I hold my breath. Before I have a chance to release it De'rax is moving. He storms out of the room in a rush I barely catch his movement. I blink a couple of times. I'm surprised, confused and crushed. I just showed him my biggest secret and he leaves.
I start to cry. Big racking sobs. Laying on the floor I'm not sure how long I cry. Finally a thought flits through my head. If he can run so can I. But first a place to hide.
I shift back. I am stealthier as a wolf. I try the door only to notice he has locked me in. Hmpf I guess he doesn't know me as well as he thinks he does. I look around and spot the vent in the corner. Shifting back I pry the vent off. It takes some muscle and movement back and forth but I finally get it off. Slipping inside like this I turn and put the vent back. Shifting then to move faster I quietly and quickly move through the vent.
Making my way to the inner part of the ship I crawl through. When Fi'lo and I were testing our bond I found some interesting places to hide. None of which were found. I slip out of the vent and into a hole in the wall behind the computer console.
A hole just big enough for me. I move around the corner and lay down in wait. When we stop I will sneak off and contact Caylee. Getting both of us the hell out of here.
I am not sure how long I am hidden before Fi'lo comes into the room talking into his com.
"No I can not find her. No I do not know where she has gone. Well maybe if you had not acted that way we would know where she was. I do not care if that is insubordination. I care about finding my friend. No I can not get ahold of her. Have you tried? See well that is the response I get as well." He snorts in derision." It is not my fault she is no longer in your quarters. It is not my fault we are looking for her. Lord commander or no drop the tone or I will cease to help."
As his voice fades back out of the room I think about what I heard. They were looking for me. Hmpf well maybe he should listen to Fi'lo a bit more. It is all his fault. I continue to block all messages from my mind. See they don't know how to do this because I never taught them. Thankfully my aunt had. I snort in derision myself before laying back down to wait some more.
Feels like an eternity before I hear voices again. This time it's De'rax and Argo talking.
"It is not our fault that she is gone lord commander. I know your upset but maybe you should have not done what ever it is you did. You still have not said what that was."
"I am not going to. Just understand the importance of finding her. Please."
"Very well lord commander I will search the corridors some more."
I thought they both left but I hear a sigh and a thunk. Then a slam.
"Why did I react that way? Why? That was not the secret I was expecting. I guess I did 'freak out' as she put it."
Another sigh and a groan. "I wish I could just track her sent but it is all over the ship. Not major in any room. It is like she just vanished but that is impossible. Why did she not tell me this sooner? Why now? My reaction was wrong but how was I supposed to react. After all this time why now? "
I listen to him berate himself over and over. I get the urge to come out and speak to him. But we tried that before and look where it got us. Here. In this situation. This goes on for a while before I can't take it anymore. I crawl out of my hole. However I don't want it found just yet so I sneak back around behind him. To make it look like I snuck out of the vent. I walk around to sit in front of him.
His eyes grow big. He moves to touch me but I back up. At my retreat he sits back down. Shaking his head at me or himself I don't know.
"I guess I deserve that huh." He looks up at me for a minute then back at the floor. "You heard all that did you not?"
I nod. Keeping my mind locked down. For now he can speak like this.
"I am truly sorry. I did 'freak out' as you put it. I reacted badly. But what you showed made me so angry. That you did not tell me sooner."
"I tried to tell you. But you just laughed at me thinking it was a joke. After that it is kind of hard to want to tell someone. Before that I didn't trust you."
"I deserve that. It took me a bit to trust you as well. As for the other I did not realize that at the time it was that serious."
He sighs again rubbing his face with his hands. "Will you forgive me?"