Till now I haven't eye contacted with RM but now when we both are looking at each other, eye to eye, I am feeling ashamed of my actions. It felt like for past few minutes I was crazy but now I am back.
RM stand up with a sigh, now my eyes are filled with tears, he is coming closer towards me and I am feeling guilty.
He is standing right in front of me, I can't look at his face, I ducked my head. I have never faced this much of embarassment in my whole life.
He picked up my denim that was lying on the floor and gave it to me.I quickly wear my denim and tears started coming out, yes I am hurt. I sat on my knees and my head is still down, I can't face him anymore. I am crying my eyes out. RM holds my both hands and asked me to face towards him. I stand up and looked towards him with teary eyes.
His both hands are on my shoulders and very politely, very sweetly he says "you haven't done anything wrong, you were just misguided"
Till now I was crying silently, but after his this statement I am crying loudly.
He wiped my tears with but my tears again came out, he again wiped, but it didn't stop. He lastly says "hey stop it, I can't do it forever"
I am crying more more.
He then asks "tell me everything what happened?, who was that girl named iruru? "
I don't have any option I also think that I should clarify everything what just happened.
I am crying a lot, I told him everything while crying, and hiccuping. I wanted to stop crying but I can't, nobody can stop me now.
RM replies "you just go and relax, I'll personally deal with that iruru"
I don't know why but when he says this, I am feeling little better.
"hey you stop crying, hey..... your face will swell up"
I don't care, I am deeply hurt. This is first time for me as well.
"It's getting late so I should leave now, you also go and take rest and yes have your dinner also"
With that said he left. I wanted to ask him many questions like what Iruru said to him that he came all over here? how he managed to get in girl's dorm? what he think of me now? and many more but I don't have guts to ask him anything.
He left but I still can't stop crying,tears are coming from my nose also. My nose is pink now and face is getting swelled. I also don't know what to do, its first time for me also.I wish I would have time machine.
I cried for whole night ,my face is swelled up and I am looking like an elephant. Its hurting from outside and also from inside.
I took a shower and am feeling little better now. I have stopped crying and am pretending like nothing happened.
I can't go for class like this so I am not going to attend the class today. I called my parents otherwise when they will receive message from my university that I am absent they will be worried.
"Hello daddy"
"How are you my champ?" he replies
Aaah that "champ" is really emotional right now. I need a hug, at the same time I don't want to show my feeling to him so I quickly replies "not so good dad"
"what happened" he surprisingly replies
"nothing,I overate yesterday so I am not feeling good"
"you should take good care of yourself"
" Dad that's why I am going to miss my class today"
"ok ok just take rest and eat healthy foods"
"ok dad, shall. I hang up now I want to sleep for sometime"
"ya ya,get well soon my child"
It was getting more emotional that's why I hanged up quickly. I said I overate while I haven't eaten anything from yesterday...huhh!
I checked my phone,vanisha texted me "akku,Alice and ridhi will come in evening,they are gone for shopping but I am tired so I didn't join them. I know you are missing me, I am coming my bro..oo"
I didn't reply anything but yes I missed. I don't know why but everything feels so emotional right now.
there is a good morning text from V and what's up text from j hope as well. I saw it but I didn't reply.
The fact what will. other members think of me when RM will tell them about my yesterday's actions makes me cry more.
I forgot to lock the door when RM left yesterday,so today vanisha directly entered in. She is facing backwards to lock the door and angrily says while locking "hey you fool...why is the door open?You irresponsible animal.."
The moment she turned back towards me,she was holding her bag pack in her hand, she. dropped the bag down and very worriedly asks " akku ...what happened?"
I ran towards her and very tightly hugged her.I am crying on her shoulders. This place is very cosy. She is hugging me back and calming down me.
Earlier it felt like I am all alone, nobody is here. As vanisha is with me now,I am feeling much better. I feel more protected. It is a great saying that "things are never quite scary when you've got a best friend"
I told her about my actions and everything in detail.
She replies " First of all,you take this hot water bag and keep it on your face,maybe your swelled face will get better"
But still,I can't stop crying after meeting her.
"you don't have to cry, I know how you are feeling but.....just forget it,it was all past. Focus on your present"
"are you getting what I am saying?"
"hmm" I replied
My face is pressed on the pillow and I am crying silently.
Vanisha came and said "there is no use of crying,just forget it like it was a bad dream"
After a moment I saw Vanisha is live on instagram. After all she have 1 million followers,so it worth it.
She turned her phone towards me and says "look at my friend akku, she is crying from yesterday and haven't eaten anything"
" because it was her first rejection"
"I know it's silly,but teenagers will get it,after all it's her first rejection."
"take a look at her face as well,see how much swelled it is"
I shouted "hey stop it!"
She replied " first promise in front of everyone that you will eat something"
Oh so it was her plan,but I don't have any option so I agreed.
After ending the live she says "do you know BTS was also joined in my live,from their hidden account,but I don't know which member was he because they all together use one single account"
Then I replied with a sigh "at least from your live they will believe that I am not a liar;my swelling problem is true."
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Last night I fell asleep early at 4 pm and woke up today 8am. I woke with a thought "new day new start" as I am feeling much better now and my face is also getting better,but still today also I will miss my class as my face is still swelled up.
I picked my phone to call my parents and tell them that today also I will take leave. Meanwhile I saw a text from BTS and screamed "aaaaagghhhhhh"