"Why are you trying so hard?" I tell her in stiff tone. "When you're only gonna get replaced." I say mumbling. The thought of being polite did crossed my mind but I just didn't have the strength today to deal with every woman they bring to house.
The lady gave me a weird look after my offensive reply to her but I didn't hesitate to stare her down.
"Iam.. Iam sorry Itsuko she didnt mean to say that..." He says eyeing me to apologize her.
"What? I won't say sorry!" Tears forming from my eyes. "Why can't you see it? Why! Are they more important than me now?" I protest looking at Haru this time then my lips quivers from wanting to cry.
"Ame Chan please stop. Let's talk this another time..." Haru says with emotions to convince me.
Daichi stared at me with his mouth opened a little like he wanted to say something but turned his attention to the lady, "Can you leave? I'll get back to you later."
The lady scoffs and immediately leaves without a delay and dash out of the house.
"That was rude Ame Chan. What's wrong with you?!" He scolds me.
"The wrong is with you all!"
The other two was on their way to the hall for the morning breakfast and stop by at what all the commotion was about. "What did she do this time?" One of them talked coming to our way.
"It's because brother won't love me the way they did before and they won't care for me I have turned into a terrible person, haven't I?" I say tears running down my cheeks and they awfully watch me in depress. "Is it bad wanting your attention?" Gripping my dress.
"...." Their gazes thickened in surprise at my honesty.
"Ive thought quite a lot! Despite all the cruel treatments I can't seem to hate you all. Not even a little bit...." My voice was shaky on the last sentence. "But it's okay if you don't want me. Or it's okay if your love was just fake. As long as brother continue to look at me..." I speak in a terrible honest. "I think I'll just be fine..." And I smile to myself helplessly.
They were frozed like statues unable to come to a conclusion or to a statement. Haru closed his eyes for a second to gather himself and reopened his eyes.
"Do you know why we never wanted you as our sister?" Daichi spoke coming closer. "The other truth is...." He touches my head and cares my long hair and take its ends in his palms. "Because we never saw you in that way....silly. Do you understand what I am saying?"
I stared at him in clueless. He turned his head to the right and let out a small sigh then his gazes meet mine. He looked irritated as if he was fighting with his inner self then swiftly held my chin up after bending forward and kissed my lips leaving me in daze, confuse and unbelieve.
"....." There was a very long pause of silent in the hall. The others stared with their eyes wide opened and gave a weird look. He pressed his lips with mine and I was too shocked to be moving.
"Just when will you see us as a man?" His voice was slow and steady but his eyes were blank and looked hurt as if he regretted his action after his withdrawal. "We don't kiss someone unless it's someone we love." His gaze lands on my lips and touch my lower lip from his thumb as his hands were still cupped to my chin. "And I am not talking about the love you have for us... Will this put a notion to your head?" He was intending to refer at the sudden kiss but again I was too dumb to be thinking at that moment.
Sometimes the worst battle is when you can't decide what your heart wants. And the day you are torn between two desires you are conflicted. I loved them for they were my brothers. But they loved me for I was their girl...