A week passed by as easy as the flow of water. Our relationship had been better than before, if you exclude the smut, however I still haven't said something to Mark about Nick.
You know Mark can be easy to talk to sometimes but he's very very dense. We three, except Mark, had known that we have been accumulating feelings towards our eldest brother. But we didn't have the guts, the backbone, the determination to confess to him. Because he was our father figure, we had respected him, while us, his brothers just had malicious intent, maybe incest, to our brother.
We had to restrict our own emotions, causing a lot of pent up stress without any way of relieving those emotions.
That night, when I went alone to the living room, I made sure to not be seen my brothers to do my thing. When Nick went to bath, I also checked on my sleeping brothers and decided to do it as fast as I can.
As I walk towards the sofa, I pondered a little. It's been so long since their love has not been reciprocated and maybe he should just find a woman for himself and leave his brother's nest. Since his feelings have been planted for so long, he will now sow the fruits of his labor and plant a different plant. To change his current life of torture on unrequited love and settle down with a woman.
Sitting down the sofa, I slowly unzip my pants and hold it in my hands on a tight grip. Mine would not look better than his brothers but mine has grith. Stroking it in a few ups and downs, I imagined Mark, laying down the bed with his ragged look, his clothes open, and his thigh lifted up in the air to show his cheeks.
From the memories I remember, my brother, Mark, always had his back for us, whenever and wherever. He had supported us and grown into a fine, handsome, reliable adult than any other.
He is kind, gentle, caring and most of all loved us all. And that is the reason why we felt this way. Even though we knew its kinda taboo. However none of us known each others intention towards Mark, only that we each have feelings for the sturdy pillar of their family.
Picturing his brother's handsome sleeping face, I hold mine tighter. But before I could continue, I heard steps coming down the room the closes in to me.
"Do you need help with that? I can give you a hand?"
I lifted my head and saw Mark's face full of worry.
"Just keep it a secret and go back."
"Why? You look so pained from your own rubbing, I could help you with a gentler one. I read a book recently that having another person's hand on yours could help you feel better. Don't you want my help?"
"Are you insisting to give me help or are you mocking me?"
"Of course I need to help you, your my brother! If Nick and Carl also needed help then i would also help them. Why won't I? You're all my brothers and you're all that I have left. If you needed my help, I would extend my hand. Trust me."
I secretly felt happy of his words, but something inside me feels so complex. Maybe because I can't have him for myself only and the others also needed him.
" Will... Will you keep it a secret to them? "
" If you don't want it to be known, then I will keep it a secret. If I could help everyone, then I would keep everyone's secret, well unless if its for a good cause, however something trivial as giving a hand to my brother is not that serious of a crime against law. "
Then his words strucked me, and now complex emotions well up inside me debating if I could take this chance or continue hiding my feelings for him.
Then I took the bait. And just the feeling of his hands wrapping around my shaft made me aroused with dripping milk.
And only after a few moments did the milk splashed on his hands and in my torso. After that, he helped me get some clothes to change to. As I see his back, the emotions inside me began to loosen and I knew that if I had one more chance, I had to take it no matter what.
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After helping my brother with a hand, I realised that this situation had happened in front of Carl with his boss and Co worker on his mork then I gazed on my hand and wondered how if felt like being touched and helped by another.
After changing, I persuaded my brother to sleep now so that Nick would not be suspicious however I was surprised on my brother's words.
"Do you also need help."
"On what?" Even though I asked what, I knew what he meant but I had done it before going to bed. I started to panic a bit if mine can get high after doing it once already. But I hesitated.
"On yours. You know what I mean?"
"A... About that, I already did mine inside the bath before bed so you don't have to help me." my words came out my mouth with a flustered tone not knowing what to do about Tom's proposition. If other people would know about this, he could fall into jail. But, 'if' others knew?
I didn't know why, but I convinced myself that it's okay because it will be kept a secret and it will not be filed as sexual harassment.
"We could try. It also will become a secret between the two of us." He coaxed me in.
"Fine."
I sat beside him in the sofa, as he places one of his hand on top of my groin as I feel mine get excited by a touch even with two layers of cloth covering it.
Undoing my pants slowly, he grips mine in a tight hold as I felt arousal through my body.
'So this is how it feels. Feels good.'
As the pillar slowly rise, calloused hands covered mine as he moves in an upward downward motion.
Only a few more movements did another batch of my milk gets released as Tom gets tissue to clean.
" I'll clean myself. "
" No, this is a secret between us. So I'll help since its already a secret."
Hearing the flow of water stop inside the bathroom, Tom cleans me in one fell swoop while I was distracted as he pulls me to the room and made me sleep.
All throughout the night, I wasn't able to sleep until 1 am.