I feel sad and hurt, I feel angry and disappointed even dissatisfied with myself and I don't know why, I can't let others see me like this but for some reason today I can't stop crying, I cant even silently cry like I usually do. I just looked at my mask, I smile when I'm sad and it's a perfect mask, my smile is physically crooked, that's a tell that I'm sad, my mask is broken today. I feel pure black hatred towards myself, I'm so mad that I want to destroy everything I own. I want to destroy myself. I'm useless I hate myself I hate myself