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Regret. A powerful human emotion.. Some say things about how the past is just the past and it doesn't affect them now. Unfortunately there will be always something or someone that leads you to have a feeling you might not, right away, identify as regret, but it's there...
Regret at first just sits down on your shoulders subtly, but gradually it weighs you down into the very ground. The only way to throw the weight off is to face it head on, but it'll still be there.
Not on you but engraved in your heart. In my case, my regret was lost on it's way to my heart. Instead, it was buried deep deep down, waiting to be awakened...
But the scariest thing about regret isn't the horrible feeling you carry....but that you only feel it when you've already lost something precious.
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I should have payed attention more. I should have asked more. I should have noticed. I should have at least tried to understand what he's going through. I should've .. I should've.. I should've...
I watched him stagger around. His face was set in a smile that made my stomach turn. He was twirling the gun in his hand like he had used it numerous times before. I could feel Elizabeth trembling behind me, her sobs filling the air. I had pressed 911 earlier and was hoping they'd be arriving soon.
"Can you just shut up for a second!" He screamed pointing the gun at me. Elizabeth's trembling intensified. I spread my arms more in order to shield her entire body.
"Move out of the way Laura." He spoke, now more calmer than before. His peculiar emotion changes was starting to scare me. He was definitely not thinking in his right mind.
"No" I say defiantly. Anger flashed in his eyes before I heard the sound of the gun going off. I shut my eyes and prepared for the fall.
Nothing happened...
I opened my eyes and saw a hole just a couple of inches to my right.
" Ah shoot, I missed." He flashed me a smile making my stomach churn with disgust.
What had he become?
"Laura move out of the way or I'll shot you both." He said in a sing song voice while once again twirling the gun in his hands.
"I said No!" I stood my ground challenging him to shoot.
He grinned showing off his front row teeth. "Oh well, I guess you'll both die then." With that he started shooting while twirling around. His hideous laughter filling the room. I was glad mom and dad were not home. I didn't want them to have to go through this.
What I hadn't noticed at the time was that Elizabeth had moved out from behind me and was running towards the door.
"Elizabeth, No! Get back behind me." I scream at her before crying out in pain as a bullet entered my shoulder.
He stopped and grinned towards her. "There you are!" He pointed the gun towards her.
It seemed like it all happened in slow motion. The sound of the gun going off and Elizabeth's body crumpling to the ground followed by a pool of blood.
"No" I shout making my way over to her. No.No.No NO
He shot her... He shot my twin.... He shot my other half!
Moment by moment, they fall. Salty drops fall from my chin, drenching my shirt. Perhaps these tears will help wash the blood out. The muffled sobs wracked against my chest. The world turned into a blur, and so do all the sounds. I could feel the life slowly drain away from Elizabeth's crumpled body. I hold her close as tears continuously fall down my face.
My eyes stung and my body trembled. "...don't go" I muttered to myself. And then I felt her go completely still. I opened my eyes and shook her. No response. I feel the muscles of my chin tremble like a small child as I hold Elizabeth's dead body close to my chest, not caring how drenched in blood I was.
"Please..." I beg. "Come back" My voice cracks and I was moments away from collapsing onto the ground next to her.
I turned towards him with more rage in my eyes than I could believe I had managed to muster. He kept on grinning and for a second I think I saw his eyes turn all black. I blinked and then it was gone.
My eyes were becoming heavier by the second. I was beginning to lose consciousness from all the blood I had lost. Thankfully I heard the sirens outside. His eyes widened and he looked out the window.
"You bitch" He cried out staring at me. I tried my best to show him a full toothed grin through all the pain. Running over to the window he got ready to jump. He looked back at me and smiled once more.
"I'll see soon, Laura. I'll come for you." That was the last thing I saw before darkness consumed me.
It was reported no body was found near the house
My brother had been reported missing from that day on.