"Open the fucking door kitten or I'm kicking it down."
That absolute bastard! Turns out he'd known where my new apartment was the whole time.. I guess it was only thanks to Nate that Blade hadn't turned up sooner!
Grabbing my cell phone I dialled the police and explained there was an intruder trying to break down my door and they said a car was on its way.
A loud bang and splintering sound alerted me to the fact the asshole had bloody broken down my bloody door!
Is this the same Blade I first met all those many months ago?
I hid beneath my bed, praying he wouldn't find me long enough for the police to arrive, reminiscing about the charming, beautiful man I had first known and - though I hadn't admitted it even to myself - fallen for.
Blade, since that awful attack, he was a stranger. I didn't know this man. I didn't trust him or his unpredictable nature.
One moment holding me and crying like he meant it then a few hours later kicking down my front door and terrorising me!
My bedroom door slammed open and I tried to curl myself up as small as possible to avoid detection, hardly daring to breathe. I hoped he wouldn't look too deeply and would assume I wasn't at home.. but of course I wasn't that lucky..
My foot was grabbed and he yanked me out from under the bed, sitting astride me so as to keep my lower half still. Grabbing both my hands in one of his he held them down on his thigh as he gazed into my eyes, his alight with satisfaction.
"Baby, you sure know how to get a man fired up. I'm not gonna let myself come again until we're married though so let's go to city hall!"
There was a saying.. 'you can't reason with a crazy person" and I was starting to get that.
"The police are on their way, even if you force me to get married I'll annul it after you're arrested for breaking and entering and abduction."
Blade sneered down at me and I was once again surprised by his level of vehemence towards me.. why was he so obsessed with marrying me if he hated me so much?!
"Oh little wildcat.. still so naive.. I own the police.. I own the whole fucking city."
I rolled my eyes defiantly and he laughed smugly before releasing me.
"Okay baby.. go find out.. wait for the police.. see what happens."
I dashed from the room and towards the exit, calling the police again to see how far out they were.
"Madam, we have received orders from President Night and will not be sending our men to your property. Stop wasting police time with your pranks."
She hung up before I could argue and I realised there was no point in fighting. A muscly man I didn't know was standing in the broken doorway to my apartment, Blade was behind me, Nate and Lane were away and the police weren't coming.
I was alone. I had no backup. I had nowhere to run. Nowhere to hide. So I decided to even the playing field. Stalking into the kitchen, fingers trembling with the adrenaline surging through my body I slipped a knife from the rack and held it behind my back. Wandering back out to the living area I took a seat on the couch and surreptitiously slid the knife behind the cushion.
"I won't be marrying you and I certainly won't be leaving here with you. Get out, leave, go away! I don't know why, after RAPING me you think any of this is ok but let me tell you.. if I didn't hate you before.. if there was a tiny tiny part of me that held out hope that you were truly sorry.. that's gone now.. you squashed it. I hate you Blade Night. I will never be your wife."
Fury lit his golden eyes and he knelt in front of me, rough hands gripping my thighs, pulling them apart violently.
"You say you hate me, but I'm gonna put my lips on you and have you screaming my name and then we're going to get married. You're mine T I just need to remind you of that."
Steeling my heart against what I may have to do I looked into his eyes, my own deadened.
"Blade.. you only have one chance.. take your hands off of me and leave my apartment."
Scoffing, he leant in to me, his familiar smell filling my senses.
"I'm not gonna put my dick anywhere near you.. this is all for you.. I'm just gonna make you come."
"Last chance Blade."
Smirking his hands moved to the top button of my jeans.
I gripped the knife and brought it down fast.
I hadn't intended it to be a killing shot and at the time I didn't consider that this would be triggering for his family as it was so similar to how they lost Flora.
All I was thinking was that I had said no.
I said no.
I didn't want to hurt him though.
I didn't want him to die.
I just wanted him to stop.
To take me seriously.
Oh God.. Blade!
You're not dead.. no.. no..
I just wanted you to stop.. not die..
Please.. no..
I didn't want to be weak.. to keep taking it.
I wanted to make you stop.
I said no.
I said no.
I said no.
* * * Sneak Peek at the next chapter! * * *
I knelt next to his grave and I sobbed, I cried like my heart was broken.. which I suppose it was. What had I done? How could I ever live with myself?