I am a person who needs a lot of sleep because I have lucid dreams.
Meaning that every dream I have has all 5 of my senses active, I can taste, touch, smell, hear and see in my dreams just as well as I do in real life, unfortunately my cognitive ability to decipher that it's a dream does not work.
Resulting in nightmares that hurt a lot!
And I also cannot control how the dream works because I am not aware I am dreaming! So whenever I experience pain in my dreams it hurts, there are even times where I have woken up but I still feel the pain , for example one time I had a badger bite my ankle in my dream, when I woke I still felt the bite mark of the badger, luckily when I checked my ankle my foot was still there! (In the dream the badger bit off my foot and started eating it...)
So I am very sensitive about sleep because when I do sleep it's usually just feels like I've slept for 3 hours max when I'm reality I end up sleeping 11+ hours. Example, today I had slept for 16 hours but it felt like a 5-8 hour sleep. So when I started hearing something lightly tapping on the walls when I was trying to sleep, it annoyed me because it was inconsistent and would not stop. I asked someone close to me if they would help me find the source sound and they said life was gonna be really harsh for me if I didn't grow up. Like duh life is harsh I'm pretty sure I know that. I mean I can't even catch a break when sleeping! So we ended up arguing about it.
On another note I'm still stuck.
I'm considering on getting professional help again for my feelings.
But I've got to be careful because not everyone in the medical or psychiatric community is really there to help you...
I've had a few of them make my mental and physical state worse...
I'm just worried that one day I could wake up and say " yup today I'm gonna die! :D"
It's really bad that when I typed that I considered today being that day.
Don't become like me please