All of us has own passion.
Some choose photography, writing, singing, dancing, composing, and many more.
I've chosen my path. and that is I want to be writer someday.
A successful writer.
Lots of ideas were running in my head.
They are like a stars that floats. They are like a bubble that suddenly pop. It was like a sun that revolves through my mind.
It was my dream to be a writer.
But that dream turns into disappointment.
It was shuttered. It was like a glass that broke into pieces. A pieces that irreversible.
By just a single failure.
A scar was made. It's not just my dream that was shuttered, but also my heart. It was a pang that buried deep on my heart.
I looked up on to him. I am nearly into idolizing him. I want to be like him.
In one snap, I hated him.
He hurt me. He hurt me by his words. He made me feel that I am not good enough, that my best wasn't good enough.
Maybe he expect too much? I cannot reached his expectations. I am not like him. I am not perfect, maybe he is.
Hatred is all I can feel. I can no longer idolize him.
I just realized, he is too much. He is too much in all aspects.
I am a disappointment.
My works are shit.
Damn that expectations.
No one knows how much pressure is on me.
I just wanted to be perfect in their eyes, because that they wanted me to.
All of my sacrifices turns into nothing. Nothing at all.
No one believes in me.
I felt discouragement.
In the end, I still want to fulfill that dream.
And I know someday, I can shout to the world that my chosen path is unique, and it makes me happy.
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Hey everyone. I'm nearly crying because of this. I'm hurt because my best wasn't good enough for people around me. I cannot bear their expectations anymore. Lot of pressure was on my shoulder.
Yes! This short confession has something to do with me.
I already talked to my mom 'bout this, and she comfort me already. I just wanted to share this one.
Anyways, I want to hear your thoughts. Teehee! Or may mga kagaya ba ako na sobrang pressure yung nararasan?
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