"Dans la nature rien ne se crée, rien ne se perd, tout change."

Sometimes, i wonder how everything began, my story, this world's history, and no matter how many times I do so, it always comes back to the phrase that changed my life. In nature nothing is created, nothing is lost, everything changes. Believing in this saying, my life began with end, and my real future was made possible by a fictional past. Were the stories and legends and myths of the incredible made by dreaming minds, or are said minds merely representing those myths to portray their visions of the past, is really said past something that happened, or is that past a possibility that may happen in an eventful future in another reality. At the time my end and beginning met, I didn't thought that phrase would have so many interpretations.

Right, so, end and beginning. I died, I think that is kinda obvious, that is a trend nowadays, right? Reincarnation and all that crap. Did I met God? The answer is a big No. Did I met a god? Yes, emphasis on the little g. First, the big G up there doesn't meet with any ragtag that dies in any way, that is why there are so many of the little gs around. He only have the Talk and the karma points bullshit with the special ones, and me? I'm not, I'm super ordinary, I had to line up to meet one of the many little gs. Now, you must be wondering how am I in any way ordinary if I am leaving these records that you are reading. Basically guts, bullshitting, suicidal choices, more bullshitting and that phrase again. Yes, that phrase will be mentioned a lot. My life, my choices, don't judge.

Back to past me. I had to line up, meet one of the many little gs and reincarnate as a little clean and white soul with no memories or karma on abilities, nothing. I was desperate, I lived my life in boring and tedious fashion, and I refused to do so for a second time ( that I know of, again that phrase, where does my soul came from) so, i made a cool pose, cleared my throat and said with a deep voice to the little g... okay, that's a lie, I cried and trashed around to get his attention. Don't make eyes like that, I said I had to line up, how would I get his attention in another way, there were literally millions of souls around, I'm not special dammit. Okay, back again, I got his attention, yay! So, bullshitting time, I talked with the guy asked for a chance, cheats, retain my memories, anything. He said no, that I'm not worthy the investment, that I'm basically nothing.

So, where is the bullshitting? Well, remember my boring life? I worked at telemarketing. That is what I did. I sold my product ( my worth), said that if he made the investment in me I would owe him a favor and that if I could one day be important enough, he would have won at no cost, well, almost. He accepted, yay! But no cheats, nay! Cried a bit, I confess, but we talked it out. No cheat, no abilities, no knowledge and definitely no system. "That is broken", his words. So, if it is an "ability" that anyone can have, I could in theory, right? No, he said he could only give me the possibility, he would not risk wasting his powers on something he isn't sure would pay back the cost. So, that phrase again. Yes, if you read the title of my book you should have guessed it. I asked for an ability that in theory anyone can have (in that world), can only be used by those who have the necessary knowledge (which I didn't ask for, that's chemistry, I can learn) and definitely no cheat ( again, to that world). Yes, he accepted. Now, the world that I'm going for. I didn't choose it, hell I would never choose that, not that I don't know about it, I'm a fan, but because I know so much that I wanted to stay far away from there. That place, universe, heck that multiverse is fucked up, and considering my luck I would definitely meet a finger snapping crazy son of a purple potato. Marvel was my last choice of destination that I wanted my soul to go. Fuck you little g, that is what he did, said it was the ante for our deal. Yes, that is how my life in the marvel universe began.

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