When I have performances it feels like everyone is staring at me waiting for me to mess up so they can laugh at me or lecture me about the things I did wrong instead of the things I did right. I close my eyes and open them again to hope that the feeling will fade away and my confidence takes over but sometimes it doesn't and I start to feel overwhelmed, why can't I just do the performance without my body causing problems with my mind. So the best thing I do is think about the people who do enjoy it, seeing them smile and march with me like they are with me and they support me and all of my sisters in this parade. We may not actually be related but everyone in this club considered us all to be family no matter the color or the way we look. We accept each other with open arms. So when I feel down or worried they are there for me making me feel amazing even though I don't deserve it.