Well, I couldn't sleep but... I still didn't want to go outside my bed. I rolled and rolled around, thinking about today's meeting with Bass.
I forgot the time. "Damn it's already this late!!!", I would spit in shock? "Fuck I will come too late again!"
I almost ran out of the house without washing myself, but I thought about Bass and our meeting later so I couldn't just leave like this could I-ii?
"Well, whatever It's no big deal... I will just be late for school..."
I didn't eat breakfast again, just like every morning that I had to go to school. I didn't make myself something for the school break either.
I am always in a hurry cause I wake up too late nothing is to be done there right? As I just thought that, my parent's voice's crossed my mind telling me, I just had to wake up earlier... True thou...
When I reached the building of the school, it already was the third period and I forgot what we had right now. *Sighs* whispering to me Why does this always happen to me?
Surely they will say things like Hahaha she overslept again, pffft she is so arrogant she thinks she is allowed to do everything?! Pah, she's so laughable don't u think?" My mood instantly sank.
For me, this school is a cage and I can't get out yet 200-300 people are here nothing much right? But for me it's already too much, everyone here, yes everyone...Knows about me: Eri the freak!
As I went upstairs to our classroom. I needed to listen to all kinds of people saying my name, I am used to it, and ao I ignore it, cuz I know they don't want anything from me anyways. They just wanna annoy me and see how I turn my head towards them just to listen to their laughter that's not funny you know? Why is this just so unfair?
*Slaps*
Am I out of mind!!!, If I cry now they will laugh even more! Some boys from the neighbor class saw me and pointed their fingers at me, boys cause I don't even know their names it's pointless to know about them no?!
"Did u see Eri just slapped herself!"
*Haha* Another one answered: "She so dumb." A third guy: "Yeah yeah totally, she's such trash!"
Mare, a girl from our class joined them and said:" She has the pest if she touches you you will catch it too, so you better watch out."
She arrogantly looked in my direction as if she was challenging me to admit, that I am a pest, a no one.
I guess I didn't want to admit defeat, I started running after the boys that bullied me, caught them, touched them innerly screaming: I am no pest!
After looking back in time I guess that saved my life, even when people don't know and thought I was just stupid and weird it saved me, but at that time I didn't know how important those little actions were for me...
*Tears up* *Bass...*