**YUSARI AKABANE **
Mr Shintaru hasn't come back yet.... Instead we're here with this bitch.. There's something about her that REALLY pissess me off!...
"Um! Excuse me, Miss Hinami!" Sayuri stands with her hand up, willing to ask a question.
"Yes, Sayuri."
"Where's Mr Shintaru?"
"Probably in the hospital..." Mitsuru beside her, mumbles... Though I couldn't quite hear it properly, but Sayuri faces toward him, annoyed.
"Uh, I really need help with this question. "She says while pointing at her book.
"Well...um.." She rolls her eyes around, looking for an answer. "Let me help you with that! .."
"I bet you won't be able to do it...." I scoffed at her as she walks past me, as soon as I spoke she glared right back at me... Oh! So that's how you wanna play! I'll show you where you belong, bitch!
I looked away with confidence, I know that she's not going to do it.... But why did she avoid the question?... Where IS Mr Shintaru?...
**MAKOTO SAWASHIRO **
"Ah!~ You're back! What took you so long? " I approached him, slowly, with a smile on my face, however that does not mean that I'm glad to see him.
"They said..it will take two weeks to heal..." There was a small cast on his hand as he walked into the school reception.
"Well, might as well stay at the hospital for 2 weeks.. There's no point coming here if you're not going to teach."
"I never said I won't teach!" His anger alarmed me, he is very funny...
"Oh, I'm sorry..My bad!" I acted very excited, but then I lowered my eyes and smirked..."You're leaving?...Aren't you?.." He looked at me suddenly confused. However his intuition doesn't know what I'm thinking...
"...No! I won't!...This is all because of you! You broke my dominant hand on purpose! " Now he has completely fallen, his stupid little tricks...They won't work on me... Point your fingers all you like...Nobody will ever come to you... Not even to your grave...
"And you made her jump on purpose...didn't you?.." I spoke bluntly but it is a fair bargain, though the only sad thing here is... that your not the one dead...
"Shut up! That was all you!" Does he really want to keep his job?
"Go ahead! Take the whole week off if you want! " I yell back at him after he storms further into the school.
**TOSHIRO SHINTARU **
I slam the the door of my room closed, and it made a huge bang! I screamed as the sun desends into the dark night. I was so pissed! And fed up of everything!
I sighed, I stood still...silently...and I lay down on my bed, without realising it...I fell into a deep sleep....
✴"Hey, Toshiro!" Yuki grabbed him from behind while he was sitting at his desk, typing on his computer.
"Yeah, what?" He brushed it of as if not acknowledging her existence, in fact while drinking a cup of coffee! Ohh!~ Ahem... "Hey! Don't be so rude!" She tightened her grip around his chest. "I want to know if you're free tonight?.." After, a long thought, Toshiro stopped typing and looked at Yuki over his shoulder, dead in the eye.
"No, I'm expensive..." His answer surprised in a way that made her release her grip. "No You're not!...Come on...please.." Her cute face, could pour excitement in a man's heart, her eyes so eager and mysterious , you'll be up all night trying to reveal all those secrets inside her!.... Yes I'm a guy...It's natural to feel so contempt for a women's heart!...Nice to meet you, I'm the narrator!...Ahem!
Toshiro smiled at her as he swings his chair at her direction.
"Well.. I am pretty excited for this date.."
"Huh? why?"
"Because you're gonna be so drunk.💫" he smirked, looking at her with a humerus face.
"Why is that so exciting?"
"Because... you'll fall asleep and I'll abandon you"
"Hey! You can't do that!....Instead, you'll fall asleep with me aswell. ." Toshiro was shocked at her confidence, that he blushed in embarrassment, they stared at each other...They were thinking of something else entirely..
"Why are you so dirty minded?!" He looked away, and Yuki began to laugh in tears.
"What's so funny? "
"You look like an idiot!"✴
**TOSHIRO SHINTARU **
4 years ago, me and Yuki came to this school to work as teachers. We grew a strong relationship, and we loved spending time together. After the first few months, before summer vacation, we confessed our love and began dating. We did what normal couples would do, however we were stuck with teaching 24/7. Back then, those times were very precious... I even was in god terms with Yuki father, Mr Sawashiro... But eve thing changed at that time...
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"Aah!!" I rapidly sat up, I was trembling, frightened by my nightmare... I spent 2 whole years trying to forget about her.... But... "My daughter DIED because of you..!" The words that he said made me jump. I got out of bed and looked outside, there was darkness, the night had shone.
I looked down at my bandaged hand... I felt so much pain, that I felt numb...inside and out.
I stood silent as I wacthed the dark clouds block the moonlight, I was left in the darkness... I had no idea what to do....all I can do now....is remember my time with you....
I sat down and went through all of our memories that we have spent together. Our first (crappy) date, our first kiss, the moments we would teach class together. ... everytime she would laugh, it would make me happy.... But there were times when she would cry, and it would make me upset... I...wanted to...For the rest of my life...to be..by her side...And now....I can't. ...
Everything was perfect...Until THAT .. day...
I went to the pricipal's office because he wanted to speak with me.
"I want you to break up your relationship with her..." Mr Sawashiro said in a serious tone. "What?!..But-why?!"
"You two have been too distracted in your relationship...The students are also getting distracted. .which is causing their grades to fall..." I looked at him in disbelief... I couldn't believe what I'm hearing, does Yuki know about this? I was starting to feel sceptical...
"Why do I need to break up with Yuki because of THAT?!"
"Listen...I'm not against you two because in together... but you must understand where your priorities lies in this... I just want you two to distance yourselves a bit more..."
"It's just temporary...? "
"Yes...Just until the students exams are over.." I didn't know what I was thinking back then but I was very naive.
"... Alright. ..But, have you told Yuki about this?" And I just agreed with him...
"No...I want you to do this..." I looked down in shock. I knew I loved her so much that l could never let her go!..But I do understand the affects it has in the students... and us teachers... A bit of distance can't hurt...can it?..
"I know you love her so much..But try to make her understand..ok?"
I let out a deep sigh and agreed, "Ok..."
**AI HINAMI **
"Ah! I'm soo worried about him!~ " I exclaimed as I entered the staff room. I sat down at the desk and next to me was Mr Takahashi.
"Wait! You're worried about me!☆"
"Die!" He was overly extatic. "I'm worried about Mr Shintaru Senpai..."
"Oh, that guy...Why? .." He had no idea the WHOLE time! What kind of friend are you?
"How stupid are you?" He is such an old man.
"Don't worry about him.." I'm suddenly confused, it's like he knows what Shintaru is going through. But can I trust that?
"He's always been stubborn... but he'll pull through it.. even if he is all alone in this world."
"What do you mean?" I leaned forward in curiosity, he looked at me then sighed.
"Well, Toshiro..had a girlfriend..."
"Oh! We've all been there!-" I said aloud, I thought that it was just a regular break up story and now Mr Shintaru can't move on but I was interrupted "No!" He raised his hand to gesture to hold my chatter.
"... About 4 years ago, Toshiro started off as my junior... He didn't really relay on me. He's very independent. He was quite and never dealt with anyone until..A teacher came... He name was Yuki Sawashiro..."
"Wait! That's!- "
"The Principal's daughter. .She worked well, she was kind, gentle and hard working... She always had a smile on her face... Toshiro's and Yuki's personalities were total opposites...though they became really good friends."
This is the first time I've heard Mr Takahashi be so serious. But now, thanks to him, I'm learning more about Mr Shintaru. I was beginning to get really interested.
"Let me guess, they started dating, right?"
"Yeah..it went well too. I remember seeing their happy smiles..." He looked up, he smiled but his eyes looked sad.
"But all of that changed... " His smile faded... I was curious to see what he was going to say next... There a hidden silence between us... what Happened?
"...I..." He looked down. "I didn't know how it started... But after...I guess..They broke each others hearts..."
**TOSHIRO SHINTARU **
I remember Yuki was waiting for me on the roof. As I opened the door, Yuki turned around and wrapped her hair around her ear. The breeze of the wind was warm and gentle.
"Hey... It's been a while since we've been up here..." She said with her soft beautiful voice.
"Yeah...." It was time to distance ourselves...
"This was the place where it all started...and it's...where...it should..end..." I said until a whisper escaped my lips. I couldn't bare it inside but I didn't want to say it because I knew it would break her heart... But what if...She doesn't want to come back to me? ..
"Huh?..What was that?.."
"Yuki..."
"Yes..."
"I'm sorry.... We need to break up..." I looked at he face...She's devestated..
"What?..What are you saying?.."
"I want you to understand. ..I still love you but...This is becoming a big distraction for us and the students..." I tried to mantain as calm as possible yet my heart is still trembling.
"No, it's not.."
"Yes it is... But foe the moment,..I want to help the students to study enough for the finals. .."
"But.."
"I'm a teacher... You're a teacher, remember?... A true teacher must always teach from the heart not from the book..." Her eyes were enlightened, she remembered.
"You told me that.. when we first met..Don't get me wrong..You're the only woman in my life, the only being close to my soul, this isnt an official break up...It's just temporary. ..I promise...I'll always come running back to you..."
She looked up and said "Ok! I understand. .." I smiled, walked toward her and gave her a hug. "I'll be waiting..." She whispers into my ear. Her smile made me smile. To me, a smile is like a mirror, smile and it true happiness will come back to you..That's what I believe..and it's because of her that I believe this...
"Come on..class will be starting soon." I turned around but she wasn't moving. It didn't seem like she wanted to come. "You coming?" She faced toward me, said that she'll come soon, I nodded and left.
I went to the classroom and started teaching immediately. I was writing on the board, I turned back at the class and from the corner of my eye. I saw. From the window, the middle. I saw someone. I didn't know. It was too fast. It blurred my vision. My heart sank. The student by that particular window, startled. As I saw this, my mouth opened "What was that?" The student replied "Someone..." CRASH!!!¡¡•°°●▪⊙■○°●•°¤○¿¡▪●● "...Fell..."
The moment was rapid. My heart palpated. I couldn't control myself. Without hesitation. I dropped everything and I bolted out of the room.
In the back of my mind, I KNEW Who it was. She was on the roof! Damn IT! I denied It! Just deny It!
I jumped down the stairs. Pushed everyone out of the way. I shouted. "MOVE! Get out of they way!" I couldn't stop running. I tripped countless times but I still ran. Until I reached the exit and found..."....Yu...ki..."
Fear controlled me as I saw this sight. Her body laid silently as if she were sleeping...However, she's not sleeping beauty..and she won't wake up with a kiss...Blood...The bright crimson blood surrounded her body. It kept flowing.
I. .bend down. I stood on my knees, staring at her body, lay motionless. My hands were shaking, clueless of what to do with them, they sat beside her body, on the ground.
The blood was seeping through my hands but it felt like I was slowly drowning in her blood. I froze. I didn't know what to do. Both my conscious and subconscious mind were empty.
I didn't think.
I didn't cry.
I just sat there. Staring at her. I didn't even regret. I didn't push myself to the blame of all of this.
For a while, my brain came back to processing me properly. I realised it was too late to call the ambulance. I could suddenly hear the students screaming and crowding the place. They were whispering and sobbing.
"GO!! GET AWAY!!!GET INSIDE!!¡¡¤••⊙■°○□°▪⊙○○°•••▪■" My mind was in a swirl and my throat started to sore as I was raising my voice so loud, that I didn't know I had screamed so much. Everyone, started to flee.
I grabbed Yuki. ...and I looked at her deceased face. She didn't look sad, then how couod this have happened? Why is she so relaxed after I left her to DIE??! "What's going on?!" It was Takahashi...He saw the sight of terror. "Oh no..."
Her body felt so light, her brown hair turned red as it was soaked in her mucky blood. Her head fell back. Tears fell from my eyes and landed on her face. I tightened my grip on her. I squeezed her. I laid my face on hers. My tears. ... kept falling. I lifted my head up... just hoping...For one last time...I would see her eyes...and mouth open saying...The words I wish I would hear.... "I love you...."
**AI HINAMI **
"What?...She. ..committed..suicide?.." I was shocked, I can't believe Mr Shintaru went through all of this?
"Yes.. He..was never the same after that..."
"Did he go back to the person he was before?" I asked.
"Yeah... But worse...When we humans are attracted to someone...That person will always make you change... Either it's betrayal, break ups or death,.,without them we just feel nothing has changed... We always have be so obsessed with having someone there for you for the rest of your life...but they did nothing to us from the start, they never made us change.... The same happened to Toshiro. . he stopped coming to class, he stopped hanging out with people, he stopped drinking alcohol. He stayed in his room for days ,without food or water. No matter how many times we knock on that door,..He, ll never open it..." For Takahashi to witness all of Shintaru's actions and not being able to do anything about it, feels painful. ..it must've been hard for him. However, losing somone you love is the hardest thing of all, yet I wonder if you lost a daughter like that...
"Then what about the principal? Was he that depressed?"
"I wouldn't say he was depressed but more like resentment... Every word he spoke would be screams echoing in your head... He just couldn't believe it..."
"What happened after that?... How did he change back?..."
"You think after thqt, Toshiro would just magically change?.. No. The Toshiro you see today is no different than the Toshiro back then... He simply became better at hiding it, and he took his responsibilities much more seriously... He grew.. He didn't change. Maturity isn't based on age, it's based on experience...What he went through only made him grow.... After a month, the principal told him to come back to teaching... Everyone in the school knew that they were forbidden to speak about the accident. But when he came back, he began teaching very strictly. If they didn't know the answer, he would be very angry at them. Because of this the students began hating him. There were various problems that occurred, like one time, a student said that they hated hum, do you know what he said?... "Go ahead and hate. But don't come to me to fix your stupidity issues!" He got into so much trouble for his attitude...."
**TOSHIRO SHINTARU **
My memories are haunting me... The dakness is hurting me...The pain is...killing me...
The silence is doubting my ears.Loneliness...it feels good.... It's the only thing that will never leave me. Even if I'm surrounded by a hundred people, I'll always remain lonely. I feel like a silent grave, sitting in a pit where I'll be sinking in deeper and deeper within...filling it with all my pain and regrets. But hiding such things is impossible, you can't leave it behind and let it go... It's not easy...
I lost you...and now, I'm losing myself... I would like to be where you are right now... Please...let me leave everything behind. Let me die... please. ..Take my hand... Don't let me lose myself, Don't let me fade away. .Don't let me die today... Help me be strong... I can feel you... But after every moment that goes by...I'm drowning...I'm drowning...I'm drowning....Yuki... Why didn't you reach out your hand to me...? Why did you fall alone....? I would have given you my hand... I would've given you my soul...Just why...Did you bare it all alone?...
My past is full of regrets, I'm depressed. My future is terrifying, I'm anxious. But the present. .. It's a blur. Everything is on pause. I hate it when life goes on, when the sun continues to shine, when the seasons still come and go...no matter how much you suffer... Nothing will stop for you...You just have to move on...
After 2 years, moving on,...dragging myself to where I am now... I still wish...you were here... By my side...
In my present state, I am sitting on the floor, isolated, as if my tragedies turned into shackles and I'm suffering like a prisoner... A prison..I created for myself...
When will I be Free? ..When will I be able to break the shackles?...
I know the answer to these questions but I refuse to believe it.
When you learn to turn your tragedies into armour...Stand up and fight...! But I can't. ..I'm not strong enough to do that... Because right now, I just want to scream and let it all out coz it's killing me inside!
I don't feel like doing anything... I don't want to eat or sleep. My mind is unstable... I can't think properly... Everything I've done means absolutely nothing...I don't think care about the future because it would just be a waste of time....
KNOCK!! It's not hard to ignore someone, I've done it many times...
"Mr Shintaru, I know it's late..but I've made you some food..." Huh?...Why is a student here? Isn't that Yusari? What does she want? If she thinks that I'm alright then she'll leave right?..It's not like she can see through a simple smile... I pulled myself together and stood up, I walked towards the door and pushed the handle down.
Yusari was standing, holding as tray full of delicious foods. She looked as if she has been waiting forever..
"Are you ok, Mr Shintaru? " Of course, the question of the day...I smiled and said,"Yes, I'm fine..."
"What about your hand?.." It seems that she noticed. I raised my injured hand, showing her the bandages.
"Well, at the moment I can't write. .. Don't worry I'll be fine..." Yusari handed out the tray.
"Here... I made it for you. It seems like you haven't eaten all day..." I took the off her, gently.
"Yes, But I'm fine..." I closed the door on her, leaving her alone. I put the tray on my desk. Yes. I'm refusing to eat. I can't. .. I would rather starve myself...then at least I'll be able to move on...