We are walking and walking, there´s no end in sight. My feet are hurting, every step seems to be a standalone trouble. Why did I agree to this journey? It´s not my kind to be so spontaneous and adventures my favourite, more likely the exact opposite.
"Wanda, if we need to go slower, do say it! I don´t want you to faint or something else, that´s kind of bad for us. I only said this, because I learned to know you better over the last five months. And I care about you, so don´t play a hero and tell me, if something goes downhill." He´s really nice to me! Even if I feel like a little girl next to him, I love the feeling that I´m cared about.
"Actually, what are we doing here? Walking through a big forest, are we searching something?" I´m really curious, I didn´t ask before, because I thought it´s something private and I don´t want to hurt him.
"Somewhere in the forest, my sister died. But there´s no corpse or anything that gives me a guess why she´s dead now. I have no calm in this cause, I must know, where she died and because of what. I need to know." He seems to be in another world as he told me the whole story why we are actually here.
At first, I really guessed that we are searching for gold or some other stuff, then I thought about my theory. Anthony does have enough money to live for thousand of years, then why does he need to search for it by himself? It would be unlikely for a man like him to search for something, when he gets more money while working in his own firm. It would be unthoughtful to let work be and risk a lot of money and the workplace for many workers, only to search for something that doesn´t want to be found.
To search for his sister is a different cause to walk through a forest with a lot of stones and treetops. I´m careful about the steps I take, because each metre there´s an obstacle that needs to be surmounted. Not long after, I´m falling to the ground, because I looked at Anthony´s back. He really has a nice, defined back. I like to focus my eyes on it. Every step he takes, a few muscles pull together and back to the origin state, when he pushes his foot down to the ground. A few saliva drops are coming down to earth, then I flied for a second, getting down to mother earth, giving her a warm hug.
Anthony seems quite surprised about my sudden stance. "Sorry, I didn´t look on the way. Excuse me." I smile at him, hopefully he forgets it soon. I don´t like to seem clumsy, if I am a grownup woman in real life. Never have been, never want to be. I´m nearly thirty, I´m no teenage girl with a curve of hormones that seems to drive roller coaster. Hello brain, focus!
"Come on, I help you stand up", he´s offering his hand to me. I take it willingly, letting myself be pushed up in a second, standing in front of him, pressing our hearts together. Oh, that thought is rushing through every vein I do have in my body. I´m feeling like an ant nest, getting no calm, always running to every end of my body and back to my heart again, do some dancing in my belly room and let my brain getting silly with these thoughts.
Then he went slowly down, shutting his eyes, coming nearer and nearer. Oh my god, he´s kissing me. It was such a long time ago, as we kissed us. I liked it very much, but now I love the rhythm he´s moving his lips against mine, dancing with them like a master of the art of kisses and romance in the middle of the forest.
After stimulating each other mouths, we are walking again into the forest. Without any concrete plan, only with a great map and a compass resourced, I don´t feel like it was a long ago, planned journey, rather a very spontaneous idea, for sure. He only said it, because I´m with him. Alone on this adventure is more likely a try for suicide. And maybe it´s a successful try, if I see the jungle before us. Why did I agree? Because I love him? Maybe, I do. Yes, if I don´t lie to myself, I do love him. Very much, with all of my heart, that didn´t happen before. I think of a situation, in which I had such curious feelings towards a man. I didn´t have. He would be the first one. In every way.
"I guess, we are on the right way to our goal. I liked to go hiking in this place with my sister every two years, to spend some binding time. With my firm and her medicine studies, we both had not much time together. And if we spent time together it was an unwelcome feeling at first, because we were alien to each other, we didn´t know us. But at the end of the journey, there was this feeling that we did it and reunited each other. I don´t know, if you know this feeling, but it was pleasant, very pleasant, to have somebody know you, besides my older sister. It was refreshing."
I can´t understand him. I don´t have any near relatives nor friends for family near me. I don´t to have, either. I like to be by myself, I really do. "Frankly, I can´t understand your words in your explained way, but I can think of it."
"Do you have any family left", he asks me directly. I answer "No." It´s a short answer, but I don´t want to talk about. I left my teenage life for a new start years ago and I´m truly happy about. I don´t want to think and talk about my old life ever again. Even if I want to do, I can´t.
He seems to be fine with my answer, I hope he does. More information is not going over my lips.
"I do can understand", are his final words about this topic. Wait! Why does he understand. He seems to have a nice family, why does he understand?