After my father left, I was stumped, the moment he walked out the door. I felt all my strength leave my body, like the facade of understanding and strength was shattered. Though I said I wanted to read more [beginners guide to core creation], I found myself extremely nervous and somewhat scared. Remembering that I left the book off on page 490, the page pertaining to the meditation for qi sensing. Honestly this is everything I've ever wanted, what I've been looking for since I was 8 years old trying to decalcify my third eye. After pacing around the cabin for a while, aggressively biting my fingernails and sweating profusely, repeating some strange mantra that I can't for the life of me remember. I finally manned up, scooping up what little strength I had left in my body and grabbed the book out of my bag. The whole process felt needlessly long "seriously just come to me stupid book!" I thought noticeable annoyed.
I held the book aggressively in my hand, practically trying to stare it out of existence, but during this intense stare down I noticed how tattered and beaten up the book looked. Also, just how strange the texture of the book appeared, "it looks like some animal fur or skin" I said lightly, trying to remember if there existed an animal that had similar fur. "No" I said unable to think of anything, the fur like thing was a dirty grey color. After what was clearly an absurd amount of time to simply stare at a book. I flung It open. Holding it only a nose length away from my face. I examined the contents of the page, noticing how sporadic and ugly the handwriting was, though still readable not the most pleasant thing to look at. The pages of the book were obviously old, I could tell from how brittle and dry tr pages felt, it felt as though just my touching it I was absorbing what little moister it had. But I wouldn't be fooled I chose to religiously repeating "fake, fake" in my head, I've decided to approach this from a very skeptical point of view, choosing not to believe any of it until I see proof.
"Listed below are mediation techniques from "The heavenly Demon clan" I've chosen this particular clan because their meditation technique is the most straight forward path towards qi sensing/core creation. My many years of researching qi has led me to many different meditation techniques from many totally different clans, all of which overly complicate the process of qi sensing, core creation and qi in general. They suffer from what id like to call the "Perfection fallacy". They attempt to control the martial artist of their clan, trying to mold them to fit the clan, whatever that clan specializes in is what they attempt to make that individual specialize in. A clan that primary uses "transformation" attempts to mold every individual as a qi "transformer" but what they don't understand is that we as martial artist are to an extent wholly defined by birth. "What do you mean?" you ask. Well to put it simply none more than martial artist is so completely totally shaped by there birth. From all the research I've done and looked at, I've found that if someone is naturally talented at molding qi for example, and chooses to try his/her hand at transformation, the learning curve is nearly impossible to overcome. I say nearly because nothing is impossible, but the chances are 99.9% that you'll fail. Don't ask me why that is, we've all read stories of the ancient martial artist who had no concept of qi stages and could wield all forms of qi and more, but us modern martial artist do not have such a luxury, so in conclusion I present you with the "Demons sixth sense" "Demons seed" the most straight forward qi sensing and core creation mediation I could find".
After reading all that. I felt weirdly hyped, "if I can sense qi then create a qi core id practically be joining an ultra-secretive society of superpower holders", I thought. "No no no you won't get me so easily!" I frantically said to myself. As I slowly got up off the sunken, tattered couch, that now had mostly lost its former pristine golden-brown color. After pacing around like an idiot, I chose to get something to drink. I only had bottles of water that weren't very cold and to be honest. I had to force myself to drink even one because of how warm they all were. After standing around the kitchen for a while a breeze from outside was strangely alluring, remembering that I chose to keep the door open, just to help get the smell of cleaning chemicals out the cabin. "I should probably close that" I thought. While looking out the open door. When I gazed at the open door the view was tear-jerking. Everything was picture like, a perfect moment of breath-taking beauty. "Wow" the forest around this time was truly breath taking, the trees seemed to blend together trying to create one solid form, while the leaves swayed in all manner of directions unable to resist the dominance of the wind. Everything was cast in a strange hue of black and white, looking at the scenery dyed my body and mind in the same gray scale, feeling as though I never felt before something truly perfect. I stood as one of the denizens of the forest equal in all aspects. Just like every other animal. Through not dark enough to see the stars, I felt as though my spirit was being carrier off by the wind. All my senses were lit aflame, intensified to a supernatural degree, tears flowed down my face, giving my soft skin the sensation of a slight burn. I found myself complete demotivated and extremely tired, unable to fight the sleep over taking my body I laid my head on couch noticing how jagged It all was, falling asleep on such an unconformable couch was surprisingly easy given how tired I was.
I awoke startled, drenched form head to toe, an unusual tiredness blanked my body, making just getting up an exercise in futility. "I have to get this done" I said, somewhat dazed from sleep. I stumbled over to the book, swallowing all my fear and worry. Finding a quiet place in the corner, opening the book to the page pertaining to meditation. "The first stage of the demons sixth sense is to clear your mind. Freeing your mind from worldly interactions. While sitting legs crossed, try to Lower your respiratory rate to enter a sleep like state, doing so will allow your mind to roam freely while allowing you to keep a certain level of awareness. Focus all your effort on the symbol on the page, and then let yourself go do not think with your worldly mind, do not see with your worldly eyes do not hear with your worldly hears, do not taste with your worldly tongue, do not feel with your worldly body. allow yourself to be free. But never attempt to understand the world beyond worlds".
The whole description for qi sensing was strange, but after fiddling with the book for a while, I found a unusually concealed pocket space. inside was a poster sized page with a symbol on it, strange I thought but it wasn't anything too out of the ordinary just a circle, so I didn't pay much attention to it. Instead I stuck it to the wall and grabbed the book looking over more directions on what I should do. Alright first thing first legs crossed, "OK done" I thought, next stage was to clear my mind of all worldly passion's and senses, while lowering my respiratory rate.
After sitting crisscrossed for nearly 2 two hours, while staring at the strange symbol on my wall, I honestly grew bored not knowing what to do, clear my mind? How? What should this newly cleared mind of mine think about? I was honestly mind boggled, I chose to get up and do some misalanecellanous things like push ups sit ups and some squats to pass the time. After getting bored of that, "honestly I'm not the most athletic guy but… five push ups? Really that all I could do!" after my quick moment of shame I got back into position but this time I tried to comprehend the symbol. It looked somewhat big and ink like" actually appearing 3D if you really paid attention to it, the process of it moving could be seen but it felt like hours would go by and it would move just about a millimeter from its full circle look to a more jagged broken circle appearance.
After hours of this the circle was no longer visible, now looking more like a big ink dot, abyss like if you asked me. I couldn't tell if it was moving further away from me or if I was falling asleep but after some time it had seemed so far away that I had to chase after it or risk losing it forever. So that's exactly what I did. I could feel myself leaving my myself, if that makes sense, and chasing the dot, but no matter how far I went after it, the space between us was nearly impossible to close. Hours turn to days and days to years. I would chase this bird forever, bird I thought, but it would be only a fleeting thought that I would soon forget. Instead asking too many questions I wanted to experience its mysteries but for that to happen I needed to get closer. That is until I reached what appeared to be a Chinese dragon, its body made up of a substance that appeared to grow then shrink, disappearing one moment only to appear what seemed like years later slithering in nothingness, the substance looked sticky and black, protruding filth everywhere with what appeared to be a skeletal fish as its head. After staring in awe at the sheer magnitude of its size, I wondered to myself is this qi sense? did I do it right?"