"Well, now
If little by little you stop loving
me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you
If you think it long and mad the wind of banners that passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots
Remember
That on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms
And my roots will set off to seek another land."
---------Pablo Neruda.
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E.H.
Fifteen years back.
Repressing memories could be a boon sometimes. The unwanted past won't be so tormenting then and it was far better than reliving the past each time.
My stay in Blue's hometown had got prolonged.I wasn't actually an ambassador for the university to be frank , simply a replacement. One of my buddies who was an official of the university board pulled some strings to create a placement for me.And here was I.
Only last week before I traveled here,I was announced one of the most handsome men on earth not to harm but I was also a self-made billionaire. Attention was good enough but whenever it got too much and suffocating, I would slip out.A place of peace was what I aspired and where people won't even know me was what I craved.Moreover I didn't like people who kept sticking their nose on other's business.
I had always been a loner so this escapades were my only abyss of passion.And by all means, these years of journeys kept me grounded. I learnt how to paint better, did learn to hike, kayaking, snowboarding, fishing, paragliding, camping, diving,learning judo and what not.
And this year when I landed in this God forsaken land of crowd and politics,I clearly felt drifted.It was way too dingy.Yet,I went with the flow.A intense pull like that of a siren stung my mind.
Normalcy was what I seeked.Hence I tried to act up like a real university representative but my life got blasted in its wake.
That collision was probably the best peerless miracle that could have ever happened. A clumsy ordinary girl crashed into my life and rocked it with her mere presence .
After that, each day was a surprise. One day she would make me mad,then awestruck,then make me feel sudden envy,love,confusion and sadness.
She was the drug that made me feel both high and low at the same instance.A pandora box.
And when she balantly introduced me to her parents,I was impressed. Unknowingly though I was blessed with a family, full of warmth and flaws.
Even now,I still remember the day her parents invited me to lunch.I was bit flabbergasted by it.Their spicy dishes and their culture a bit different from mine. My impact on them,their perception regarding me....
All together I felt like an ass.
But let me assure you anything of that sort didn't happen.....