I've seen myself again in the middle of the trees. The leaves are falling. I roamed my eyes.
I am here. I am really here; to the place where I thought is just a dream. I continue to walk and roamed the place. My heart was filled with joy. This is really happening. A big smile drew on my face. This is where exactly I am, the one on my dreams.
Tear of happiness escape from my eye.
The wind blew. It is getting cold. I insert my hands inside my pocket. I closed my eyes as I reach the famous well. I ask for a miracle.
In all of the things happened to me, I just wanted to live in happiness. I wanted live with unending happiness. Happiness they took away from me. I want to show them that I can.
I leave the place and decided to roam around the city. I fished out my phone and took a selfie.
And there is where I saw him. The man I thought different. He was just like the random guys I know. Men are men. They are all the same.
And he was with his new girl. That should be me.
I let go of my thoughts and savor my stay in this city. After roaming the city, I immediately go to the inn I am staying.
I threw myself on the bed. I am tired. Physically.
Everything went black.
As my consciousness is back, another curve drew in my face, but this time it was sadness. Nothing has change. I thought I already escaped from sad reality. A reality keeps on hunting and hurting me. A reality I need to face. I just thought, it was real but just another dream made by my playful mind. I left with no choice.
Why the world is so mean to me? I did nothing wrong. I am trying to be a good and perfect daughter but I always fail. I did everything to please everyone. I did everything, but that wasn't enough.
It was like a voice in my head that keeps on hunting me. Dreams are my way to escape from reality. That is where I do not need to please everyone.
I cried as I finished reading the last page of her journal. It was a week since we lost her. She suffered from depression and no one knows. She shot herself thinking it might end all her sufferings. I should have known it.
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I am so sorry for so much typographical and grammitical errors. I am currently (1.28.20) working on it.
As of now (1.29.20), I already done with the editing part. Lots of changes are made.
I am so happy! My Creative Non Fiction adviser critique this work, and he said it was great. He can't believe that I really made it.