Riya's POV
Will fell in daze when I ask him to tell me about himself. It was really weird for us that I wasn't knowing a damn thing about where as he knew almost everything I do. His smile froze and disappear in no time. "Can we skip that?Just don't wanna ruin it." he avoided and stroked towards my balcony. Shit! I just screwed up. Fuck me! I mentally slapped myself and followed him. He was standing with the painful expressions and I could guess it wasn't a great idea. "Uh, ahem! I'm sorry. I didn't mean that. But to be true, it was the thing that I found weird so I let it out. I'm really sorry if I hurt you. That's your totally personal thing, if you're not okay with it then you can skip. Didn't needed to ask about it. You can just....."
"It doesn't matter, Riya. Don't be sorry. I should've let you know bout me. Sometimes I forget that, whatever you're going through, I've gone through it earlier. I've felt it, how it feels to be abandoned and there's no one to take care of yourself but yourself." he looked up to me and I saw a glimpse of old pain which hurt newly to him. He took a big gulp of his drink and sighed heavily. "I was 10 years old when my dad died. We we're close. He died soon and I felt like my body part was torn off from me. My mom married, sooner than she should and I hated my half dad. He wasn't abusive, but still I never liked him. I was disturbed since then. They made me undergo few psychiatric treatments to normal myself but everything turned opposite. I never loved my mom. She was like always keeping me away from her and her life when I needed her the most. She wanted to be free and I gave her the freedom she asked for. My granddad became my mentor forever. He taught me business, and everything I needed. He was even annoyed by my mom's deed. She became selfish and after her second husband's death, she came to know that she had a son, once she love. She came back to me, but I never gave her the chance. It was her punishment for selfishness. Soon because of age granddad died too. Untill then I was mature enough to earn for myself and I do that." he started the second round of his drink and gulped down everything to ease the pain. "I'm sorry...."
"Riya, please don't be sorry. I'm not pathetic, am I?" and I nodded answering no. "I can understand how badly life can be so screwed up. It seems all okay from surface but in reality its more worse than one could ever imagine. My life was no different from any dramatical daily soaps. Waking up with a fake smile to please everyone, everyday and kill your mind to I'm fines, like nothing hurts." I settled my hands on the railing and letting out a heavy sigh. "Uhhhh! I know. Pst, just let it go. My past is in my past. I don't care about it anymore. Even you should be moving on kicking fucking everything behind." he patted on my shoulders. I looked up to him and found hope in his eyes that mesmerized me. "Moving on means finding someone to rely on? No I'm fine. I'm not ready for more heartbreaks. I'm done." I cleared. "So you mean to say, you're not gonna love anyone and go ahead in your life?" I shot him a confused look. "Moving on doesn't mean, I should find someone. I can take care of myself."
"Why someone when you got me?" I froze at the place. "You haven't got over that! Will, I really don't know what you think about me but, I'm not an ordinary girl with whom you can hang out. I have my things to figure out, my mess to look after. In that I can't look for the relationships and all. I don't want to." I stared at the window pane while my back resting on the railing. "Why Riya? Aren't you locking yourself in the terms of that? Don't you think so!" he was glaring at me but I never saw him. "If you think this is caging, than I'm caging myself from this world. Keeping me all away from all the toxicities present around in order to save my sanity." hearing it his jaws dropped off on the floor. "Are you insane or have you lost it?! Or you're too drunk to talk like that? Riya, you really mean whatever you said? Cause that's crazy! Caging yourself! Riya I'm talking to you?" he tried to shake me to wake me up, but I was awake. "That's my decision, Will. If I'd to live, then I've to live like that. Or else I'll never be able to find myself again. I've lost me long ago and should find before it's too late." I sighed. "Riya, you can't be doing this! If you want, I can help you with everything you need. We can fix this! We can....."
"I've decided, Will. I'm going for it." I declared firmly. "No! Riya...."
"Will, I'm done. And I'm 100% positive, I'm gonna do that."
"Do what, shut the world out, be isolated in your own world? Huh! You know what. You need a strong drink to come back to senses. I'm getting." he moved to my kitchen and poured a glass of wine. "Will, I can't cause I'm sick of being bonded!" he turned back, horror covering his face. "Will, I want to be free. No relations, no bonds, no compromise, no hurtful emotions, nothing. Just breathable air for which I craved for my entire life. And I don't even wanna hurt you with all my things. I need space Will. I don't know how long I'm gonna take, but I'm gonna treat myself. I'm too weak right now for anything and a single thorn can break me apart. Just go and live your life. Don't tie yourself to me. I'm too broken for anyone to be pursued. So just leave it!" a tear trailed down my cheeks and in spite of holding long, the sob escaped painfully. "Riya....." he paced towards me. "No! Just go. Leave me alone Will."
"I won't leave you alone, even though it costed me my life. Atleast for the sake of our friendship." he tried to reach me but shrugged it off. "No Will, please. Don't do it! You know it weakens me. Just....." sudden darkness flooded infront of my eyes and black out.