I mean I told them that I would wear casual clothes but I guess I should buy new clothes.. since I practically wear the same shirt in my closet all the time that pretty sure everyone in the office back home already knows how I dress...
As much as other women love shopping that much as depicted by media or I'm not really sure. I usually just have women friends if they are business partners but I never really go shopping...
I entered the closest clothes shop I saw... cause honestly I don't even know where to go.. I am not in the league of any fashion. I tried inviting Sungah to help me because she's more experienced but apparently she was busy having a date with someone... ugh... what a good friend... ISN'T THAT RIGHT SUNGAH!
I scanned the mall for the stores.. hmm I guess I can buy in this store. I said to myself as I start to walk the automatic doors open.
I walk in and stare at all the clothes around me... Damn this is a lot of clothes... These are brands that I have never even heard of... I'm not really the brand type of girl. I just wear what I want... but hm...maybe I can ask help from one of the shopping assistants?
"Hey. Can someone help me?" I try to yell at the group of shopping assistants in the corner.
All of them seem to scheme around not batting an eye to me... what's going on... are they on break or something?
I see another woman, she was dressed fabulous and extravagant. As soon as she entered a shopping assistant approached her... and then another woman decorated with beautiful jewelry and diamond rings... another shopping assistant came to them. Why they seem to be working but why aren't they approaching me...
I approached one of the shopping assistants. "Hello. Can you help me?" I asked her.
Her eyes rolled as she looked at me from top to bottom as if she was looking down on me.
"What is the matter?" I asked her.
"Are you sure you have money? You don't look like someone that can afford these clothing here. Maybe you should go to like I don't know a garage sale. I don't serve poor people." She gave me an attitude...
Oh... so that's why... because I'm dressed like this? Because I'm dressed in casual clothing... that's why they don't respect or bother helping so IT'S ALL ABOUT THE FUCKING MONEY AND APPEARANCE.
I bit my tongue as I was about to yell.
"Guard, please kick this lady out. I don't really trust her maybe she could just be looking at the clothes to steal them. I mean she looks like a literal hobo." She pointed at me as the guard pushed me to leave.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE, JUST BECAUSE I'M DRESSED LIKE THIS THEY TREAT ME THIS POORLY...
I guess they were no different than him... after he told me that I was way too out of his league... that I was just a poor girl.. and how fucking stupid I was believing that he truly cares about me but all he wanted to be the enjoyment of seeing me cling into him like I was some kind of fucking puppet he can just play around with when he gets bored.
Whenever he is bored and the loner James was gone. He would approach me but as soon as other people approach him. He no longer talks to me.
FLASHBACK
"Hey.. do you think I'll be as rich as you one day? If I worked hard? I really wish I can meet your parents so I can learn more from them." I asked him as we ate together at his house. He invited me since James couldn't come.
"Maybe someday you will... although I'm not sure my father would like you. He isn't really fond of amateur and poor people like you. He chuckled a little. As I felt it like a knife on my back... he was giggling... I know it was meant to be a joke... but him calling me a poor person... and a fucking amateur destroyed my self-confidence.
and now... I'm not going to let this happen to me again... I'm NOT GOING TO GET FUCKING HUMILIATED LIKE THIS.
Flashback End
As they continued to push me off the store and how everyone stared at me intently. I yelled out. "What's your most expensive dress. I'll buy it."
"Like we'll believe you have the money to buy it." The shopping assistant challenged my proposition.
"Alright then. Bring it out I'll buy it." I brought out my MasterCard. "You better be ready to eat your words cause after this I'll fucking humiliate you for trying to kick me out of the store. So fetch the most expensive dress." I stated as I shoved her the MasterCard.
She was walking rather erratically and she said in a wobbly voice. "Is this all...."
I mean I would buy more to prove my point but buying a dress that I would not wear is probably the worst thing I did in my life! GEEZ, I HATE DRESSES! UGH.
"Yes," I said sternly. She swiped my card as everyone stared intently. It was accepted.
I can see her eyes crumbling before me. "So-sorry ma'am..." She said in a whisper.
"Maybe next time don't judge someone based on their appearance got it?" I snickered at her before leaving the store with this dress.. which is too extravagant for my taste... it was a white with golden ruffles.. it was too extravagant for my taste...
although I was never a fan of love like ever... This moment of just buying clothes reminded me of how Louie treated me badly because of my financial situation with my mother... I hate seeing couples going out in the streets because all I know is that they would just leave each other just for the money.
There's no princess and prince in love. It's about how much money you have. The more money you have the more people like you or pretend to love you. I guess that's just my problem is love and why I never do it... it's so superficial...
I guess this is the dress I'll wear at the reunion... I'd be mad if I don't use it... especially the fact that I wasted my money on this...