you? The violent lust caused by an Omega's heat" Mari whispered and he shivered, he nodded hard denying it and covering his ears.
"Then..then..I'll pay..you kill me..I won't resist..but promise me, you won't harm Akio san!" Keitarou said with teary eyes.
Yuki didn't like where this was going, she put the glass away just in case, almost hiding it behind her.
"But I don't want your life, that way I'll be suffering alone won't I? Brother we have to divide our suffering, didn't you promise me that you won't die until I decide you can? otherwise I wouldn't forgive you..you probably got treatment abroad and forgot.." She pressed a finger to her lips "but I destroyed it didn't I? Your years of treatment, all gone to waste.." She cupped his cheeks "and now the old miserable you has finally come out..I didn't like at all how you had shut this part of you when you came back... Welcome back my wretched miserable brother" She smiled and kissed him on the chin "too bad that you returned to make things right and now you're back too square one..haha..you shouldn't have returned.. stupid brother, do you really think you could forgive yourself?" she chuckled.
"Mari chan, what if we kill ourselves together?" Keitarou said with sparkling eyes, he continuously scratched his skin and kept cleaning his hands with his clothes.
"We will brother, we will but not right now, you haven't suffered enough pain" She said and then there was a knock at the door. Yuki got up and opened the door, letting a huge man inside. He greeted Mari right after he came in so Yuki didn't really question who he was supposed to be.
Mari got up "of course I will not harm your Akio san, brother..but you remember our deal right? You have to be a good boy today too, you have to feel properly what my partner felt okay? By properly understanding your sin, you will be able to redeem yourself " Mari said and Keitarou nodded, he smiled at Mari miserably while scratching himself.
Yuki was confused what was happening at all, who was this man? though oddly enough he looked alot like Mari's father too. Especially with his hair style and dressing.
Yuki quietly followed Mari out of the house leaving Keitarou in there with the man.
"Mari chan? who was that?" Yuki finally asked.
"Can't you tell? it's a play" She giggled "The guy pretends to be my father and Brother pretends to be my dead partner haru chan" She laughed playfully and Yuki's eyes widened with disbelief.
THIS WAS TOO MUCH! After that, Yuki couldn't help herself, she didn't care to, she simply ran back..
Traced all her steps back and started banging at the door "KEI CHAN! KEI CHAN OPEN THE DOOR! OPEN THE DOOR!" Yuki yelled, she couldn't help tearing up.
Mari slowly walked up behind "It's no use, I locked it, after all, he shouldn't escape until he relives what my partner had lived through, it's all to redeem my poor brother" Mari said with emotionless tone.
"MARI CHAN, STOP THAT GUY MARI CHAN..HE'S GOING TO..WITH KEI CHAN....NO, YOU MUST STOP THAT GUY....SAVE KEI CHAN, MARI CHAN I BEG YOU" Yuki fell crying to her knees, rubbing her hands together and begging
"Why are you so worked up Yuki, this isn't the first time he came here you know? its been a week now since our little deal" Mari casually raised a brow "besides, it's not like its being done without brother's consent..brother accepted his punishment you know, he truly wants redemption which is why he's trying to understand the sin...and in return I don't harm his beloved Akio san"
Yuki stood up and for the first time she stroke a tight slap on Mari's face, leaving the other shocked.
"Open the door Mari" She spoke with a strict tone "before I fukin kill you right here" Yuki said.
Mari was so shocked for a moment holding her cheek with the handprint on it but then suddenly she burst into laughter "That was a good one Yuki, you finally stood up to me" Mari couldn't stop laughing "You better be ready to regret this later" Mari smirked and from her cleavage she pulled out a key and handed it to Yuki.
Yuki snatched it and with shivering hands she unlocked the door and rushed in while crying hopelessly. She barged into the apartment and rushed towards the bedroom.
"KEI CHAN..."