At some point in my life, people have called me selfish. The truth is, I'd rather choose to save myself, than to destroy others. You call that selfish...Little do you know...despite what you believe...In the end..I'll prove you wrong...
**HASHIBA MAEHARA **
I'm walking through the hallway and guess who I find skipping in my direction! It's Yusari! She looks awfully happy. I wonder why?...
"Hey! Yusari! What's up?" She glanced up at me with a fulfilling smile, except....It only lasted TWO SECONDS!! She just made my heart flutter and now she's STABBING IT!! She looks pissed! But what did I do?!
"What?..." Why is she so angry?! I only said HI!
"Uh-um..W-what are doing today?.." I'm a nervous wreck already!
"Nothing... Can you go?..-" "Hey! Do you remember the first day we met?" I said excitedly, interrupting her. I thought this conversation should last longer and that this would lighten up the mood.
"Yes...But im always trying my best to forget" "That!-" I stopped to speak any further, I didn't know what I was going to stutter out of my mouth if I continued. I thought of what to say then quickly proceeded.
"But why?! That was the day we became friends! " I'm pouting like a baby in front of her, but I like that...
She looks at me with a sassy, sarcastic look..." Do I know you?..."
Forget it! She's pissing me off!
"How can you forget?!...That moment...When I apologised to you...And you cried in my arms..." Of course I made it sound as dramatic as possible. And Yusari was in an embarrassed state as I recall the memories of last week.
"I remember the feeling in that moment!... I was able to gently touch your boo-! " POW! She punched me right in the face! What can I say?! A pervert is a pervert! I can't help it! But, OH DAMN! That REALLY hurt!
"Pervert! Keep dreaming!...The last time I saw something like you, I flushed it..!" She then says under her breas- I mean! Breath..!
"You piece of shit!.."
"Ah!~ But I like dreaming about that kind of stuff. I mean..." I stood up and blocked her way, moving in closer. This is me, flirting... And I'm pretty good at it too. "Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?..."
It's a pretty cliché pickup line, but, Hey!..It always works!
"Did you just call me Satan?" Only on the right kind of women...And..yes...She is now pissed... Well, at least I tried! Bye bye!
Yusari began walking away the opposite direction, and I quickly catch up to her. "Anyway, What got you excited this evening?- " "None of your god damn business!"
"Come on! Tell me! Does it have to do with your crush, Mr Shintaru!" She refused to answer, however, my face urged her to talk, my eyes of obsessive curiosity sparkled into hers!
"So what if it does!..Now! Because of YOU! I'm no longer in a good mood! So, get lost!"
"Wait! Did something happen?!...Did you finally confess?! *Gasp!* Y-yo-y-.." My face turned red as I stuttered the words I was so afraid to say....
"KISS!!" "NO!!" I may have gotten a bit too excited. But looking at her face in such a cute, embarrassing state..is worth the risk!
"(though...I wish we did...)" Yes... I heard that...what's the point of whispering again?...I'm not so thrilled to hear that come out her mouth like that... It's just disturbing...
"So...what DID you do?.."
"We..um..." She blushes. "we hugged! It was amazing!" She screamed out in joy. I looked surprised but before I could utter a word, she returned to being grumpy.
"But you still don't like that idea..Do you?" Yusari glares back at me with her arms crossed. Well, if I saw Mr Shintaru and Yusari standing together like a couple...then I'm gonna fail every math test... And of course I don't like that idea, I can't even imagine it...But im not going to tell her that.
"What?! NO! I do!..I'll support you in every way!.." Even if it hurts..I'll still be your friend..Because that's what 'Friends' do.
After a while of silence, Yusari walks on ahead and I tag along behind her. I don't understand what I'm feeling inside, ... I really don't want to feel anything.
"Anyway..uh..." I'm trying to think of an opening conversation to end this feeling. "What did you eat for breakfast?..." It was a stupid question but Yusari just walks on as if she heard nothing...and that I don't exist..
"What about toast or eggs?..." I may be considering to make her breakfast one day. "How do you like your eggs in the morning?.."
"Unfertilised. Thank you very much, pervert."
"HUH?! What?! Wait!" She began speed walking further away. She's got it all wrong!"Wait! That's not what I meant!" I run towards her, though I have no idea why I keep chasing after her?
"Hey! Where are you going?" I caught up with her, I just wanted to have a good conversation with her but she just had to be a bitch!
"Hey! What's wrong?! You were in such such a good mood! Why are you so Mad?!...It's because of me....Isn't it. . "
"JUST shut up and leave me alone!" Huh?..What is she on about?...
Well, it's no surprise..my efforts always end up in failure. I feel so disappointed in myself, but when in looked at Yusari... I noticed that she wasn't angry...But flustered.
"Ah!" I relaxed myself, and sighed, I didn't know what to say next because I was still in the process of thinking.
"Will you....EVER SHUT UP!!!" But I didn't say anything!
"You don't get it ok!!!... I'm so pissed! So PISSED!!....I hate everyone! And everything!" She's insane! And she's laughing like a maniac! "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!¡¡•□○●•▪□°°!!¡□▪°•▪●⊙•¤ "
"AAAAHH!!!■○□•▪●" She's so freakin scary! She's looking at me as if she's gonna kill ME!
"And now... I feel so damn good about HATING!!●•○○○■¡¡°●○!!!
EVERYONE!!●●•○■■●○¡¡°● "
"AHH!! DON'T KILL ME!!! PLEASE!!●°■○●○°□¤°□▪¡¡¡"
Yusari glares at me..DEAD in the they. I regret trying to talk to Her! Why does it have to be me?! Can't you hate someone else!
"Argh! Will you just shut up!"
"What's wrong with you?!"
"Do you wanna list?" She looks down, I probably shouldn't have said that. . I probably shouldn't have said ALOT of things.
"AAARGHH!!! You don't know what it's like to have blood flowing out of your body after every few seconds!!! It's SOOO ANNOYING!! " What? ...She's. ..that's why!
"That's why you wanna kill me?!"
"My mood swing's just snapped. ..You better run!!"
"AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!"
🔸28TH APRIL 2007🔸
🔵Finally! Finally, Mahiru's awake! I've been waiting for so long!
I thought she₩₩₩was₩₩g₩₩onna₩₩₩di🔴I W●°□●ISHED°□○○●○ SHE D•°●○ID!! 🔴
But I wish I had some food for her, she must've been so hungry! Like me! I didn't KNOW where to get it from. But Mahiru was acting strange... 🔵
✴ Mahiru opens her eyes and beside her was Mitsuru, laying his head on the side of the bed. He wasn't asleep but there were tears rolling down his face. Mahiru had a old bandage wrapped around her head, plasters roughly placed on her face, which were all done horribly.
Mahiru says slowly and painfully. You'll always love me...right, Mitsuru?.." Mitsuru lifts his head up, quickly. He forms a big smile but before he could call out her name,"Mahi-" She puts her hand on his cheeks and says, "I love you, Mitsuru...do you..love me too?.." Without a doubt in his mind, Mitsuru leans in to hug her and delightfully declares, " Of course I do! I love you so much! Mahiru chan!" However, Mahiru stayed emotionless.
After a long pause, Mahiru drops a tear and opened her mouth, her voice was hoarse and trembles as she cries sliently, " Mitsuru..."
"Yes, big sister..." He responded immediately, like a dog running back to his master.
"What will you do...when I die?..."
"What?..." This triggered the young boy, remembering the time when she said,"I'm...going to die.." But poor Mitsuru had no idea what was awaiting him. ✴
A DEAD BODY. COVERED IN BLOOD. HANGING. BY THE NECK.
".....Mahiru...."