Riya's POV
Shit! Shit! Shit! Shit! What the hell happened! Was I drunk? No, I guess. A couple of wine glasses can't do anything, instead of feeling bit of tipsy, atleast I used to believe it. But no! That wasn't just a tipsy feeling than the heart which wanted to cry aloud and melt in his arms forever. It felt so warm and safe in his arms that I forgot to guard up when we were intimately close. But alas, after a good while it stood up and turned him down by calling the night. I felt to stupid to do that but it was needed. And more than that I was needy. OH GOD! Why everything has to end like that? After he left, my eyes sheded a single tear which was equally painful to thousands of years. I tried to sleep whole night but my broken heart was paining so bad that it was impossible to be at ease. And in no time the morning hit. I thought about him all night long. Asking only one question repeatedly, does he feels the same about me? This was the question which kept me awake. His eyes sensed something mysterious this time. Like he wanted to tell me something. He wanted to feel me, he wanted to touch me, he wanted to caress me forever. They carried pain, sorrow, care, love, sympathy not for me but for something else, mystery and god knows what, but were so beautiful and powerful with feelings that it took my breath away. I felt so weak in my full body and that let him touch me like the way no one did. Of course I never let anyone do it. But no! I've control my emotions getting any wilder. I can't get hurt again. Moreover I can't handle anymore pain, I'd seriously had enough. I've to get him out of my mind.
"Hey Riya! Your order." Lexi, my assistant manager handed me my parcel from canteen over. "Thank you so much, sweetie!" and she left with a small smile. I open the packet to find hand made blankets, made from my moms clothes. Actually, I asked Mamu to make them. He knew someone who would do it, but never expected to be this early. With no second thought I dialed his number and called. In few rings he picked. "Riyu baby! How you doing? It's been long since I heard your voice. How's everything?" he kept on asking, never leaving a chance for me to talk. "Finally! I'm good and from your voice, it looks like your amazing either, right?" I threw it back, hiding my excitement. "Of course Riyu! I'm good. Hmm tell me what's up?"
"Guess what? I received your courier. And it's beautiful! I never been at ease untill she's by my side in this. You really don't know how warm I feel in it. Thank you Mamu."
"Hey dumbo! Thanking me? I'll take it back if you didn't behave. I hate you thanking me and you know it, don't you?" he sounded hurt. "Anyways I'm loving it. And....." there's a knock on my door. Lexi calling me for the meeting in few seconds. "Uh Mamu, I'm having an important meeting right now so I'll talk to you later. I've gotta go, they're calling me."
"No problem sweetie! I've gotta work to. Talk to me when free. Bye!" I hunged up and headed to the meeting room.
Aww! They're so warm. I was dying for this. I ran to my apartment, after the work. My team wanted to invite me for drinks tonight but I was busy with my super special parcel and I hardly resisted to keep it way for a while. It was my mom's dresses turned into most warm blankets. I took one of it to my mouth to kiss. Oh jeez! They still smells like her. Suddenly a small drop escaped my eye and dripped on the blanket. I was on the edge to break off again. Ahh! Not again. Do I really had that much of water level to let it out infinitely. I was deep in the warmth when my ears stood up on the door opening sound. I guess I know who's it. "Missed me?" he was standing straight behind me, taking every inch of me in his gaze. It was so strong feeling that I felt it from feets away from me. "Came back! Welcome!" I retorted as soon I sensed. "looks like you're busy? I'll be back afterwards." and he turned to leave. "No, its not like that. Wait, I'll show you." I pulled up one of my precious blanket and showed him. "They're beautiful!" he exclaimed. "Isn't they? My moms dresses. They were trash for everyone but they're treasure for me. Mamu made them and transferred." I smiled proudly and tugged one in my arms. Even if I was busy cuddling the blanket, I saw his jaws dropped off on my intimate relationship with blankets. His eyes were of dark shade of blue and oogling me from head to toe. "How's your ankle?" inspecting the heat in the living room he changed the subject. "Good. Hurted for a while but it's fine now." I nodded imediately, silently thanking him for it. Although we stopped our staring contest, he still didn't looked quite good with my amount of attention to him. Of course I don't want to look at him giving him whatever he wanted. He followed my pace with peircing gaze. God! Do I look so alien that made him to look at me like this. I tried to cut of his glances from me but he continued it. "Are you still grieving over that tragedy. I really think you should move on and start searching love again." that hit me so bad. I stood still in my pace, shooting him annoyed look. He was taken aback with it. "No. I mean your hurting yourself. Don't you think it's not good anymore. You should start living again and stop this shit. Your just wasting your time doing all this. Just move on!" every of his words sting like needles in my heart and ached so bad. "Who are you to tell me that? You're just a friend, don't act like I owe you my life. It's my life and I known how to live it, so don't tryna teach me. And I know what I'm doing so shut your trap." I was pissed on his sudden commotion. I took the box and headed to my bedroom. My face was gloomy and my hands trembled in anger. He caught me for help but my instincts rejected him to do it. "I'm sorry, I don't mean that. But how long you're gonna hurt yourself like this? One or other day you've to move on. You can't be like this, can you? Pst! Look at me!" he pulled over my hands and grabbed my chin up so that I was looking at him. "Why are you doing this to yourself? Your don't have to be so hard. It's okay! Everyone has there past to deal with, but that doesn't mean to that you should stop living and shut yourself out fron the world. Just keep in breathing and everything's gonna be fine. Don't drag yourself to your past again. I can see your hurting, but you're too numb to feel it. Just let it go!" he snatches the box from me but I pull it back and stood up. "I don't know what you're saying, but the thing is stay out of my business. Your not my dad and don't ever try to be. I'm Fine! You're just imagining it." I turned back you my bedroom. "Oh really! So why you haven't found someone to love till now rather than you hang around with me only?" shit! I never expected him to bring this up. "I said that's non of your business. Stay out of it!" I yelled. It took me a second to recognize his words. "Why you just believe me when you find it hard to believe yourself" he sent another bomb where I found my words lost it's way out. "Answer me Riya! Why did you got me back here again when you decided to have distance between us, but you again brought us back together and shut me out again." he studied me and started closing the space between us. "Don't tell me you never us back again and when you were being normal, you turned yourself cold again, weren't you?" I opened my mouth but, shut it again without bluring a word. "What happened cat got your tongue?!" I closed my eyes to get myself together and drew a sharp breath. As did I opened my eyes, found him right infront of me, studying me, taking me in his eyes. I tried to back off, but trembled and he pulled me to him by my arm and threw my box away. I glared at him with annoyance and grief but nothing had a thing on him. "What you doing? Let me go!" my voice was barely clear, but he did nothing but to pull me closer. "Do you really think I would let you go without taking my answers?" he put more force to grab my arm that it hurted badly, but still he didn't left it for a second. "What answers when I'm still searching for it!" I was about to cry but ended up answering his truely. "Oh! So you really wanna deny that you like me and never wanna lose me but can shut me out and curse me while you're sympathizing yourself and killing your heart for it."