Makakatuluyan
Mas lalo akong humagulhol at wala sa sariling biglang tumakbo papunta sa kanya at niyakap siya. He looked caught off guard because of what I did.
"Keoz.." sabi ko kasabay ng paghagulhol. Nabasa na rin ng mga ko ang balikat niya. Naramdaman kong pumulupot na rin ang kanyang braso sa likod ko at hinagod iyon ng paulit-ulit para pakalmahin ako. He uttered comforting words to me. His voice was just gentle.
"Hush.. don't cry please.." he said. But i just can't stop it. It was a hard pain in my chest.
"He c-cheated Keoz. He cheated on me-" lumakas ang iyak ko. He caressed my back and my hair.
"Shh.. it's okay, it's okay. Everything's going to be alright," he pushed me a little so that he could see me. We're not hugging anymore. I covered my face, I was ashamed with my look right now, plus, I'm crying!
"Look at you, a woman like you shouldn't cry over him. So stop crying, I'm here Fion," He removed my hands on my face and wiped my tears. His staring at me as he do that. He removed strands of my hair that does covering my face. Then he smiled at me.
"We'll talk about that later okay?" tumango ako. Pinunasan niya ulit ang pisngi ko na may luha.
"Tingnan mo, pumangit ka tuloy," I glared at him. He laughed.
"What do you want for dinner?" he suddenly asked. My forehead creased and I stopped crying.
"You'll cook?" I asked. He chuckled and nod.
"As if you know how to do it. You'll just burn the kitchen," he pouted.
"But youtube does know how. It can help me, so sit in the stool and just watch me how to cook. And.." Keoz stretched the side of my lips.
"Smile."
"Hmm.. it smells good!" I said. He turned to me and smirk.
"Taste it Fion. Dali!" he asked to come over him. I rolled my eyes and walked to him. Ibinigay niya sa akin ang kutsarang may sabaw ng adobo. Kinuha ko iyon at tinikman.
I stifle a smile. Shit, why does it taste good? May nilagay ba siya dito kaya sumarap?
"What? Say something!" he snapped a finger in my face. Kunwaring ngumiwi ako para kabahan siya. Ibinaba ko ang kutsara at umiling-iling pa. Biglang napawi ang ngiti niya.
"Hindi masarap!" I turned my back to him and walked away.
Halos matawa ako ng makalabas ng kusina pero bumalik rin para bawiin ang sinabi. Kumunot ang noo niya ng makita ang mukha kong nakangiti. Sinundot-sundot ko ang tagiliran niya at pumalakpak.
"Kasi it's sobrang yummy!!!" I said. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya at tumawa.
Kinuha niya ang kutsara at tinikman rin ang adobo.
"Oh my god it's sobrang yummy!" I snorted when he mocked me. Sinapak ko ang braso niya. Humalukipkip ako.
"Binabawi ko na 'yung sinabi ko. Hindi na pala masarap luto mo," he smirk.
"You already said-" I cut him off.
"Kasi ikaw pala masarap," then I squealed, "Tenenenenen~tenenenen," I let out a finger heart in front of me. He blushed.
"Oh geez, kinilig si Keoz!" tumawa ako.
He turned sideways, "Stop it Fion. You're flirting with me."
Tumaas ang kilay ko, "Ito naman! Hindi kita nilalandi 'no! Slight lang!" I shook my head and went in the salas.
After we ate our dinner, which he cooked. With the help of brother youtube, it's delicious. I think he put some magic on the food to make it that delicious. Because it's his first time yet he learned so fast! It's ridiculous!
"Wine?" he handed me a glass of wine. Tinanggap ko iyon at nag-pasalamat sa kanya. We both stare at the buildings again, at nasa veranda na naman kami.
But this time may table na kami and chairs para may ma-upuan.
We became silent for a minute but Keoz started to converse with me.
"So.. your boyfriend cheated on you huh?" Pinaikot-ikot ko ang wine sa baso habang tinititigan ko ito. Huminga ako ng malalim bago nagsalita. Naiiyak na naman kasi ako.
"My father left us five years ago. He chose to be with his affair than us. I thought that would be the worst thing that happened in my life. But my mother was rushed in the hospital. The same day when my father will leave us, my mother had a heart attack when she was begging my father not to leave us.
I was just blaming my father when we are rushing my mom into the hospital. I was fuming mad at him-" my voice broke. I wiped the tears that falls through my cheeks. Keoz was just listening to me and staring at me. But i can see sadness and worry in his eyes.
"I felt my world crumpled when the doctor says my mother c-can't be survived a-anymore-" I lowered my head on the table and sobbed.
"Shush.. it's fine, it's fine. Tahan na.." tumayo si Keoz at linapitan ako para patahanin. Sobrang hikbi ko, parang ang sama talaga ng loob ko dahil sa nangyari.
"Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit ba hindi pa kami sapat ni mama para kay papa. Gano'n ba kayong mga lalaki? Kayang-kayang ipagpalit kaming mga babae dumaan lang ang tukso? Gano'n ba kami kawalang-halaga sa inyo para loko-lokohin niyo lang? Gano'n ba kami kasarap paglaruan?!" I yelled.
"Calm down Fion. You're worth it. You and you're mom were worth it. Hindi lang talaga sila ang tamang magmamahal sa inyo kaya naranasan niyo 'yan."
"Hindi naman kami mahirap mahalin diba? Bakit kayo nang-iiwan ng walang sapat na dahilan? Iniiwan niyo kami kasi hindi na masaya? Hindi na katulad ng dati? Dahil wala lang nangyari sa amin sa loob ng mga taong 'yon, ipagpapalit na kami? Tanginang mga lalaki, 'yan!" hinarap niya ako sa kanya. He squatted to level me.
"Kung pagkakamali sa unang relasyon ang paraan para magkita kayo ng mamahalin ka ng tunay, hindi ba mas maganda 'yon? Siguro ginawa lang talaga ni Lord na maging kayo para maitama mo na ang mga pagkukulang mo sa susunod. Ngayong nasaktan ka na, malay mo makita mo na sa paligid mo ang para sa'yo. Malay mo nasa tabi-tabi lang ang magmamahal sa'yo or 'yung lalaking 'yon nasa.." he trailed off. He licked his lowerlip and eyed me.
"Nasa?" I asked.
"Nasa harapan mo lang pero hindi mo makita."