"If only I could go back to the past ... Then I will erase the mistakes I made to you in the past ... Whatever the risk ..."
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Chapter 16
I hate ... I hate the fact that I am always alone .... Many times I try to lie to myself and hope that mama and papa or someone else will come to accompany me .... but still nothing has changed ... I always alone ... And finally I stop hoping because it's all useless, "he" will never hear my wishes ..... I ... Will never hoping anymore ....
(Why? .... Why ... I don't have anyone accompanying me when I'm feeling scared like this? .... There's no one I can contact .... I'm so afraid ....)
Suddenly...
"It's useless you keep staring at the door .... No one will come to accompany you ....".
Once again the whisper sounded clearer than usual ... And this time the whisper spoke a very painful reality ....
"I've been watching you for a long time .... You always stare at the door, hoping someone will come but still no one comes.... Am i right??". It wasn't long before the sound grew louder ... More and more whispers appeared ...
"Haahahaha ... she's so lonely so painfull ..."
"look she is so pathetic"
"Even we are not alone like you hihihih... What a pitiful"
"really sad"
"You're like an outcast ..."
" pathetic "
"yes she is so pitiful"
Even though there were some of their voices that sounded unclear, their words were still heartbreaking ... I couldn't stand it anymore, even though Mama said never heeded those whispers. But this time I couldn't stand it ...
"Shut up !!!" . I shouted so loudly, and made the whisper silent for a moment ...
However ...
"Haha...I know you could hear our voices ..."
It turned out to be a trap they set ... And it made me even more scared ... Because they already knew that I could hear it, they made their taunts even more ...
(I can't take it anymore...)
I ran out of my apartment ... running aimlessly ... with the aim of making the voices disappear ...
And the more I ran the whispers followed me more..
(Mama ... Papa ... anyone please !! I'm so scared .... What should I do?)
I don't know what to do...
All I can do is run .... Until...
without realizing it these feet take me to the overpass and from up here I can see a very wide ocean...
Even though it's so dark ... I don't know why my feet brought me here ...
"hey ... are you thinking of jumping? You deserve to DIE ...."
"Isn't that great? You can end your loneliness little girl ..."
"no more words alone .... We will accompany you ..."
"and you will be a part of us hihihihi..."
My aim failed Now my mind is very empty ... I just stare at the dark sea water from above this bridge ...
I can't think straight anymore ... Their whispers have now affected my mind ....
"Come on, jump kid"
"Just imagine, if you die then you no longer need to wait for other people to come to accompany you and you don't have to feel alone anymore ... Eehheeheh ..."
"do it little girl ..."
" lets do it"
"do it !!!"
"do now!!"
"do it for your own happiness... "
"Right now"
I began to be affected by their words...
then without realizing it I was already on the railing of the bridge rail and ...
[Byurr ....]
My body slowly lost its balance and I slowly started falling into the very dark ocean right below me ...
"hey...noooo... !!!".
I could vaguely hear someone screaming...Maybe it was just their whispers haunting me ... or my imagination....But somehow that voice sounded more human ...
(But no one would come right ??) I couldn't believe that voice because there was no way anyone would really be worried about me suffer...I also closed my eyes and felt the great silence in this sea ...
And their whisper is no longer heard ... It's very calm here ... All I hear is the sound of sea water entering my ears ....
My body slowly fell into the depths of this ocean ... Deeper and deeper it felt like I was on a pile of ice ...
"(cold ... it's so cold ... ughhh !!!)".
Due to the absence of oxygen ... I started to lose consciousness ...
Until I saw a shadow of someone getting closer to me .... Getting more and more closer till I can see his face....But that face looks very familiar ....
Even in this dark ocean ... Somehow I can see you clearly ...
(ughh ... Who? ... Who is there? I don't know you ... But please ... I ... I ... can't breathe ...). I grabbed my hand towards him and then I lost my consciousness totally ...