Who am i?
I'm a fraud. I'm a fake. I'm no beauty. I'm fat and ugly.
I hide my ugly appearance behind snapchat and Pitu filters. I use filtered pictures as my wallpaper and I tell myself that I am chubby and that I'm cuddly and cute. I tell myself that fat girls can find love too but that's all a lie.
When i look at myself in the mirror, I see someone so ugly, so unattractive, someone who doesn't get love cos she'll just make the guy look bad. I see my real self, ugly and fat.
They say it's what's on the inside that counts but that's a lie. No one is gonna approach you to find out bout your personality if you're unapproachably ugly.
I see my crush post pictures of a girl he likes, all skinny and pretty and I laugh at myself for wondering why he lied to me and didn't choose me, I mean C'mon! She's pretty, you're ugly; she's skinny, you're fat; she's closer to him, a safe choice while you're far away..
It was never gonna work out. He told me he loved me. Told me he wanted to be with me. Next thing he's telling me he has feelings for another..
Bullshit!
He never loved you.
Even if he did at a point, it all changed when you started getting fat. He'd tell you to slim down and talk bout your body then later tell you he was joking but he really wasn't. He can't date a pig. You're an ugly piglet.
I've tried.
I've tried to slim down.. To lose the weight. Nothing works.
I pretend like it doesn't hurt when guys look at my huge boobs and not me. They look at my body and do not bother to know the real me.
I put on a facade like I don't care. I act like I'm hyped that I'll get dicks when i get home but I'm not. That with my boobs, I can get laid easily but that disgusts me.
I'm like a tool, a fucking tool that no one wants to date but is ok emptying their sacs on. Heck, they haven't seen the me now. They'll probably turn away or laugh in my face for thinking they'd wanna get with an ugly pig like me. It sucks..
It hurts..
Who am i? I'm an ugly piglet who'll never find true love.