Awaking next to Oliver is like awaking from a wonderful dream into a wonderful new day. Okay, my hormones are a little bit crazy today. I hope, I don´t smile goofy, that I do only after eating a little bit too much of my favourite dark chocolate. Oh, I want some of that, now. It would be great now. Hm, I sigh deeply.
"What are you dreaming of?", he asks me a question. I´m a little bit surprised, because I didn´t thought of him awoke. "Don´t laugh, please. Give me your word and don´t laugh", I want to hear it from him.
"Yes, I do not laugh about anything you thought of. Okay?", he takes me between his arms and pulls me to the front of his body. I like the feeling he´s giving me. Every nerve in my body tastes that great feeling being in his arms.
"I thought of dark chocolate. But I shouldn´t eat it, because it´s bad for my body fat. I want to reduce my weight a little bit, so round about twenty pounds. Like ten pounds, I lost already and I like the new body awareness and the good feeling when your clothes fit." I shouldn´t have said so much about my weight. What does he think now of me? I hope nothing bad.
"Oh, Wanda, that are great thoughts, but I hope you aren´t dieting to much. It´s not good for your health, it only makes you go slower and slower, feeling a great loss of energy. A little bit of dieting is okay, but to much is unhealthy." That I didn´t expect of him. He´s really supporting me, not telling me that he likes me in every form nor telling me to lose a lot of weight. His message is right in the middle. I like it! Very much. To let him know about my positive thoughts, I give him a little peck on his lips. But that´s not enough, suddenly I´m lying beneath him, looking into his eyes, a third would say, we are giving each other lovely looks.
"You are doing some really crazy stuff to me, Wanda. I like you very much", he kisses me back. That feeling that is twirling around in my belly gives me motivation to lay me over him, necking him with kisses all over his face. "I like you, too", I hope I didn´t say something incredible false, because he´s looking at me now with a suspicious facial expression.
"You didn´t tell me that you like me only because I did, didn´t you? Please, say it next time, if you feel it and want to express your emotions towards me. Not because you need to do it, only if you want to do it, understood?" He´s right about that, but I´m really not good at expressing my feeling towards him, towards anybody else. It´s not my kind to express such things to another person. I´m always a little bit scared, if my other doesn´t reply them, so I feel kind of bad after confessing feelings. But now he did the first step, I kind of likes his fast act. Then I was not ready to tell him the truth, that I need more time to think about a possible us and decide then, if I want a relationship with. But it´s clearly the fact, that I like him more than normal. I love to sink into his eyes and dream of another world, only with him, pink glasses on my nose, giving me a positive look through.
"That I will do next time", I promise him. I hope he forgets my failure and keeps going nice and charmante like he did before my unlucky confession. After speaking our thoughts, we stood up, leaving the bedroom for the kitchen, making two big cups of coffee, drinking it with pure happiness.
Coffee was giving by god, I think. It´s an elixir made by angels every morning. Something so delicious isn´t a human thing, I guess. It´s like fire, you do starve without that, because you can´t live without it.
Hm, I sink into the warm, brown drink, forgetting all problems in this world. It´s a little heaven for me. Calming down, before journey continues.
"We need to pack our things. In round about half an hour we start our adventure. I can only say, I´m searching for something special, so don´t be surprised, it could be a longer walk." Hm, what did he mean, as he said ´longer walk´? I don't like his kind of expressing.
"How long?" I ask him then. I hope, it´s not too long. My plants are dying, if I don´t give them water next week, maybe two weeks are the final. I don´t want to test, how long my plants can survive a duration.
"I really don´t know. I´m searching for something, one day or three months? That´s the first time I didn´t plan something special. But with you, every moment is to short." This last sentence should have a calming effect on me, but the only thing I thought of is, what I did get into again.
"Okay, we will see then, won´t we? It´s kind of funny you thought of me as your partner. Normally I like to plan all things to the finest details. I´m not adventurous in any kind of human way. I´m like a stone in this."
"Wanda, don´t make you worse than you are. You have a great personality; you have qualities other only dream of. You can do things, nobody else can. Act worthy like you truly are." He seems to think really positive about me, maybe it´s true? I don´t know, what else I should think. Maybe I think too much, actually I really have to many thoughts in my brain.
"Yeah, I try to speak and think better of me. I´m worthy, like each other person." Okay, that was good. And it´s true, too. Everybody has a right to be himself or herself.
"So, let´s start. We are going on an adventure!"