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He was on his third smoke as he roams in his office alone. Another company managed to launch their whole ten designs for upcoming luxury cars. While his company had invested hundreds of millions for designs, manufacturing and upcoming launch. Though he wasn't directly involved in the project, the project was being dealt with Miller automobiles.
Just an hour ago he dismissed the C.E.O of that automobile industry, designers and all the planners associated with that project. Of course, he suspended them all until the investigation would run and the culprit will be identified. He managed to get his private investigators on this incident, too. But he could sense that matter was beyond that. There was some blind spot he can't figure right now.
It was a little past one when he returned. But the moment he stepped inside, he found Sydney sitting on the couch, sleeping. Her soft thin lips were parted as her head lay in quite an uncomfortable posture.
She is so beautiful. Maybe the most beautiful. For a moment he forgot everything that happened at his office. He recalled how badly he missed holding her, touching her, and listening to her sweet moans under him. Only he knew how he spent these past five days. Did she miss me? He thought.
Well, what else will explain her presence in my room? His mouth curled up recalling that event.
He still remembered the night when he found her unconscious beside that lake. And how he craved for her. Never in his life, he ever craved for anything as he craved for Sarah. And he knew that it will never change. And it never did until she came. She, who looked so innocent and perfect caught his heart just like Sarah did once without doing anything.
Dropping his bag he was about to scoop her when her eyes got open and she startled quite bad.
"It's me," He replied to her scared self and scooped her up in his iron arms.
She didn't resist as she rested her head over his shoulder and fisted his shirt. Though they hardly talk he noticed how their bodies had become so comfortable with each other. He knew that she trusted him with her body and it was indeed a success.
From silently doing every chore to pleasuring him she was best. She never complained about going out and never demanded his time. She was more than happy with whatever he provided her or is she?
This is when he noticed her inhaling deeply. She was smelling and nuzzling over his skin with her eyes closed. And he was still figuring out why she loves doing that every time they were close. Well, I will take it that she is happy.
Getting to his room he made her rest on the bed and joined her after getting to his casual clothing. She stirred a little before opening her eyes. A little confusion was on her face while her cheek got red when she found him staring. And that looks inviting because he couldn't resist grazing her hot cheek with his fingers while his thumb trailed her lips. Giving a peck on her lips he came over her all the while rubbing her skin with his hands and feet.
She had become a good kisser. It required his a lot of patience but in the end, it was rewarding.
Her breathing became audible. Coming down he gave open mouth kisses on her neck and trailed his tongue to her sweet tiny buds. Having them in his mouth was not less than heaven. That night in the camp when he first tasted them he knew he wanted this woman for the rest of his life no matter what.
This went on for some time and finally, he felt her body shaking with pleasure. He knew she was ready to take him. The way he felt with her was a lot more different from any other woman. With her, he was always very cautious. And he wasn't to blame for this. Whenever he touched her she felt so fragile like she would break if he wasn't careful enough.
Parting her legs he claimed her really slow while her body arched and her mouth hung open. He was already aware that he was a little too big for her but it was the least he could do for her. To be gentle. And he was always gentle. At least in the start. Because once she was lost in her ecstasy she never minds his wild faster strokes.
"Noah!" She shrieked his name while cuming for the third time while he rode her all through her orgasm. She was panting hard and tired. He leans in to kiss her sweaty temple as he whispered, "You feel so good." and let it all go in her while kneading her skin and nuzzling her neck.
She heard him say and she knew what she was going to think about all the time for the next day. He was strong and big. But it felt good. He felt good. She was beyond sore but whenever he would touch her she felt safe and loved.
The moment he held her in his arms she inhaled his scent again. It always made her feel secure. Somehow, she learned that as long as he was beside her not even nightmares would reach her. So, she drifted into sleep without any struggle while he keeps on caressing her hair or bareback.
He knew that they were not doing so bad. But the only problem was the lack of communication between them. And it was huge. She never talks much and for a part, he knew it was good because he didn't have much time to spend on little talks. But at least they could talk over breakfast, or dinner or maybe here right now. But he knew there was nothing they could talk about unless..... Unless they have kids. Yes, that was the plan all this time.
But he never paid much attention thinking it will happen but it wasn't happening. Kids were necessary to keep her with him. Wasn't it? And maybe after having kids he could trust her enough. And make her strong enough to get out into the real world where she can stand beside him.
Though caging her was a lot easy but it wasn't healthy or practical if they had to build a real family in the future. No matter how badly he wanted to trust her right now, he knew he can't.
Besides all this reasoning he couldn't help and imagine her body growing. He could already see how beautiful she would look in her pregnancy. Their kids will have her eye color or hair. But his daughter will never be this quiet. She can look like her but she has to be a lot intelligent and bold.
It was sane to believe that they will have a lot of things to talk about after having kids. They will talk about their kid's growth, their eating or sleeping habits and maybe where they are gonna take them for vacation.
Forget about it, Noah. You already know that there are no vacations in your life. But at least, she can take them but that too will require a lot of time. He huffed thinking all of this and looked at her for the last time.
"I hope nothing goes wrong." He whispered and kissed her forehead before sleeping.
At least if nothing goes right they will have something to argue about. He couldn't help but think about how she would look arguing. And this made him smile a little.
He realized she was changing him a lot. And for the first time in a while, he was content with his life. There was no pain or fire inside, killing him slowly. And he knew nothing will go wrong. Because he won't let anything wrong happen.
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"I want you to be ready at five in the evening. We have an appointment." He announced at the breakfast table. When she didn't react and only look at him he added, "We are going to see a physician."
"What physician?" She asked.
"She is a friend of mine, specialized in helping couples to conceive." He informed her casually having his breakfast.
Her heartbeat fastened. Conceive? Do I want to get pregnant? No!
"We can wait," She suggested. Her worried face made him doubt her intentions to stay with him.
"A Normal checkup won't hurt. And I was very clear about the things I wanted," He said and left from the dining table.
Clutching her fist and closing her eyes she tried to hold her anxiety. This is not happening.
And the next thing she knew was Noah sitting with her in a fertility clinic.
Her office had things that a fertility clinic should have. Pictures of newborn babies everywhere. They didn't have to wait and a lady came with a huge smile on her face.
"Good evening, Mr. and Mrs. Miller." That Dr. greeted. Noah greeted her giving a peck on her cheek. "How are you doing, Beatrice?" Noah asked.
"I am doing fine, and please call me Betty."
"Hello, Sydney," Betty greeted her with a smile.
"Hello," Sydney replied curling her lips up.
"Amancia told me about you. But you are far more pretty." That doctor complimented making Sydney confused but then she recalled Dr. Smith.
"Amancia who?" Noah asked quite alert.
"My mother in law. Who else? She was her doctor some months ago. But you tell me why I wasn't invited to your wedding? You know how much I loved to party. But let's talk about it any other day." She was way too talkative.
"So, tell me what's happening and what's not happening?" She added taking her seat.
Saying this Betty went to check their file.
"Come on, it's only been six months to your wedding. Or you two are trying to conceive even before that?" Betty asked.
"We are trying for the last four months," Noah answered making Sydney look at him. She didn't want to, but she feels betrayed.
All this time he was trying for this and didn't even tell me? She thought.
"Tbh, everything is good. Try for at least four months more, if not we will get into details. As for now, she can use ovulation kits and you two can have more frequent sex in her ovulation days."
She told Sydney about how to use ovulation kits. For Sydney, it was getting more difficult but she tried to stay put. At least she had four more months, now.
Noah and that lady doctor conversed a little more. From somethings they talk about Sydney collected that they know each other since their childhood and how Beatrice never wanted to become and marry a doctor and there she was. But the sparkle in her eyes and smile on her face didn't tell Sydney that she was unhappy with her life.
Saying their farewell Noah took her to the car and made her sit before getting to the driver's seat. He didn't take a driver with them today which was unusual about him.
She knew that Noah must haven't realized that it was their first time getting out together since she came to San Francisco. But then telling herself that it doesn't matter she silently watched the road.
There were many things she wasn't familiar with except a mart near her place. So, she silently watched the roads and building ahead. At night, the city was worth looking at. People seem happy with their loved ones.
Their drive went on for hours and she knew by now that they were not going home. But she didn't ask why? Because she liked their car roaming on the roads without any destination. She did want this journey to never end.
Noah stopped the car somewhere so uninhabited and got out. He rested against the bonnet of the car and lit the cigarette. After ten more minutes, she too got outside the car and followed him. But the view ahead her took the breath away. The whole city was there in front of them. She rested against the bonnet too and looked at the view. It was indeed so beautiful. They were standing there and admiring the view when a blackout covered the whole city.
A gasp escaped Sydney's mouth but Noah casually gets on the bonnet and leaned on the windshield.
"You don't want to miss seeing this." He said and she looked at the sky to find beautiful stars and a meteor shower. It seems so beautiful.
"Wow," She complimented. After a while, she was truly happy. Without any worry of this cruel world. Because for now, she didn't feel being part of this world. With him, she was invisible.
The sky looked so beautiful. It seems that the whole universe was giving them blessings from up above.
They lay side by side on the bonnet of the car. And admired the view until she felt his gaze on her. She turned to look at him. His eyes look deep and dark. Like he knows some dark secrets she doesn't. He leaned closer for a kiss when she came closer to meet his lips too. She liked the way he tasted or smell.
"Let's go home." He whispered against her lips. And she nodded knowing all too well what deeds they were going to do.
In the morning, she didn't forget to take her medicines. But this time she promised herself to talk to Noah about her decision of not having kids. He was bound to understand her. What can go wrong? Right?
He might don't talk to me for days but then he will get normal. At least I won't feel guilty for having pills after him.
Last night, had given her some courage. It was too clear that he wants to develop a bond and she was going to work for it too. Turning around she peeked out of the screen to look at him who was busy on his cellphone.
Today, she prepared extra treats. Setting the table she tried to make sentences in her mind. So, she could properly tell him about her fears of having a child. The ideal situation was that he agreed to not have a child ever.
Can't he see how bad this world out there to bring any other soul here? But if not at least he should spare her some years.
I am barely eighteen. Even Addison was nineteen when she got pregnant. She thought and her smile disappeared. She recalled how her whole life was nothing like many other people.
No, no, you aren't going there, Sydney. It's all good now. She took a long breath and started having breakfast. After sometime when she noticed he is almost done eating she started.
"I want to talk about,....." She trailed off. The words mixed up.
"About what?" He asked.
No, Sydney. Don't make this grave mistake. You tell him and he will be angry. He might hurt you. No, he won't hurt you. Why would he?
"I don't have all the time in the world for you, Sydney. Tell me what is it?"
What should I say? Oh God, anything just helps me with anything.
"Your cousin. I need to talk about your cousin's arrival she was here some days ago. It was nice meeting her." Sydney continued and took a breath of relief that she covered up and didn't even stutter. Now, that was a success.
She was so engrossed in her thoughts that she didn't even look at his expression but jumped when he shouted punching the table.
"Who the fu*k let her in?"
His voice came out so loud that her legs were shaking within seconds.
"I,...I thought," Her voice trembled and eyes moistened looking at his accusing eyes.
"WHY?" He screamed again.
When she didn't react he asked, "Where did you let her in? Did she visit our lawn? Our south wing? Or my study?" He asked punching the table so hard that everything shook and some glass spilled the juice.
"No, she_she was in the living room al_all the time." She replied shaking. His red eyes and hard expression was so scary.
"Were you with her all the fu*king time? Do you take the guarantee that she never roamed in MY HOUSE." He asked.
"I went to kitchen_kitchen," She tried to say but couldn't.
"For how long?" He asked impatient.
"40 mins, maybe, I was,....."
He didn't let her complete whatever she was about to say and pulled her by her arm. She hissed with all the pain shooting in her arm.
His fingers dig too deep in her skin. But next, he got up and dragged her with him. She stumbled and tripped on the way and was trying to keep with his pace.
"Noah!" She called him but he was in another trance. Every attempt to get out of his hold was in vain. He wasn't himself. He was not her Noah.
He took her to the south wing and punched some codes on the pad and the moment the door was unlocked he pushed her inside.
She rubbed her arm to dissipate the effect of his tight grip. Though she already knows it would leave a bruise.
"Noah," She called him in shock. Fear was laced in her voice with a tinge of disappointment.
"Don't, not right now, you are SO FUCKING STUPID. You know what? You are nothing but a mistake. I wasn't thinking. And this is the reason that you ARE FUCKING HERE." With this he left closing the door behind, leaving her alone in a place with dust all around and things wrapped in covers.
At that moment she didn't care about anything as his words keep ringing in her brain. You are nothing but a mistake.