Everyone's reaction is like they all are very surprised. RM is blushing a lot, he should after all i have proposed him in front of everyone. Aaagh I am embarrassed too.
Suga said "she is still a kid, she don't know anything about love, don't take it seriously"
I thought if I have confessed then let's complete it properly. So I said with a loud voice "No I mean it"
"yeah you all can see it on her face and her tone of speaking, she is serious about it" said jimin.
It's lecture time, now everyone is telling me about love. Love is not so simple, yours is attraction this and that. I don't care what they all are saying, my only focus is on RM's reply. I know he will reject me but there is a hope of 1percent.
Jin asked everyone to leave, so that me and RM can clarify everything privately.
V is the last one to leave. I wondered "what's wrong with him, he was very quite, he is quite. While everyone was giving me lecture, he was just sitting at the back and didn't speak a single word".
" Hey listen it is not love, you can call it attraction. Teenagers face things like this, so it's okay" said RM
"No you are wrong, I can feel it , it was love at first sight" I replied back.
"You are not understanding what I am trying to tell'
I replied " whatever it is, leave it, I love you that's all"
"great I also love myself, now don't expect me to love you"
When he said this, tears came in my eyes, but I can cry only when I am extremely hurt or sad. But as for this situation I was already prepared so tears stayed only in my eyes they didn't come out.
Now I don't know what to say to him. So, I started running from there. When I came out of BTS house, I saw rest of the members there. They are looking at me and I am also looking at them. It felt like I am seeing them for the last time, now everything is over. My tears are about to come out, I don't want my face to swelled up, so I again started running.
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I am sitting in our dorm's Park from 4 hours. Just thinking and overthinking what happened today, I have a bad habit of overthinking and I am virgo too so I think its true that virgos are overthinkers. Its late in the evening but no one has called me yet because I have warned everyone not to call me when I am with BTS until its 9pm. I don't want to go from here, I want to be alone but its already 8:30 so I should go.
When I reached I saw everyone is busy in packing and are so happy.
"are you all going somewhere? " I asked
"We Seniors have an off tomorrow, so me and Alice are going for camping"
Ridhi said "We juniors have no off but I will go with them. Its Okay I can miss one day class. "
Alice said "Don't worry we'll be back day after tomorrow in early morning.. do you wanna join us? "
"No no you go and enjoy. Take your time" I replied
I want some time alone.
Vanisha worriedly asks "Akku is something wrong? why are you so sad? "
I had already predicted that she would ask this, because usually whenever I come back after meeting BTS, I used to be very cheerful. But thats not today. "no no, today I have enjoyed a lot with them and I am very very tired now. " I replied.
"Ohh then its fine" said vanisha
I wanted to tell her everything. We always share everything with each other and she is the best to give advices in these type of situations. But I can't tell her if I will then she will cancel all her plan, I don't want to ruin her plans. So its better to be quiet.
Next day, they left for their trip and I am in class. I was Awake for whole night yesterday. I can't focus what is going on in class. I am still overthinking.
I am with Iruru today, she is my only friend after Ridhi in class. She is from japan and 23 years old. I know she is very old to be my friend, she is good in nature thats why I am close to her as compared to other classmates. She is in Korea because of got7 (another kpop group).
My teacher dislike me a lot because of my First Impression and We all know First Impression is last Impression. And because of my teacher only I never wanted to attend class. When the Bell rang it felt like Bell of freedom is ringing.
Its break time, me and Iruru are at my favourite place in University its under the tree in Park. Iruru is continuously asking me "heyyy what's wrong with you??Answer me"
After ignoring her several times, I think I should tell her. My only way of relieving stress is by talking. As vanisha is not here and I am Desperately want to tell someone about this and then I'll feel relieved. Firstly I told her How I met BTS, she was not believing me so I showed her my pics with BTS and then she was like "daebak! "
She asked "then why are you sad? You should be happy. Even though I stan got7 but if I would have met BTS then I would have been happy. "
Then I told her about my proposal and his rejection. After that I ask"Tell me what should I do? Shall I give up? "
"See your proposal was Sudden.And mostly boys don't believe in Sudden love, so you should have waited. "
"But the situation was like that, that I had to confess" I objected.
"See I don't See any reason for RM to reject you, you are beautiful and RM is also broad minded so I don't think that he would have rejected you because of your nationality"
"hmmm" I sighed.
"wait what were you wearing at the time of confession? " she asked
"casual jeans top. But why? "
"That's the reason;RM loves Sexy girls. He once have said that in an american interview."
"Really!!!? " I asked surprisingly.
She showed me RM's that interview on YouTube and yeah its true.
"So you should have exposed a bit" she said
"Yes I agree with you. That day also when RM helped on our First Time meeting, I was wearing shorts and was exposed. "
"Now listen to my plan carefully, you meet him personally and try to Show some Sexy moves. That's all you have to do. " she says
"But How could I meet him personally. He never talk to me and in BTS house everyone is there"
"you are alone today, be ready at 6pm with Sexy look and I will send RM to your house" She said with a side smile.
"But How? " I asked
"That's my job. You just give me his number. "
At First I hesitated to giver her RM's number, because of my promise to BTS. But its important, so I gave her.
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Its 5pm now, now I am feeling relaxed after sorting out everything with Iruru and now I am having my meal. I am eating after 33 hours approx.
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Just 5 more minutes and RM will be here. I am very happy but nervous too. After all its my First Time Doing something like this.
I am all set, I am wearing black shorts which is too High and too tight, a black long High pointed heel boots and a cropped black off shoulder top. Right now I have a denim jacket also on the top, but I will put it out when RM will be here.
Exactly at 6pm Bell door Bell is ringing. I quickly Opened the door and yes its RM. Iruru did her job perfectly.
RM quickly entered and said "are you out your mind? "
I don't know what he is saying so I said what Iruru asked me to say, I followed her plan properly I don't want to make any mistake and lose this chance "Calm down man! just go and sit on the couch" yes that's what she asked me to say.
Iruru haven't told me yet that what she had said RM that he came here.
RM is still Standing with a very confused face.
I pushed him and he directly fell on the couch.
I took off my denim jacket and started to Show my Sexy moves.
RM is now very very confused and his reaction is like what is happening now.
Now I am sliding my index Finger on his face and said "so now you Love me right!? See I am Sexy"
I again said "See I am very Sexy just of your type"
I damn sure, he can't say no to me now.
I did everything what Iruru asked me to to do, body is mine but words and actions are hers. I did this because I believed her and I believed her because I think she is quite close to me and she is 8 years older than me so she is matured enough to give me Advice on these type of things.
I can feel RM is going to say yes.