(Sawyer's P.O.V)
It's been about a week since Hudson left for the Triwizard tournament. And my life is miserable. I can't deal with mark anymore. Salazar and i have been talking. Well more like i fill him in on everything, from day to day, and he doles out advice. I feel like i'm seeing everything differently now, although i still don't know why Hudson left, Why he thought it was a good idea to go to the Triwizard tournament. To leave me, and to possibly get hurt, or KILLED. I'm not all alone though. Mark's always around, though i'm trying to avoid him. I feel less and less happy everyday. I imagine it's what sobering up is like. Going from a high good feeling, to the low dull horrible feeling, of what is reality. Salazar says that it's normal, expected even, to have at least one bad relationship. That your supposed to snuff it out, like an old candle. To get over it, and move on to something, to someone better. Though he does find it unusual that i got into an 'abusive' relationship when i had good friends, and someone who 'loves?' me. At least i think that's what he's implying, i don't know. He doesn't straight out say anything, but his intentions are clear. Even though his throat's not, or at least he keeps stopping mid-saying something, clearing it, and then changing the topic. Though we always end up back on the topic of Hudson. "I'm telling you sawyer, you need to leave before he kills you." Salazar pleads as I apply a little bit of foundation to a new bruise. "It's fine sal." I don't look up until a sound comes from the painting. "It's not fine Sawyer, you don't deserve his abuse! You never did!" He walks away from the painting leaving me to my thoughts. I put my stuff back in my bag and walk away from the painting.
(Time skip…)
I still haven't broken up with Mark… Salazar's upset with me. But, i'd really just rather avoid him. I've favored hanging out with the Marauders, and Lily. And that little Hufflepuff that i helped, Helga. Apparently she's Hudson's little sister, and NO ONE thought to TELL ME. I have to due so discreetly though, i don't want Mark to find out. My feelings and emotions are so jumbled up, i can't even figure out why i feel how i do. But, i don't think i want anymore of Mark's 'help', or is it out right abuse? Right now i am walking with lily and the marauders to go see Hudson, he's just gotten back from the first task and everyone is buzzing to know who won. "Hudson my man, how'd it go?" James asks clapping his hands down of Hudson's shoulder. Maybe a little to hard, based on the fact that Hudson winced. He looks kind of pale, slightly paler by the minute, it's clear he's injured. What happened? Why isn't he in the hospital wing? And…..is that blood? Definitely injured. Either i could take him to the hospital wing, or i can patch him up, myself. I have enough practice by now. I think bitterly. But i don't have time to linger on that now, it's clear he needs medical attention. But, what will i do. The fact that he's standing here, that he's trying so hard to stay, that he didn't go get a check up, that he won't turn his eyes away from me, and that the only thing that seems to be keeping him from fainting is sheer will. My choice is already made, Mark's consequences be damned. I quickly reach into my bag and pull out bandages and gauze. "James, Remus take off your jackets and make Hudson lay down, he's hurt." They quickly pull off their jacket and bunch them into a ball so Hudson can rest his head. Lily and Peter help him lay down. By now the blood has soaked his entire shirt so I just peel it of to find a huge gash on his shoulder. "Hudson stay with me, tell me what happened." I pull off my hoodie not caring if anyone saw the burns or scars on my arms. "D-Dragons, w-w-w-we had t-t-to fight dr-dragons, i-i-i who-won f-for..." He whispers. I can't stop the tears from flowing out of my eyes but I have to help him. "It's okay, it's gonna be okay just stay with me." I wipe the blood from his wound, but wrapping won't help it's too deep. "Out of my way." Mark pushes me out of the way and pulls out his wand. "Please don't hurt him Mark." I beg and brush some of Hudson's hair away. "Shut up, i'll deal with you later." Mark lifts his arms up and starts to chant a spell, I look down at Hudson's wound and it slowly starts to close. Once the wound is sealed I can see the outline of a scar forming but I didn't get to look at it long because Mark pulled me away before I got the chance. "You idiot, you took off your hoodie? What if someone saw your arms?" I look down in shame and nod. "I'm sorry, I just wanted to help." He slaps my face hard enough to make me fall onto the ground. "Yeah, well next time don't." He wipes the blood off his hands onto his robes and walks away, leaving me to my thoughts. "You're okay man, Sawyer saved you." I hear James say from down the hall, but I didn't save him, as a matter of fact I think I made it worse. "How's Sawyer?" Hudson asks and my heart fluttered. "He's… getting there, he's not ready yet." Remus says in a sad tone of voice but that makes no sense, what am I not ready for? I can't keep doing this to him, if i leave he'll be okay. 'I want to see you smile but, Know that means I'll have to leave.' I remember he said that at the beginning of the year. I stand up and wipe my tears. I walk over to where Hudson and everyone else was sitting. "Hey, you're here." Hudson smiles and stiffly stands to hug me but I put my hands up to stop him. "I can't be friends with you, I begged you not to put your name in the goblet and you did, i can't lose anyone else. So i'm done, i'm done with you and the tournament and everything, i'm just done." I try so hard to stop my voice from cracking but it does. "I-I don't understand." I roll my eyes, trying to hurt him so he won't get hurt by Mark. "God Hudson, don't you get it? I would rather be caught dead than be friends with a-a hufflepuff!" I run away before the tears start to fall again. As i'm running down the hall I accidentally run into the Pewtit twins, they are a year above me and are known for their awesome pranks. "Sorry about that." One of them, I think his name is Gidion says. "It's okay, hey um do you guys know how to get firewhiskey?" I ask, according to Mark they throw major parties where everyone gets hammered. "Actually, we do have a few bottles to spare right here, but don't drink alone mate, we speak from experience." Fabian laughs and hands me these really big bottles of firewhiskey. "Thanks guys." I say, looking up at them. "No problem." They laugh at the same time and walk off. I walk to my dorm room but when I get to the door Salazar stops me. "What do you think you're doing?" He asks looking at the bottles in my hands. "Drinking my feelings away, Nisi serpents." He tries to fight it but the door opens and I walk through all the way up to my room. I sit on my bed and slowly take the cap off of the first bottle, "Just like dad used to do." I whisper and take a swing straight from the bottle, the liquid burns my throat and makes me gag but I continue to drink, and drink, and drink until i can barely walk.
(A few days later)
It's a random break and I haven't left my room for days, but sometimes Lily comes and visits me. She's been helping me sober up a lot, it got really out of hand, but she taught me that writing songs about how I'm feeling is better than drinking. But there are times when it doesn't help and I drink but she's always there to help me again and again. "You know… I don't even like Mark anymore… he's just a jerrrrrkkkk." I laugh as Lily helps me to some room or something. "Good, think about that when you sing." I stop dead in my tracks. "Wait what? No no no no no, I don't sing." I try to pull my hand away from her but she just held on tight. "Yes you do i've heard it." She pulls me back stage and shoves a guitar into my hands. "No lil, don't-" But it was too late she shoved me out to the middle of the stage where headmaster Dumbledore, professor Flitwick and professor Mcgonagall were all sitting there. I slowly walk up to the mic but don't say anything. "Hello Sawyer, I was informed by your friend miss Evans that you were not given a fair chance to get into the choir, but this time the three of will be deciding, whenever you're ready." Dumbledore smiles and waves for me to start, "oh um okay, this song is called 'stuck with you', it's an original." Mcgonagall smiles and nods.
"I wake up locked outside my room
Breath that smells like
booze from last night
I can't remember
last night
very well
I think I called you twice
Just to say that
you looked nice
In the pictures that your mom
posted to the profit
the other night
I know that I said
"I would rather be caught dead
Than waste any of my time
with you
inside my head"
But I can't control myself
I insist
I don't need help
I can do it on my own
Then I get drunk And then I get weak
Then I get too scared to fall asleep
And I think about us
And who we were
And who we are
And who we will be
And I think "Shit," It really sucks
when you can't pick
who you'll love
And that's all that I can do
when I'm still in love with you
I'm stuck with you
You and all your friends
How you act with them
It's different
And I don't think I like it very much
But who am I to say how
When you're so far away now
Close enough to feel
but not to touch
Then I get drunk And then I get weak
Then I get to scared to fall asleep
And I think about us
And who we were
And who we are
And who we will be And I think "Shit,"
It really sucks when you can't pick who you'll love
And that's all that I can do cause
I'm still in love with you
And that's all that I can do
And that's all that I can say
And I know it's true
I can't make you feel a different way
So I'll go out with my friends
I'll walk to my room alone
And when the night comes to an end I'll pick up the phone
Now I'm drunk, Now I'm weak
Now I'm too scared to fall asleep
And I'm thinking about us
And who we were
And who we are
And what we should be
And I think "Shit,"
It really sucks when you can't pick who you'll love
And that's all that I can do
cause I am so in love with you
Yeah that's all that i will do
because I'm so in love with you
I'm stuck with you"
I take a step back from the mic and wipe my eyes. "Thank was beautiful Sawyer, truly." I smile and nod along with him. "Thank you sir, for the opportunity." Before anymore was said I walk off the stage and hug lily. "Who was that song about anyway?" She asks. "I guess you'll never know." I let go and walk back to my room.