Will's POV
Work day mornings. Arghhh! Why they've to be so irritating. I hate it. Anyways after battling myself I got into my daily routine, as well I thought of her again. She's the first thought in the and the end as well. Why so confusion?! Oh god! Please help me. It was when I realized she'd left already. I didn't even got a chance to say 'good morning' again. "Pst" the only regretful word came into my day. No matter how it is, I can't skip. So decided to call her later. It was so long day with her thoughts in my mind, damn! Can't even concentrate. "Is something bothering you, President?" out of concern Hud asked me. "She's not letting me have peace." I said palming my face. "Who? Riya? Is she not good?" he interogated me curiously getting everything I had and I end up tell him everything. "Oh boy! Will, you're seriously being a pain in ass. Of course she'll be mad at you if you're gonna treat her like that. Who are you to ask for explanation? Oh man, all the best for your love life. It's fucked up already. Why don't you take it slow? She needs time and if your gonna linger around like this than congratulations, she's off limits already." he exclaimed. And somewhere I found it obvious. So as soon as I got a chance, I called her. I texted even and what I got in return? Ignorance. Seriously! Is she using her brain? She ignored my fucking calls. How dare she!? I waited for a more while with few more texts and tried again as Hud's words ringed in my ears. Thank god she picked reasoning that she forgot her phone at her desk. So good reason but still containing my voice and asked with abnormal calmness. I really don't know where do I got that from? But still knowing she was fine relaxed me. But suddenly a she hunged saying she'd meeting. Okay fine I can understand! I sighed sharply containing everything that just happend. As soon as I reached home I got into her apartment and waited. She was late. After a good while she arrived. She was worn out but as I saw her, don't know why, I felt alot calmer. She was talking, but I was too lost to hear it, like my furry ran away somewhere. I closed the space between us and started interogating again. Why the fuck I do that everytime but still never helping myself I asked. I can feel her annoyance but I felt my heart skipping a beat when she said I'm distracting her. It hurted alot but never showing it on my face I left her. Locking myself I felt my heart being so heavy. It was never this bad but felt like I've been bleeding inside. I never meant to suffocate her, I just wanna help her out thats it. But the worst part is, I love her. It was never the part of my life but still fell and now I suffocated her. That night I drank a whole bottle of whiskey and never know when passed out. After that I planned not to meet her for a while. It was hard a important as well. She even looked good without me and as long as she's good, I'm good, I guess.
"Are you really alright?" I was in my meeting when Hud brought me back to sense for the thousandth time from past few days. I was acting like a fucking broken teenager who got ditched. I ended the meeting and was in my office with Hud glaring at me. "Why don't you forget her? She was off limits already since the day you met her. And from that day onwards I'm warning you be double sure, but no you've swered not to listen of anyone than yourself and get fucked." he was bombarding me and I tend not to listen a single word. But what the fuck should I do with my mind?! Its making me sick. I've to decide first that I want her or not. "Are you listening the shit I'm throwing? Man! How can you be so pathetic?" he continued to bombard. "Will you shut the fuck up! Let me think." I said with the annoyance. "Oh you do think! That's great. Well tell me one thing why don't you forget bout her? She has no time for her shit, how's she supposed to have you? Will, let her go. She needs all herself and please stop disgusting yourself. First sort your life then go sort anyone else. Help yourself first. That's what the problem is. Are you getting me?" this time I heard him. But the best part is I can't solve myself but I can do hers. "I can't do it, but she can. She can revive me back. She give me the love that I always craved for. And I know she will be with sooner or later. We just need to have patience cause she's in worser state than me and I can revive her too."
"That's what I wanted to bring out from you. Just have courage and patience." but most importantly I've to find a way to make her like me back.
I came back and ran into each other again. Not really but I wanted too. We were in elevator and there was so much awkwardness between us. Non of us talked, not even glanced. That's it I thought of initiating. "Hi....." but ended up initiating in unison. We laughed at our childish behavior so hard. "I'm sorry..."
"Oh man!"
"Wait, what's going on?" we were going on in unison simultaneously. "Ok you talk." I said granting her to talk first. "No it's okay, you were saying something?" she dodged back. "Uh. I was saying, I really screwed it. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to disturb you. I just wanted to know your okay that's it." I said looking down. "It wasn't you, its me who'd done masters in screwing up things. It's me I'm sorry for everything." she apologized and the elevator blinked. It was our floor. We walked together. "Really to say, I missed you. I don't know, but it felt so bad. I shouldn't had said that ever. I guess I was used to have your presence around and suddenly it disappeared. That felt bad. I just...." she sighed heavily. "I really don't know how to explain you. I guess your the only one who can care about me and I screwed between us. I shouldn't had did it in the first place. I'm really sorry." she continued and smiled apologetically. She stopped at her door, I did the same. "Wanna have few drinks? Dinner's fine too." and my face lit up. She likes me. "Of course, why not. But we'll both prepare it. Deal?" I was jumping already but contained and conditioned. "Sure!" she replied imediately.