"I still love you .... Even though you left me alone, I still love you .... I don't know why this feeling gets bigger every time I remembers you ...."
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Chapter 17
All I want is someone who is truly sincere to accompany me ..... Not looking at my treasure .... My appearance .... Or even my beauty .... That's all .... To replace mama and papa who aren't been by my side, because maybe I already meant nothing for them ... But why isn't there a single person like what i need in this world ??
I just hate that harsh reality ...
[Looks like jumping off this bridge isn't a bad idea ?? Because I'm so tired...]
After all, they never care if i am alive or dead, right? I'm always alone ...
But somehow someone called me that time ...At first I thought it must be "their" whisper. But somehow that voice sounded very frantic, and sincere ....
(Or am I just hallucinating ?? Surely I'm just hallucinating because I'm going to die soon....)
But when I was about to close my eyes because I slowly lost my consciousness ... I saw the shadow of a man swimming towards me ... Even though it was very dark but I could see that very beautiful face ... I seemed to have seen it, but where ?
And for the first time there was someone who came to me without me asking at all ... I also lost my consciousness and felt someone hugging me tightly ...
Then it hit me when there was a voice shouting my name over and over again with a very worried tone and face ...
"stal !! Crystal ....
"Heyy ... crystal !!! Crystal !! ..."
"Can you hear me ?? Heyy !! Please wake up"
"(Ughhh... who? is that?)". i'm slowly open my eyes..
When our eyes met, I noticed that there was blood on his head ... and it was flowing down my face ...
"khuuugh ...". Instantly I woke up and vomited the water that was swallowed by me ....
I turned my face and saw his face clearly ....
Those blue eyes like a sea and silver hair made him look so beautiful in the moonlight...
And he still holds my hand very tightly ... So that I can feel the warmth of his hand ...
At that moment, I remembered what mama said that time about going to find a fiancé for me so that he could accompany me every day .... It made me angry ... I didn't need that kind of affection from mama and papa
Since it's about my matchmaking, I will arrange it myself ...
(is he in front of me that you mean mama?)
He held my face and said
"crystal .... Are you okay? Which part of you hurts? Say ...". His expression looks really worried ... Even though his head is injured but he cares about me first ...
(Seriously !! Such good acting ... It almost got me trapped by it...)
I brushed his hand that was holding my face ...
"Stop acting it already !!!"
"(shocked) huh ??"
"I know papa and mama who told you right? That's why you know my name even though I didn't know you before .... Tell mama and papa... I don't need their pity at all !!" I just want to be alone!!.."
At first I thought his expression would look like a fool whose evil deeds have been exposed ... But his expression looks sad instead ... He seems to be holding back his tears ...
"huh ??". He pulled me until I fell into his hug....
I paused for a moment and did nothing out of shock ....
His hug grew tighter until it felt tight....
"H-hey !!! I... C-Can't breathe... Let...me go!!"
He was just silent, even though he didn't let go of his hug but he loosened his hug .... And I finally could breathe.
"I thought ... I will lose you right now, because i was such a fool....".He said in a trembling tone of voice ...
"(shocked) W-what do you mean? Even though we don't know each other... Why you said it like that?? Hurry and let me go !! i don't trust you!!".
"Please ... Hold on !! I just want to hug you, just a moment ..." i paused for a moment.
In that silent i can hear his heartbeat... and felt his warm .....
And then I pushed him so that I could get out of his arms, and I succeeded.
But when his embrace was released and our eyes met ..
"huh?". I was surprised to find out that he had tears in his eyes ...
Then as soon as possible he turned his face, so that I couldn't see him crying..
"(W-why is he crying? Is he crying for me ?? Isn't he the agent that was ordered by mama ?? But h-hhe was crying? There's no way mama's agent will cry sincerely ... Isn't he?)".
My heart suddenly ached .. I don't know why but I felt that he was crying for me ... Even though I know no one will ever cry for me sincerely ....
"H-Hey ... Sorry ... For my previous treatment ....". I also apologized to him ... He just remained silent and turned his face towards me.
"But whether you are mama's agent or not, still I owe you a debt of gratitude, say what you want .. then I will give it to you ....".
Papa and mama always taught me not to be indebted to anyone for the sake of protect the good name of my family ... so I must repay those who helped me by asking their wishes ...
I've memorized it so I can guess what they want, and usually fancy things ... Or high positions ...
"(It must be like them right? isn't that your goal to help me? You're just the same as them..)".
When I was busy guessing what he wanted, all of a sudden ....
End of this chapter 😊