The words hit my eardrums like an amplifier and exploded into fragments. I heard the words echo tauntingly in my brain before I felt the agonizing pain. Then, I forget the words once the stinging pain hit me. It hit me as if it was nailing into the depths of my soul, twisting it and knotting it into all forms.
I felt my heart plummet to my stomach at the confirmation that my perfect loving boyfriend, the one who would convince me to stay, my only hope, was cheating on me.
There were a millions things I wanted to snap back at him. I wanted to yell at him, I wanted pound him to the ground and flatten him, I wanted to punch him for being a cheating bastard, I wanted to kick his balls so hard that it would bleed, I wanted slap him in the face for hiding this betrayal for god knows how long.
But all that happen was that I felt my spine shrink away as I stood there in silence, bringing no justice to the humiliating and hurtful bitter betrayal that I had just experienced.
I was supposed to be standing up for myself, but I couldn't muster anything at the moment.
I had never felt more ashamed of myself.
The reality ravaged me so much that I felt myself fall 10,000 feet to horrifying reality from the floating heavenly cloud nine I was on.
"Now that you know the truth, stop bugging us and leave us alone!" Hyerin spat to my face, rubbing salt to my fresh wound. I looked up at her slowly, my mind slowly recalling her familiar face. She was Donghae classmate, his so called 'friend' - the snotty and popular extremely wealthy girl that everyone in our school admired.
With a smirk and a prideful winning scoff, she tugged on Donghae's motionless arm. "Let's go oppa."
"...Why...?" I finally whispered softly, my head hanging low. Tears. I felt the stinging hot tears burn up in my eyes, shimmering with threat to drop any moment and reveal my painful sorrows.
"Don't you realize it now?" Donghae's voice came rough and harsh, that despite all the resentment and pain that were swirling in my nerves, I was aghast and frightened. "You're too boring, I just got bored of you. I was playing with you all these while."
"HAHAHA!" Hyerin snickered and with a vile smile, she took it as her que to step in as the now 'rightful' girlfriend and stab me in the heart even more. "Do you understand now? You're pitiful, being debt-ridden and all. Donghae doesn't need someone like you to bring his image down, his family would have never accepted you anyways. Ha! Your father was such an loser, I have such sympathy for your sad family."
I swallowed my dry throat, paralyzed with a sense of nostalgia and dread as Hyerin reminded me of my late father. As if the pain I was feeling now couldn't elevate any further, I felt it consuming me bit by bit, ravaging me to the world's end.
I remained motionless, just staring with solemn eyes as the words hit me like an oncoming truck, over and over again.
As if Hyerin didn't say enough, she reached for her purse and extracted some bills, grabbing my hands and placing it in my palms and closing it. "Go buy yourself some new clothes or something, I am surprise if anyone would ever actually want you. You're pitiful, just scram will you?"
She tugged a motionless Donghae away awhile I stared at the money in my grasp. I felt my world tip on a deadly axis and I shook my head as the tears spilled, one-by-one they gathered in my eyes and erupted freely. I released my palms and the bills dropped to the ground.
No, no, no! This couldn't be happening!
"...Donghae..." I whispered harshly, so hurt and bitter that I was roughly shaking.
"DONGHAE!!!!!!" I cried and I sprinted with jelly legs, refusing to accept the truth.
I didn't care how humiliating it was, I didn't care how much I had once laughed at girls who pleaded to stay with their boyfriends even though they cheated, I didn't care how pitiful I actually looked, I didn't care about my pride.
I grabbed him by his free hand and held onto it, I shook my head as my voice heightened with panic. It was too unfair for me to swallow.
"...P - Please... don't go... Please don't leave me, this is all a prank right?!" I begged, my tears spilling out of my eyes.
I couldn't accept the truth; I was in complete denial. Everything was going fine between us...
What he did next only stabbed me harder before, but this time, the knife that he had stuck into me, twisted in amusement awhile I screamed internally with immense pain.
He violently shook me off, his once kind and gentle eyes glaring at me. I fell to the ground then, seeing the colors of the rainbows flashed in my tears blemished eyes.
"Leave me alone Kara, we are over." He told me harshly awhile I stared at him with tear-filled eyes.
The pain from being mentally strangled by him was nothing I had ever experience. I was in agony, I was literally shaking in agony because I couldn't breathe and the pain was so excruciating that I couldn't help but feel the tears gathers in my eyes. He was relentless, he was merciless and he was unforgiving.
He was a completely different person.
Hyerin smirked, her ego rising to a all time high when he saw how he treated me. She scoffed at me pitifully, scorning at me as I fell to the ground, wailing to the world's end.
She leaned in nearer to me and whispered cruel and relentless words at me. "Like I said, who would want someone like you?"
Clenching his jaw together in anger, Donghae grabbed Hyerin and pulled her away from me, leaving me to wail at the ground, begging and pleading, not caring about the pedestrians who witnessed the scene gossip and sending me pitiful stares.
Right then, there was only two people in my world, Donghae... and me....
"No... No, No! Donghae this isnt funny anymore, please don't do this...!" I screamed, my voice cracking.
I watched helplessly at his retreating back, as my first love walked away, ignoring my sorrowful begs and cries of agony, holding onto another girl happily.
All I could feel in my trembling body was the waves of emotional pain that plagued every cell in my body. My chest was in unbearable agony, my lungs constricting rapidly to take in oxygen.
Black spots blurred my visions as I started to feel light-headed from all the gasping and crying. I felt the weight of the world lay on my eyelids while I fought between the need to succumb to the darkness or desire to fight to stay conscious.
"Donghae....left me.... He left me..." My voice cracked as the realization hit me.