The boy just kept looking at me. What did he want? Then I remembered that he still had a knife stuck in his leg, he was bleeding badly. I needed to do something fast. Think, just think! What did uncle Alex teach me about first aid again? It's weird, because the first thing he taught me was how to deal with knife wounds on the leg. It's like he knew this would happen.
I need to call for an ambulance. I gave Alex back his phone. I just hope they sent one with the police. What was next? Hmmm, check for danger. I looked around, and the only knife was in his leg. I made him lie down and put his legs higher then apply pressure to his chest. I just hoped this will work.
I lost track of time, and heard the police and ambulance from a distance. I don't really know what happened out there but soon a paramedic was able to take the boy out of my hands, I felt so tired I almost couldn't move my body.
I slowly followed uncle Alex into a police car and fell into a deep sleep. When I woke up, I found myself on a hospital bed. How did I get here? I could hear a breathing noise behind my back so I turned around. The noise was dad, and he was sleeping. I fell asleep feeling that everything with uncle Alex was just a bad dream. Not really wondering why dad was in a hospital.
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I opened my eyes and got hit by the smell of pee and light from the window. My eyes hurt so I closed them. I wondered what the pee smell was, so I turned to my side and saw blonde hair. Big Brother is finally here! It was strange seeing big brother's face in the morning, because he alway slept at the bottom of my bed.
I wondered if I was seeing things. For example, I was wondering if he was even real. That weird dream still had me questioning his existence, even if I didn't want to think that way. So I started to poke his face. His face felt soft to the touch. He didn't have hair on his face like big brother Ace. His face was as smooth as a plate. He was breathing just like me. He is real he will always be real. Big brother is not just a dream. I relaxed at those thoughts.
Big brother wasn't waking up, so I continued to poke his face with my fingers. I even started to poke his eyelids and nose. I opened and closed his mouth. How long will it take big brother to wake up?
After a long while, he started to move his face in discomfort. I kept on poking his face, and then I saw him open his eyes. He didn't really react so I continued.
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I woke up in the morning to dad poking my face. I just wanted to sleep, why can't I rest after I died? He still poked my face after I woke up. Let me sleep, let me sleep, let me sleep! I tried to close my eyes to fall asleep again, but he kept on poking my face. I turned around but he started to poke the back of my head.
"James please let me sleep." I said that in a quite voice because I didn't want to wake up.
"You finally came back big brother, I thought you left me!" Is dad trying to guilt trip me?
"You said you would never leave me, you promised me you would never leave me." How does dad even remember that? I made that promise a very long time ago.
"Well at least you came back." After dad finished his long speech, he started to cry. Did I turn my dad into a cry baby? No, it must be Ace he's always teaching dad things.
I turned back to face him, and opened my eyes, now fully awake. I smiled at him. But it didn't work, he was still crying. The smiling thing worked when he was two years old, so why didn't it work now?
I wish I had a phone so I could search up what to do when your dad's crying. So I just stared at him lost. I hoped he would stop crying but it seemed like the crying got even more upset. The tears were flowing faster and snot started to drip out of his nose. He was crying silently, don't kids normally cry loudly? Other kids want the whole world to know they are sad.
I wrapped my arms around dad tightly. Dad was very warm and was squishy like a teddy bear. Hopefully the kid that got stabbed is okay. I don't know when, but dad stoped crying and started staring at me.
I stoped hugging him and asked him, "How was school?" Dad had a strange look in his eyes. He started looking around worried.
"I didn't go to school yesterday," dad said that in a strange voice.
"Why did you not go to school?" I asked dad, he looked at the window.
"They brought me to the hospital because I collapsed." Dad collapsed, this wasn't in dad's journal. If I remember correctly, dad was just friendless at this time of his life.
"Well at least you're okay right?" I smiled at dad, I could tell that he didn't want to talk about this.
Then I heard the door open. I turned around and saw someone who worked at the hospital give dad a bowl of cereal. It was a miracle the cereal had milk in it.
Dad looked at the bowl of cereal and said milk right? It's been along time since I have seen milk and cereal together. I almost forgot what cereal was supposed to look like. All that water and cereal messed up my mind. You could never imagine the horror of soggy water cereal.
My dad ate the cereal in a hurry and and chugged the milk. He didn't even leave me any cereal. I looked at him in shock, my stomach was hurting. I needed to eat something. So I ate everything else on his tray. I didn't even ask him. I was still hungry so I left the room to find food.
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I saw big brother leaving the room after finishing all of my food. I tried to follow him. I realized I was wearing a weird outfit, so I didn't leave the room. I stared at the door, and big brother went through in shock.
I went back to my hospital bed disappointed. I couldn't even tell anyone what big brother did, because they would never believe me. The only person who would believe me is Alex, but he's missing right now. So I have no one to talk to about This. My stomach rumbled.
After big brother Angel said he wouldn't leave me, he leaves me. Can I even trust him? He can't even keep a simple promise, and everyone was in that weird dream but him.
Who is he? Why was he not in that dream? What makes him so special? Why do I have to wait for him to come back? He should just be there he's always there.
I always give him food. Why did he eat all my food? I am still hungry and now I have nothing to eat.
I wish big brother Ace was here. He's the only one that gives me food. Big brother Angel never gives me food. He always takes food from me.
Big brother Ace can make food, even I help make food, so why can't big brother Angel make food?
Then big brother Angel opened the door, and lied on the bed and fell asleep.
He just ignored me, why would he do that?
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I followed the smell of food. I didn't care who the food belonged to. I ate until I was full and found my way back to dad's room.
I walked into the room but I was still tired, so I feel asleep, ignoring dad's angry face. It was just one of those moments where you're to dead to do anything.
When I woke up, dad was already dressed in actual clothes. Ace was there to pick him up if I was hearing them right.
The policeman was there too. Haven't seen him in years. Dad probably doesn't remember him.
We all sat in the police car together. The policeman was telling dad that they found all the missing children. I found out that the boy that had the knife in his leg was okay. I fell asleep again, I don't know why I'm so tired.
I woke up on dad's bed. Did dad bring me here? Am I that light? I went back to sleep again.
When I woke up, it was the next morning. I saw dad's feet in front of my face. I didn't feel tired anymore.