Chapter 8 - Adam's point of view

My first day at my new school was interesting. The second I entered the class girls were swarming around me, the guys to obviously after the girls. But, my sight went way passed all of them and went to this boy sitting and looking out the window, He had dark brown hair and light brown eyes. Once the teacher came in everyone went to there seats I didn't want to be to direct so I didn't sit next to him. The teacher took attendance and I found out that his name was Kayden, he fit that name so well. When it was time for lunch I walked a fair amount behind him surrounded by girls sadly, but I was not listening to anything they were saying because I was so caught up looking at Kayden. When I finished ordering food I saw him sitting by him self and I was wondering why no one was sitting next to him. So I went over and started talking to him. And we had lots in common we both liked anime I thought that was pretty cool. And then at the thought of that my mind drifted think about us cuddling up with each other and wacthing anime together. AI shook the thought out of my head and thought hes probably not even gay hes probably stright. I am not stright I mean I never dated anyone but my first chruh was an anime guy, that's how I found out I was gay. I never had a real attraction to anyone until now, with Kayden. That day we walked home together, I went home happy that day and even though I live by my self I didn't feel sad this time because all I thought about was him. He was consuming my mind and I new it was bad because he was not gay he was straight and I had to keep reminding my self that. A few days later at school this girl named Chelsea came immediately came over sat next to me and start talking with me. And it's not like I can refuse to talk to her that would be rude so we talked she was actually pretty nice so we talked and when lunch came around I wanted to go talk to Kayden so I sat at the table he sits at and waited for him once he got there Chelsea came over and told me to come sit with them. And I didn't want to hurt her feelings especially because she was new and didn't know many people. But then Kayden called me and I saw this look of defeat and sadness in his eyes. But Chelsea pulled me away before I could say anything. I finally got let free but when I turned around he was gone and his food was on the table. So I left my own food and started to look for him all lunch period. I finally found him when lunch was over and the bell rang. So I pulled him into the nearest bathroom so we could talk in privacy. I asked him what was worng but he kept telling me nothing and told me to go hang out with Chelsea but I didn't want to and I didn't want him to hurt so I kept on prying when I shouldn't have. Because that made him more upset, he tired to run so I slammed the door and nailed him against the door. I almost lost control because of how close he was to me but I stayed focused on the question. And he yelled, that he likes me and then that set me back and I was shocked and he ran. And I thought he probably said that so he could get away and avoid the question so after that I didn't pry. I hung out with him more after that all was good. We even hung out over the weekend we went to the movies after he spent the night. And that morning was let's just say I couldn't control my self and my feelings. So after the movies we went to a cafe and talked learned more about each other. And then Chelsea pop up and we all went to the fair together. We went on rides won some prizes. I gave mine to Chelsea because she kept begging me for them and I didn't want to be rude so I gave them to her. The last ride we went on was the ferrie wheel and I wanted to sit next to Kayden but he insisted that I sat with Chelsea, probably because he thinks I am straight. After I got off the ride I stood and waited for Kayden, when Chelsea told me she liked me. I was about to say I only see her as a friend when she pulled me in and kissed me. And that's when Kayden showed up. And even though we are not in a relationship I felt to guilty and pulled away as fast as I could and ran up to Kayden. I tried to tell him that I dont like her and she kissed me. But he told me it's fine with a smile and said he had to go home. After he left Chelsea ran up to me and said so, do you like me back. And I made sure I was still polite and told her "Look I am sorry but I only see you as a friend" she told me that " Well we could start to date and mabye you could develop feelings" and that when I knew i had to tell her or she would just keep bothering me " Look its not that I dont like you, it's just that I dont like your gender" and she was confused by what i meant so i had to be even more clear " I'm gay". "OH!, well that's awkward, sorry" "Its fine, anyways I gotta go now I'll see you at school." "Alright." So when the weekend finished we went back to school but Kayden wasn't there so I got worried and thought its fien hell be back tomorrow. The next day he still wasn't so the teacher told me to bring him his work after school. And I thought that was a good excuse to use to check up on him and see if he was alright.