I just got threatened. I want to destroy that persons belongings. I feel extremely violent to the point of even wanting to smash my own phone with a sledge hammer or an axe.. I feel like drowning myself until I cannot stay conscious.
I feel disgust towards myself.
The tip of my stomach feels empty but nasty like I want to throw up but there's nothing to throw up.
My heart feels like lead and I just ripped out a lock of my hair.
I hate myself.
I need help
I should just die
When should I die
I feel like making a plan
I want to make a plan
I can't people would be sad
If it fails I would regret it.
If I try I don't want to fail.
Something is wrong with me
My inner voice is giving me ideas and sometimes I can feel myself agreeing to ideas
I've had to hold my hands back multiple times because they were twitching while reaching for scissors.
I hate myself
Useless waste
I'm starting to lose energy I'm gonna lay down in my own disgust and filth now