I have a choir performance tomorrow. I have a solo. Me and my friend Nacassia were singing with my friend Karina (miss Corona virus) and Azahel were our mini audience. I had put my hair tie in his hair so there was a cute little ponytail on his head. After we had sung a bunch of different songs she had to leave. Me and Karina waited with her. We left Azahel on the stairwell.
When we can back he was on his phone laying down. I went to lay right next to him. I had my back against his left arm and leg. He was so warm.
I crawled over him to go on his right side. I put my right arm on top of his right arm that happened to be in his pocket. I nuzzled my head next to his arm. He didn't say anything. Not one sound escaped his lips. I wish I knew what he was thinking. I wanted to grab his hand but laying on his arm was enough comfort for me... for now anyways.
He stayed very still. It was as if he wasn't trying to disturb me. I had his phone case and was continuessly puting the magnets in it together and apart. That was the only sound that echoed in that stairwell. I was so comfy. I was watching his chest rise and fall. I would have loved to freeze this moment. I could feel a pulse where my leg meet his. I couldn't tell of it was mine or his.
As I closed my eyes I realised I was breathing fast. My heart was beating a little to fast. It wasn't hammering but it definitely wasn't steady.
While I was trying to control my breathing Karina said, "Are you guys dating?!" That sure ruined the moment. Well not to badly but I still felt really embarrassed even though I was nearly laying on top of him.
I didn't say anything but stared at her say "Shut up! Don't exposed me." Though I spoke only with my eyes. She either didn't get the message or didn't care. She continued like this randomly saying "Are you guys dating!" or "Your boyfriend ..." whenever it got to peaceful.
I started to think about how it would be if we were alone. Maybe we will be tomorrow I mean... who knows? He's such a sweet and considerate person.
I remember the last time she said "Your boyfriend..." and he said "We're still friends." I wonder if he meant like for now we are still friends. Maybe I'm thinking to much.
At my bus stop I was playing in and with his hair. I was so soft and smelt food. Mmmhmmm~ Not gonna lie I'm digging his scent. Writing this I know I sound like a Vampire or Werewolf or just a creep in general but like... I'm just saying...
He left and our goodbye seemed a little awkward. We need to think of a way we are going to say goodbye. I really wanted to hug him but like... nah. That would be to nerve wreaking plus I can't think of him the whole time at my performance. I have to be in the right mindset. Wish me luck though as I do have a hard solo I barely worked on to perform!