Ace is creepy. He just stares at us every night, until he falls asleep and that can't be normal. I wouldn't exactly know as I have never shared a room with someone before. Last night he was even crying silently, but he fell asleep soon after.
It night time again and Ace is just starring at me and dad again. I decided to talk to him. Communication should work this time right?
"Can you stop starring at me," Ace jumped and started looking around. He turned around and faced the wall on his side of the room.
I looked at he's face only to see him still awake facing the wall while crying. This time his crying sounds were a bit louder. You could hear him trying to suck the snot back into his nose.
I couldn't sleep like this, so I patted his back until he fell asleep. It was something my dad did when I cryed too much. It became a new part of what I did everyday.
After a week pasted a special day came. It my dad's birthday May twenty fourth. I sang happy birthday and gave him four birthday hugs one was for luck. No one else wished my dad a happy birthday.
The orphanage lady didn't even give him a cake. This was not good. My dad wasn't even sad. Even Ace didn't do anything.
" It's my birthday!" my dad shouted that so loud that I was surprised. So my dad did care. The orphanage lady ran up to check something. Then gave my dad a scoop of ice cream with one candle lit on it. My dad blow out the candle. Spit went all over the ice cream.
"Ewwwwww," my dad offered me a spoon full. I had to accept it because, who knew when I could have ice cream again. My dad ate and loved the ice cream. He asked for more but the orphanage lady said no.
Ace, John and Joshua sang the happy birthday song. They also wished my dad a happy birthday.
Ace told my dad he was the same age as Emily. The orphanage lady's daughter. He said they could be friends.
I have memorized the book by now. My dad drew a picture of the orphanage recently, and everyone in his journal.
Ace doesn't have bags under his eyes anymore. One night he said thank you mom. I'm not his mom.
The policeman didn't visit dad again that year. When my birthday came my dad wished me a happy birthday. My birthday was in August. I got no ice cream. Soup wasn't for dinner on my birthday.
Ace keeps on trying to make my dad friends with Emily, and that's how the year went by.
It was Emily's birthday today she turn four years old there was a big cake and lot of presents. That's what a birthday should be like. she seems to have forgotten the whole flying incident. My dad never forgot the book as he had a constant reminder under his pillow.
My dad was not as mad at her anymore, and Ace managed to get them to be friends.
I tried to find new things to do with my time. When the orphanage lady was asleep I would watch tv in her room at the lowest volume. Sometimes she caught me but, she can't see me so it was okay. Tv at night was a bit weird but I learnt a lot of new words. The kids shows at night had no sound, so I had to look up different shows.
The next night I tried to teach my dad how to read. if I could read before I turned five, my dad is going to read before he turns four.
The next day my dad read that book to me. I don't know if he knew how to read or if he just memorized that book.
Another long and repetitive year by. My dad first day of school was coming up. I was scared for him. Will he make any friends, will people be nice to him.
My dad was looking forward to school. I didn't want to ruin that by telling him, how much of a terrible place school can be.
My dad feel asleep late that night. I sleep at the bottom of the bed now because there was no space at the top.
The next day dad woke up early.
He wore one of John and Joshua old clothing. A red top and black jogging pants. I followed him in to the school bus.
He sat next to Emily. When we arrived at school school Emily found her own friend very quickly. My dad didn't want to talk to anyone.
No one came to talk to him. He just played by himself. Well he played with me. Did my dad even know how to make friends?
"Oh no" how do you even make friends? I wish I could just search this up online.
My dad went home with zero friends. What should I do? He was only playing with me. When he talked to me everyone would give him weird looks.
On the bus ride home Emily kept talking about, all the new friends she made at school.
How does she even know how to make friends?
When we got home Ace asked dad and Emily if they had fun. Emily kept on talking for a long time. When she finished talking about how great her day was, no one had time to listen to dad.
My dad was still excited to go to school the next day. I guess he wasn't lonely because he had me. Should I go with him to school tomorrow?
I saw on Tv that sometimes it good to throw people, out of their comfort zone.
So the next day I didn't go to school with dad. I stayed at home and ate nothing, I was so tired I slept the whole day.
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Big brother didn't come with me to school today. Emily didn't sit next to me in the bus. She sat with her new friends. When I tried to play with her, she told me they were playing girls only games.
I want to play boy's only games with big brother. I tried to play with some of the boy's in my class but, they said I was weird because I talk to myself.
"isn't everybody weird,"I hoped they would agree and play with me.
They just ignored me.
I tryed to play with Emily again but she said that. I wouldn't understand the game. They were playing house. When I said I could be the daddy. Emily's new friends laughed at me.
"Do you even know what a daddy is?" said one of them. I just played by myself after that.
At least I have a big brother do they have a big brother. The can't possibly have a big brother. Even if they did my big brother is the best.
My big brother plays with me, my big brother stays with me, my brother will not leave me. My big brother taught me how to read. My big brother taught me how to use the toilet. my big brother taught me how to brush my teeth, My big brother taught me how to smile.
It's true that I can't remember my mommy and daddy, but I have a big brother.
There was another kid alone like me. He had blond hair and green eyes.
When I tryed to play with him, but he looked at me with his eyes going up and down at me. Then he ignored me.
"Do you want to be my friend?" please say yes.
"No you peasant!" he said that in a very loud voice. Everyone in class was laughing at me.
School is the worst. Even Emily was laughing at me.
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When dad got home he had a sad expression on his face. what should I do to comfort him. I tryed to read him that book again, but even he got sick of it after listening to the same story for two years.
My dad ran to his bed. I decided to tell him my story. There was a boy that went to school. Made no friends and everyone was mean to him. Everyone called him names. I stop there because I realized. My life story wasn't exciting or happy.
Life only gets better dad so don't worry. My dad still kept his head under the sheet.
when I said "I will go to school with you tomorrow." my dad took his head out from under the sheet. He had a smile on his face, and he told me about his day however sad it was.
We played together until Joshua called us down for dinner.
We ate pasta for dinner that night. It had ketchup for the sauce and, it didn't taste that great.
Ace told my dad he had something to say after dinner time. So we untill everyone was finished and left.
"James your at the age were you have to start cooking now. You have to help with tomorrow's dinner."
"ok," was all my dad said in reply. They have five year olds cooking in this orphanage.
I feel asleep hoping tomorrow was going to be a good day.