Hindi ko lubos maisip na darating ako sa point na ganito. That I need to runaway. I need to become someone I am not. I was hiding on my own shadow. I become cold as ice.
It was like I am trying to be someone they want me to. I woke up one day, I've already change. I am no longer the same. Alam at ramdam ko iyon sa sarili but I ignore it. I continue to live my life.
I was once a sweet girl. I always cheer everybody and I care for them. I never forget their special day. No needed facebook to make reminders because it was already imprinted in my mind.
You know what it hurts? They never remember mine. I set my birthdate on Facebook as 'Only Me'.
I waited whole day, but no one, no one remember it— even my friends.
Ang sakit, kasi sila inaalala mo sila pero sila hindi ka man lang naalala. Pinalampas ko yung mga 'yon. Okay na ako.
Then one day, nagkawaalan ng gamit. That time, I am not around. I was busy making reports. I was left in shocked nung nalaman ko yung nangyari. I literally have no idea what really happen.
She was so desperate to know who stole her thing. There's this boy who volunteered to help. He ask some details for him to be able to find and track it. He then said he already blocked the phone.
You know what it hurts? I give them trust. I was clueless with everything. I'm hurt. It was like my world stopped, and broke into pieces. Ako yung pinagbintangan well in fact, bago yung cellphone ko. Where the hell I am going to get a guts to stole a phone? What the fuck.
Weeks had passed, and that attitude of mine become worst. I became distant. Started to build high walls but I failed. Thanks to the people who are always there.
My friends never leave me. They are always there, cheering me up. I am indeed a lucky girl to have them.
The pain was still there, it was still fresh. Fresh in my mind and heart. Bumaon ito nang malamin. They can't blame me. I show them love, naging mabait ako sakanila tapos ito yung isinukli nila. Hopefully, this pain ends. Someday, I'll be able to learn to forgive them. It takes time, a very long time. Forgiveness takes time.