I covered my face with pillows and screamed my heart out. Napapadyak ako ng maalala ang sinabi ni Sir.
Did he just fucking confessed his love for me? Gaga! Assuming ka naman masyado, Donna!
Nakakainis lang dahil pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon ay mabilis akong tumakbo papasok sa amin. It's not like I'm scared of him...I'm scared of what I might feel.
Hindi ako makatulog ng gabing iyon. Kaya naman pumasok ako na parang zombie sa klase. Buti na lang at walang subject ngayon si Sir.
I wore my uniform. Instead of wearing slacks, I've decided to wear my skirt.
Kinakabahan ako habang naglalakad sa hallway. I don't want to face Sir right now. Lalo na dahil alam kong hindi naman siya katandaan.
Fuck, he's twenty three years old! I'm only seventeen but that doesn't mean we can't love each other.
Marami naman akong nababasang mga kwento sa Wattpad. Possible naman iyon mangyari. Sabagay, sina Sarah Lahbati nga at Richard Gutierrez eh grabe ang age gap.
Besides, I'm turning eighteen next next week. I can't wait!
Hindi ko alam kung masisiyahan ako or what. Hindi ko nakita buong hapon si Sir. Pagdating ko sa karinderya ay wala rin siya.
Days passed by fast. May seminar na pinuntahan si Sir kaya naman ilang araw siyang mawawala. I missed him.
The thought of missing him scares me. The thought of loving him makes me cry.
Hindi kami kagaya nina Sarah at Richard. He got a professional spot in here. Plus, it's impossible.
Naging mabilis ang paglipas ng mga oras. Namalayan ko na lang na inaayusan kami para sa parade mamaya.
We are all wearing a match of red and golden dress revealing too much of our skin in the legs and arms part. Sleeveless kasi iyon. And also gold boots with black sequence. Nakaayos din ang buhok namin sa isang clean bun with red crown around it.
Tahimik lamang ako nakaupo sa isang sulok. I saw them taking selfies with their friends. I even saw Ella with her friends, Charm, Rose, and Jerard.
Nakakainggit. How I wish I also have a friend here. We'll take selfies and laugh.
Nang tinawag na kami ng aming leader ay pumunta na ako sa kanya.
"You look very beautiful, Donna. Pwede ka maging leader." I shyly smiled at her.
"Hindi naman po. Uh, thank you." Nginitian niya ako bago muling tinawag ang iba naming mga kasama na abala pang magsikuha ng mga larawan.
We formed a small circle and said our prayers.
"Let's go, BSU!" We all screamed in unison.
Somehow, I felt like I belong with them. That they are my friends.
Sumakay na kami sa school bus papunta sa kung saan magsisimula ang parada.
I let out a deep breathe. Pumila na ako sa harap. Usually kasi ay nasa unahan ang magandang gumalaw.
While waiting for our turn, we need to remained our pose. Nakakangalay ngumiti pero sanay na rin naman ako.
When it was our turn, we started marching and doing our routines. Pag dating sa plaza ay saka kami mag-eexhibition.
We would stop for a minute to maintain the space between other schools.
Madalas ay mayroong magpupunas ng pawis namin at magpapainom ng tubig.
Halos manlaki ang mga mata ko ng makita si Andy na may hawak na pamunas.
"Nakita kita kanina sa school, ang lungkot mo." Napangiwi ako sa puna niya.
"Nainggit lang." Nagulat ako ng nilabas niya ang kanyang cellphone. Kunot-noo ko itong tiningnan.
"Smile!" He said and went near me for a selfie.
Sa sulok ng mga mata ko ay nakita ko ang pagkagulat ni Ella.
My heart feels so warm by the sudden gesture of Andy. Ang swerte ko, may kaibigan akong kagaya niya.
"Ayusin mo ha! Libre kita mamaya fishball." He said before leaving me in awe.
Napabalik ako sa katinuan ng marinig ang sipol ng aming majorette leader. We continued marching and doing our practiced routine.
Nang makarating na kami sa plaza ay abot tahip na ang aking dibdib. Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali. Specially because my Daddy is watching me.
With all smiles, I did our routine with no flaws. Doon palang tuwang-tuwa na ako.
"Congrats!" We exchanged our congratulations to each other.
Mula sa kinakatayuan namin ay nakita ko ang thumbs up ni Daddy sa akin. I gave him my warmest smile.
Bumalik kami sa school para makapagbihis ulit. I wore a black denim shorts paired with white crop top and my usual converse shoes.
"Ginalingan!" I almost jumped from my position as soon as I felt Andy's arm around me.
"Libre kita!" Excited kong saad sa kanya.
He looked at me, confused. Pinagsingkitan ko rin ito ng tingin. Natigil lamang ang tinginan namin ng makarinig ng pag-ubo sa kung saan.
"Uy!" I felt Andy stiffened.
Magulo ang tingin na iginawad sa amin nina Liam, Dale, Von, Charm, Rose, Jerard, at Ella.
Napayuko na lang ako. "Ah, sige na Andy. May lakad pa naman ako eh." Nahihiya kong saad.
I grab my things and silently walked away from them.
"Guys, sama natin si Donna!" Andy said and pulled me back beside him.
My heart tightens. Alam kong ayaw naman sa akin nina Ella. Ipagsisiksikan ko lang ang sarili ko sa kanila.
"Hindi na -"
"Ayaw naman palang sumama. Bakit pa pinipilit?" I bit my lower lip upon hearing what Ella said.
Malungkot akong ngumiti kay Andy. "I need to go. Thank you."
Ngunit mahigpit akong hinawakan ni Andy. For the first time in my life, nakaramdam ako na may isang tao na gusto rin akong makasama, bukod sa aking Daddy.
"Gusto ko sanang isama ang kaibigan ko." He casually said and smiled at me.
I gulped. Ang swerte ni Charm. Nakakainggit.
Naramdaman ko ang matalim na tingin ni Dale sa akin. He knew I'm not the secret admirer of his cousins. Ganon din ang tingin na natanggap ko kina Charm.
"It's fine with me. Donna's my friend too." Napaawang ang aking bibig matapos marinig iyon galing kay Liam.
"I'm not okay with it." Dale sounded so casual when in fact it is breaking my heart.
"Me too!" Ella seconded and rolled her eyes at me.
Unti-unti kong inalis ang kamay ni Andy sa akin. He was about to said something when we all turned our gaze to someone.
"Miss Pascal. I need to address some concerns for you." There, I saw Sir Lacson in his fresh plain white v-neck shirt and black pants.