Gino ended up making love to Julisa. With her constantly coaxing him to go slow down and to take his time. This gentle side of sex was definitely not Gino's style. But since he didn't want to cause any more harm than he already was, he obeyed Julisa's every command. Julisa told him with soft whispers, her body language, and affection, what felt good and what didn't. Slowing him down when it hurt and awarding him with kisses when he listened. He eventually learned what she needed from him and stroked her accordingly.
Even though Gino was 28years old, he had no prior knowledge of how to make love. His first was his baby mama and shortly after he was imprisoned for 10years and was released only 3 years ago. So his time with genuine intimacy was limited. Not that he even knew how to even show that type of love, to begin with.
Gino's mother abandoned him by the age of 4. His mother used to rip and run the streets all day and felt like Gino was holding her back. She would scream and slap him when she had to stop dealing with business to take care of him. One day she dropped him off with the man she strongly believed was his dad and never came back. The man took Gino in after seeing physical characteristics that matched his own family. Gino's father raised him with an iron fist. Even though his dad wasn't a good influence, being deep in the drug game, and into gang life, he was all Gino knew. Unfortunately, his dad passed away after being shot in a drive-by when Gino was 10. Gino was then placed in foster care because his dad's sister didn't want to be tied down to a child that wasn't hers. She was a stripper and needed her freedom to live and f*ck the way she wanted. In foster care, he was placed with a family who was only in it for the money. Gino resented them and their treatment of him so he did bad things until he got moved. Little did he know, a family only in it for the money is best case scenario because his next foster care parent would make him eat her kitty anytime he would say he was hungry, and couldn't get food until he did it "right". He went hungry a lot living with them and ran away at 13. Out on his own, he joined a gang and was one of their hardest thugs even though he was new to it. But Gino never knew love or compassion and being hard was all he knew. Gino believed love was about your ability to provide and anything else meant much less.
The treatment Julisa showed him was not something he was ever familiar with and was surprised at himself for what grew in his heart for her. This exchange they were engaged in was something he's done before, but never had women go out their way to make sure he felt loved and cared for. When they were done doing it in Jill's bed, Julisa suggested they exchange snap chat information and he left. That was 7 months ago since their relationship commenced and Gino was undeniably in love.
Gino knew he was wrong but he couldn't help but succumb to the affection Julisa adorned on him. He felt like love was something that had been deprived of him his whole life and the one time he gets to experience it in its pure form, it's wrong. "Why does the concept of me being loved have to be so wrong?!" Gino would ask himself every time he thought about discontinuing the relationship.
Gino was 13 years older than Julisa, his own daughter was 2 years younger than her, but he still couldn't get this logic to stop him from being with her. This 15-year-old was able to do something no grown woman was able to do for him, which is to love him for who he was and help him to be better and more gentle...
Maybe it makes sense that he would end up in love with a girl of 15. That's the same age he was when he felt his life went on pause for his long incarceration. Gino was only supposed to spend 5years in jail and come out at the age of 20, but with bad altercations and fights, the years got added on. He even spent 2 years in isolation. Things like that can mess with your mental. Gino spent a lot of years wishing he could die. It wasn't until he met his mentor who thought him Forex and showed him how to make money work for him in stocks, bonds, and mutual funds that showed Gino the light. Gino worked hard to learn these concepts, it kept him out of trouble and gave him a window of hope when he got out of jail and stay out.
Now 3 years later Gino is excellent at his craft in finance and is now a multi-millionaire. He doesn't overly flaunt but those who are "his" (loved) are completely spoiled.
The one thing he hated was how his hands were tied with how much he could give to Julisa. She always said his time is more valuable to her than the material but that's only 8hrs a week of physical contact. Gino felt like all the restrictions on their relationship was like metaphoric jail, with only a few hours a week of free time and visitation. They do text on snap chat all day, every day and talk on the phone almost all night. So this has been helping him bind the time until Julisa turns 18...
Again Gino knows this is wrong, but can someone let his heart know.